u/Dangerous_Let_8930

Helpppppp🙂

I don’t know how to explain this, but I need to share it with someone.

I was in a long relationship where everything was good at first, but later he started sharing our private issues with his friends. Even during our biggest fight that happened 5 months ago, everyone around him knew what was happening between us. I’m an introvert with barely one close friend, but I still kept everything private because I believed relationships should stay between 2 people.

I tried fixing everything. And this problem got bigger and my parents also came to know abt this one day when i almost collapsed after crying for hours.I even got slapped by my father because we had a physical relationship, and despite me asking him not to tell anyone, he still shared it with his one frnd.

He kept blaming me, verbally abusing me, comparing me to his ex, mocking my medical condition and unemployment at that time (bcoz i was handling a medical illness), insulting my father, and saying cruel things like he would’ve been better off with a prostitute. He and even one of his female friends told me to go die. He questioned my worth as a woman and made me feel completely broken.

Even after saying I wanted to leave many times, I kept going back because I accepted his apologies. But now I’ve finally decided to leave for good.

Still, my heart feels unbearably heavy. I can’t sleep, I feel scared over small things, and I’m afraid people might raise their voice at me the way he did. I keep asking myself how someone who once said “I love you more than anything” could hurt me like this, and why I stayed long enough to let him break me completely.I am really afraid... I am totally in pain.. I can't even sleep.. Even after taking 2 sleeping mints daily.. I don't know how i will recover from this trauma.

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u/Dangerous_Let_8930 — 10 days ago

Helpppppp🙂

I don’t know how to explain this, but I need to share it with someone.

I was in a long relationship where everything was good at first, but later he started sharing our private issues with his friends. Even during our biggest fight that happened 5 months ago, everyone around him knew what was happening between us. I’m an introvert with barely one close friend, but I still kept everything private because I believed relationships should stay between 2 people.

I tried fixing everything. And this problem got bigger and my parents also came to know abt this one day when i almost collapsed after crying for hours.I even got slapped by my father because we had a physical relationship, and despite me asking him not to tell anyone, he still shared it with his one frnd.

He kept blaming me, verbally abusing me, comparing me to his ex, mocking my medical condition and unemployment at that time (bcoz i was handling a medical illness), insulting my father, and saying cruel things like he would’ve been better off with a prostitute. He and even one of his female friends told me to go die. He questioned my worth as a woman and made me feel completely broken.

Even after saying I wanted to leave many times, I kept going back because I accepted his apologies. But now I’ve finally decided to leave for good.

Still, my heart feels unbearably heavy. I can’t sleep, I feel scared over small things, and I’m afraid people might raise their voice at me the way he did. I keep asking myself how someone who once said “I love you more than anything” could hurt me like this, and why I stayed long enough to let him break me completely.I am really afraid... I am totally in pain.. I can't even sleep.. Even after taking 2 sleeping mints daily.. I don't know how i will recover from this trauma.

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u/Dangerous_Let_8930 — 10 days ago