u/DAPHNESMASK

If you haven't seen my previous posts on digital minimalism or no surf, I quit Tumblr 4 days ago because I was harassed off my Fandom space. And I've been a little better I guess, I've lowered my crying and I'm a little better

But I realize there's bigger issues that's stopping me from healing. How I take things Hella personally

2 things have been ruining my days​​

1. I got unmooted by someone I really liked because they don't like my opinion on a character,i thought we were respecting each other's opinions. I guess not. They also left because they said my friend offended them. But I'm not my friend like why? They said we can still be friends but what's the point if ur still being dry to me? Like it's like I'm chasing you. And I truly love their works I can't just unfollow back​ that would kill me

2. I got blocked by someone I really really liked. Like their content​​ was nice. I think it's bc of an old drama (someone harassed and accused me of shit and I had evidence they weren't correct) but I got. Blocked and I feel rejected. I haven't done anything wrong to them. I'm just so tired

These shouldn't affect me too much but it does. And it's what makes me cry for hours.

And I really blame myself for it. I'm just so tired and depressed idk what to do

The withdrawal is starting to wear off, I'm feeling a little better. And more crafty but I can't do crafts until my exams finish so waiting!

​Still a bit depressed but I'm getting there. I think by 2 weeks max I'll be fully healed

I quit Tumblr after being harassed off the app, I used to be a Fandom poster

I deleted my posts but not. My acc I'm too scared

And I'm going through severe withdrawal, I miss my mutuals and I miss posting, I also miss seeing creators I love. I have such horrible FOMO

I use the website so it's not as easy as deleting the app

I'm also upset bc of previous stuff that happened on there (Got blocked by people that I found awesome, harassed, lost mutual for no reason) and I'm js upset

I opened up to my dad who gave me advice but for some reason I can't just settle down, what do I do?? I'm so depressed​

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So I'm hypersharing, I love my doubles. And this one double I really love bc I look up to and they inspire me. And we ended up becoming friends

Well they randomly unfollowed me and I decided to see why

Basically I'm hypersharing to doubles but I don't like sharing with Canon characters

And this one Canon x fo ship makes me so annoyed bc the character I don't like generally and reminds me of people I know and don't like

And I jokingly hate on this characters, no hate to her fans ofcourse

Now I got a response and it said I'm bringing women down just for being affiliated with my fo when that's not the case this chafacter I just don't like

And she said we can still talk and be friends sure but we can't be moots

And I'm just so annoyed and upset because what'd I even do here I even made a post talking about why I don't like this characters and a heads up​​​​​

And I loved this moot they taught me to draw

And now I'm js annoyed and upset and shit

So like am I wrong here??

I'm proud of myself for making that decision. Though its not stopping me form crying :(​

I saw some of my oldest posts. And I was the happiest during that era like I was so happy what happened to me​

Wassup I'm the girl who was talking abt quitting Tumblr. I managed to only reblog mutual and talk to them but not post!! Yay progress :D

Maybe one day I can quit but for now I'm taking it slow

I'm still upset about some rude interactions though​​ so if anyone can give advice on how to get over interactions it'd help

I've gotten in a few, one very severe drama (I'd rather not discuss it was deeply traumatic) but this rude interaction is pretty minor it just upsets me so much bc I actually liked the person who did it ifykwim ​​​

I have really bad attachment to things and this interaction makes me so sad so any advice can help

Wassup I'm the girl who was talking abt quitting Tumblr. I managed to only reblog mutual and talk to them but not post!! Yay progress :D

Maybe one day I can quit but for now I'm taking it slow

I'm still upset about some rude interactions though​​ so if anyone can give advice on how to get over interactions it'd help

I've gotten in a few, one very severe drama (I'd rather not discuss it was deeply traumatic) but this rude interaction is pretty minor it just upsets me so much bc I actually liked the person who did it ifykwim ​​​

I have really bad attachment to things and this interaction makes me so sad so any advice can help

Sorry if this is cringe or stupid

I'm a relatively young teen, and I have audhd. I have special interests

And I'm relatively lonely. I'm mentally unwell asf and decided to try social media

For abt a year now I've been in my favorite Fandom posting stuff of my special interests on Tumblr and I've made so many friends and stuff

However after some incidents. I've grown to resent it and the community I've been primarily posting in. It's toxic and it's ruined my mental health. I want to be free but I can't I feel so scared and here's some reasons that I've gathered​

I have HPD ​​and I'm a huge attention seeker, I feel invalidated if I don't post. Especially bc my stuff is cringe. I post for attention. And the fact I won't get any makes me so sad

I get SEVERE fomo. And it's in many ways. I'm scared of my mutuals moving on​​ and getting into new stuff and fun stuff. And people posting stuff of my fave character and I won't get to see

​I am very depressed and numb without it. I fear I'll suffer But Tumblr makes me hurt so it's hs a loop

I feel like social media detox advice doesn't work for Fandom related communities. I don't know why.

I'm also not able to go out and stuff, and I don't really have a nature area. I'm also super busy I'm ongoing my final exams

Summer break will also be very very eerily silent I'm usually on a social media site. Idk what to do then​

Also how do I keep my special interest without posting about it. I love my special interests :(

I think limitation is better, but it's so silent, what do I do? ​

Edit: for someone who asked, I don't have access to therapy and stuff so it's really hard