u/D3ebs

I know I've been posting on Reddit a lot recently and I feel like a whiny crybaby but I've been asking my friends about wanting to come to my birthday party that's on the 29th. I've been planning it for nearly a month and I've set up short Google forms for them to vote on like what games are there because I'm not sure what they like, and what food to buy, what music to put in a playlist, because I'm trying to he considerate of them and let them have stuff that actually interest them too and not just me.

Only 3 of the 10 people I sent it to actually responded and two of the 3 aren't even sure if they can come. I don't know if there's something wrong with me or if they don't like me or something and I try to be cheerful and be myself but it feels like I'm not much to them. I don't know if they do care about me and just don't show it much, (besides a couple) or if I'm just not good enough for them.

What do I do in this situation? I want to feel like part of something and not just a side friend that doesn't add much.

Edit: I didn't mention before, but I'm turning 16

I know I've been posting on Reddit a lot recently and I feel like a whiny crybaby but I've been asking my friends about wanting to come to my birthday party that's on the 29th. I've been planning it for nearly a month and I've set up short Google forms for them to vote on like what games are there because I'm not sure what they like, and what food to buy, what music to put in a playlist, because I'm trying to he considerate of them and let them have stuff that actually interest them too and not just me.

Only 3 of the 10 people I sent it to actually responded and two of the 3 aren't even sure if they can come. I don't know if there's something wrong with me or if they don't like me or something and I try to be cheerful and be myself but it feels like I'm not much to them. I don't know if they do care about me and just don't show it much, (besides a couple) or if I'm just not good enough for them.

What do I do in this situation? I want to feel like part of something and not just a side friend that doesn't add much.

I'm going into my junior year of highschool and I turn 16 in a few weeks, so I feel like I'm old enough to set my own bedtime as well as not having a downtime on my phone due to parental controls. I understand needing to get sleep and I'd put myself to bed when I'm tired because I do that anyway whenever I have the free will to like when I'm at Holiday at my grandma's house or on a trip somewhere. I need to wake up at 7 in the morning to get ready for school and I understand that I have a history of being sluggish in the morning, but I want to change that. I'm getting older and I'd like more responsibility.

Having parental controls on my phone isn't an issue to me, but I don't like having a downtime from 10pm to 8am, id like the freedom to be responsible about my screen time because it's not like I'm on my phone all the time. Sometimes I just like having music to listen to while sleeping to block out my brothers snoring, or sometimes I wake up in the middle of the night and I'd want to check my phone or put on something to listen to. I just find it annoying to deal with, especially because conversations with my friends sometimes last past that time and I don't like missing out.

Any advice for me to prove that I'm worthy/convince my mom?

Tldr - I have a bedtime and a screentime that I'd like to have control over as I'm turning 16 going into junior year. How can I convince my mom that I deserve this responsibility and I'm able to handle it?

She keeps pressing me to prepare for a future (with duel enrollment while I'm already in IB) that I don't even see and then I feel bad about myself because I feel like theres something wrong with me because I don't know what I want to do with my life. I don't know how to tell her that I just don't know, but I know she's trying to do well for me, but I just don't like the idea of changing what I already have going on at school for a future that I genuinely don't see.

I'm not the greatest student and I get average grades. I feel like my current classes are the only thing keeping me connected to my friends and if I leave them, I'll be by myself and feel miserable. I've recently felt dull on the inside and I don't know what I really enjoy anymore besides stuff like gaming and potentially making videos/music production. I don't know what I'm going to do for college and I feel like I'm wrong because I'm going into my junior year of high school.

Please help me figure myself out and if there's something wrong with me

She keeps pressing me to prepare for a future (with duel enrollment while I'm already in IB) that I don't even see and then I feel bad about myself because I feel like theres something wrong with me because I don't know what I want to do with my life. I don't know how to tell her that I just don't know, but I know she's trying to do well for me, but I just don't like the idea of changing what I already have going on at school for a future that I genuinely don't see.

I'm not the greatest student and I get average grades. I feel like my current classes are the only thing keeping me connected to my friends and if I leave them, I'll be by myself and feel miserable. I've recently felt dull on the inside and I don't know what I really enjoy anymore besides stuff like gaming and potentially making videos/music production. I don't know what I'm going to do for college and I feel like I'm wrong because I'm going into my junior year of high school.

Please help me figure myself out and if there's something wrong with me

I'd just like to vent about something and if the way I feel is normal or right