u/DHARMAHydra

This has been going on for years. Today, my mom told me to put stuff on the counter top in the fridge. Simple enough. So I put the stuff away, and I guess I got clumsy and nearly made her salad fall. She was about to start criticizing me for how I placed the stuff I needed to put away, but I told her to not start with me right now. She got... confrontational after I said that. She yelled to not test her, that she was my mother, and she threatened me not only to call my Dad who is in Florida about this, but also my therapist, who's my only real support right now. She comes close to wanting to hit me but never does.

I'm 26 and I have been dealing with this for a long time. I hate it. I cannot move. I have no income. I have no job. I stay in my room all day for the most part in self isolation. I hate where my life is at. I try to ask for help to my therapist as well as a support group that I am in, but a lot of the advice I get doesn’t apply to my current circumstances. They say, "How about you go out for a walk or something?" I can't. My folks won't even trust me to go on even a walk, much less the local McDonalds or the library by myself. I have to deal with their yelling, screaming, arguing, and shitty modern pop music for a long time, and I cannot take it anymore. I have no friends. Only a therapist at this point. I try to explain to her my struggles. She understands them, but after the week's session, there is more bullshit that happens to me. I HATE MY LIFE. I have had it. I want help, but the help I get most times doesn’t help. I need support, but I don't need to reiterate the situation I'm in. I'm in a burnout after having a meltdown over a plastic cinnamon container spilled into my coffee, and caused a massive spill on the floor, on the counter top, and on my clothes... 10 minutes before I had to leave before my speech appointment. I'm angry all time. I'm upset all the time over small things. I need help.

I was thinking about how I could possibly make money off of doing my special interests. I know that I can't really work outside or anything like that, so I'm trying to come up with virtual ways, if I can. For the record, my primary special interest is movies and television. I use them as an escape from the madness of the real world, just like how some of you would use video games, books and the like. I'm very passionate about the subject, so I want to find a way to use that passion so the job feels fulfilling to me. I already use Letterboxd to review movies, but obviously I don't make any money off it (or attention for that matter. Then again most AuDHD people suffer from that kind of thing). If anyone has any ideas or advice, it would be greatly appreciated.

I tried everything. Privacy dot com doesn't work for me. None of the resellers (as far as I know) don't accept Discover cards. I get it. Real-Debrid is in France. I used to buy RD time when Capital One was with Mastercard easily. I refuse to use crypto. The other competitor buffers while RD doesn't, so I want to keep using it, but I can't. I have 68 days left on the account, so I better make some time doing stuff with it. It's just so frustrating when a product that you like suddenly isn't accepting your payment of choice. Oh well.

For anyone who has only a Discover card like I do, does buying RD via a Privacy dot com card (possibly a temp one, feel free to clarify) work with Discover cards? If so, is it complicated creating an account? I don't really want to give them my ID or anything at all like that on the internet, hence why I'm asking.

So, I have started to use Torbox simply because my bank switched over to using Discover cards, and RD doesn’t accept them at all.

My main issue with Torbox right now is that it constantly buffers on 4K REMUX files on Nuvio (an alternative app to Stremio), despite my internet being able to handle them on RD. I even compared the exact same file from when I opened them via Torbox and RD. RD doesn't give me any issues, while Torbox buffers.

I don't even use Torrentio so I know that's not the issue, and I tried switching the CDN on the Torbox website but same thing happens. I would continue to use Real Debrid instead, but as discussed above, I don't have a way to pay for it anymore. Is there anything I can do to improve the buffering on TorBox or are others dealing with this same issue and there's not much I can do?