u/D3rmeow3

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I feel like such a loser being 21 almost 22 and having 0 social life or friends at all

I have agoraphobia, but i have tried and im going to therapy, i just, never had a true friendship in my whole life

All those who i once considered friends have ended up hurting me in horrible ways

I no longer know whats wrong with me, i keep trying everything ive changed i have been myself, i have faked someone else, but they all end up the same

I genuinely have given up trying to make friends, im terrified of it because it always ends up horribly

I feel like such a loser being 21 almost 22 and having 0 social life or friends at all

I have agoraphobia, but i have tried and im going to therapy, i just, never had a true friendship in my whole life

All those who i once considered friends have ended up hurting me in horrible ways

I no longer know whats wrong with me, i keep trying everything ive changed i have been myself, i have faked someone else, but they all end up the same

I genuinely have given up trying to make friends, im terrified of it because it always ends up horribly

Im 21, and suffer a lot of chronic conditions, that have affected my life a lot

I know i wont live as long as others, i know my health will eventually catch up to me and its honestly scary

I have never been scared of death, im not, but i just cant help but feel this is unfair, not only do i not gwt to live as long, but what i live is on pain and suffering, there's not a single moment my body doesn't hurt, i dont feel sick or like throwing up

Im so tired