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Bondhu xot kunubae thaki asa niki Thane’t? Haven’t met one Axomiya here till now 😅 been only a week baru. Do lmk, would be nice to meet a fellow assamese!

I leave home again tomorrow. From the extreme northeast to Mumbai, basically the other end of the map. This part never gets easier. I really love being here.

Things with my parents have always been complicated, especially with my dad. He was quite abusive when I was younger. Over the years I’ve somehow made peace with it. We’ve spoken about it a few times. He never really apologised, but he did start respecting some boundaries. He’s still toxic, just manageable now. Not perfect, but something I’ve learned to live with.

Maa is a typical brown mom. Comparisons, constant concern, all of that. She just wants me to be happy in her own way. She turned 59 this year, dad is 63 now. They’ve both mellowed down a lot with age. And despite everything, they’ve always provided for me. So I can’t reduce it all to just the bad parts.

We’re financially sorted. No obligations on me. Sibling is doing well, mom has her own income, dad has a comfortable retirement corpus. I’m genuinely grateful for that.

Which is why I don’t fully understand this need to leave and prove something to myself. I could stay back, take a lower paying job, still save more, live comfortably. But no, I want to go out, be independent, maybe feed my ego a little.

I’m 25, turning 26 in June. I’ve done this before during my PG, so I know I’ll adjust again. Still sucks every time though.

Plan for now is to work in Mumbai for a year. After that, I’ll see. Maybe I come back and settle here, maybe I don’t. Let’s see where life takes me.