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I’ve been suffering from DPDR since I was a child, I want to believe in changes , I keep telling myself if I keep trying and don’t give up, I can be useful , I can at least function , that’s my wish
But time flies , that hope was once an obsession ; failed then become a delusion , keep hanging on; and then become a disappointment , every cloud has silver lining , there are bad times , there are good times, didn’t give up. Eventually it’s no longer obsession, or delusion , or disappointment .
At the turning point of my life ,college is happening, I find myself living under endless fear, fear that I am too dangerous to myself, if I don’t give up now, I will destroy myself , the society is going to destroy me, seeing myself destroyed will destroy me . Future is a curse and a suicide mission , and the chance of survival is like betting on lottery .
Death can be a solution, honestly , how funny they never told us it’s okay to have suicidal thoughts and actions, death shaming is the last thing a desperate person needs , don’t know f that makes sense to anyone.

New studies have found that the best way to let people forget there’s ongoing genocide in China is to emphasize its cool technology .
And it works, it turns out when people see high speed trains and mobile payments, they are more likely to believe that Tibetans’ human rights matter less or nothing at all.
Or they don’t like their government, so their way to rebel is to please the world’s biggest authoritarian and racist regime . How hard it is to fight one’s domestic enemies without relying on an orientalist icon?
So here’s what’s happening , People see Palestinians’ starving on a instagram reel they want to advocate, however Tibetans’ quiet sufferings can’t do the same thing to them. That’s bit strange, if they are so sensitive to genocide, why everyone thinks China is a representative of global fashion nowadays?
Let’s quote a Taylor Swift song which demonstrates the very truth behind this tragedy: the game was rigged, the ref got tricked, the wrong ones think they’re right .
But China can’t erase us, and people who thinks China is fashionable will one day find themselves being terribly wrong, we just need to keep advocating and fighting
China will never become fashionable.

My life could be at least a little better if one of them are willing to go to a therapist and not trying to stop me from getting one

My life could be at least a little better if one of them are willing to go to a therapist and not trying to stop me from getting one

I am a Highly Sensitive Person who lives in China where therapy is a rare sort of thing .
I’ve been struggling to cope with all my heavy thoughts,uncontrollable stress coming to me and finally realized I need to get a therapist.Not a doctor Chinese hospitals provide when you are diagnosed as mentally disabled,but someone that can guide me through my tough times and help me recover.
Since I can only get an online therapist right now,would you recommend it?

我自己是真的被B到要跑的
你们呢？

听上去似乎比巴尔干路线和Darían Gap路线都要安全，需要的证明也比旅签少很多，也不需要蛇头带似乎，为什么不怎么见有讨论的？

I am a Chinese ,and under severe human rights violations operated by my father and the state.I was trying to seek asylum,but my father took control over everything .because his relationship with the state,so it’s extremely hard for me to even leave the country safely ,and China has a policy of 连坐，if I seek asylum in other countries,my family,especially my sister,will be punished (limited career options).It’s just too much to carry a life without any good things to look for,and even a escape seems to be impossible (Europe and America has become so hostile to refugees,which makes things even worse, and Balkan routes,a common route used by Chinese refugees,is extremely dangerous)
I can’t live a life in China with every parts of me shatters under insecurity and fear ,but leaving feels impossible,I just want this to stop,no more suffering and pain

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