u/Dabarube

I’ve taken several online attachment style tests, and I usually score as either anxious or disorganized, depending on the test. I’m not sure which one fits me better.

From what I can tell about myself, I generally want closeness consistently and and also fear abandonment.
I overthink a lot and also have anxiety during social situations.

Never been in a romantic relationship and I struggle to maintain long term friendships. I have a bad habit of self sabotaging and also ghosting friends.

Recently learned about attachment styles, so I’m trying to understand myself better and become more secure.

I’m 5’2” and bald, and those have been my biggest motivations for trying to improve my appearance. But the more I learned about improving my appearance , the worse my body image became. For example, I found out I have narrow clavicles and a small frame, which people say are important for building an aesthetic physique, especially at my height. The major things girls look for physical attraction is tall, dark and broad shoulders. I am none of those.

I’ve stopped going down the looks maxing rabbit hole and have been trying to focus on training instead, but I can’t stop noticing all my flaws and comparing myself to other guys at the gym. It feels like the more I try to improve myself, the more flaws I find. I honestly think my body dysmorphia has gotten worse.

I recently started going to the gym, and since then I’ve been binge-watching a lot of fitness content. Eventually I came across looksmaxxing, and instead of motivating me, it ended up making me insecure about things I never even thought about before.

I’m 5’2” and bald, and those have been my biggest motivations for trying to improve my appearance. But the more I learned about looksmaxxing, the worse my body image became. For example, I found out I have narrow clavicles and a small frame, which people say are important for building an aesthetic physique, especially at my height.

I’ve stopped going down the looksmaxxing rabbit hole and have been trying to focus on training instead, but I can’t stop noticing all my flaws and comparing myself to other guys at the gym. It feels like the more I try to improve myself, the more genetic flaws I find. I honestly think my body dysmorphia has gotten worse, and I’m starting to become more blackpilled because of it.