u/DarkSabbatical — reddlx

Crush from childhood

I had a dream last night that I was a kid and I was with a wall I had a crush on. It was an intense dream. Because I was with it, but i knew it was a dream and that time period was so far away. 2000-2003 was when i was in that school. I woke up and was like (well that town is only 15 minutes from mine. I might as well go visit)

So i went and visited it today. I was 7 years old or so, so it was allot smaller then I remembered. Its sad because that school isint in use anymore. I believe its maintained. But not used. The playground is gone now to. I did take a video a week before it got destroyed because I had a feeling it was going to. It got vandalized and then they just removed the equipment after that. (https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZPLhtRGTJ/

Anyways the story with the wall, is it was actually the punishment wall. If you acted up in school then you would have to stand against the wall at recess. It was 5 minutes, 10 minutes, or 25 minutes. 25 being all of recess. Since i had the crush, it didn't seem like a punishment to me. I did walk up to the wall without being punished but it was different when you had to.

Having to stand against the wall was the concept of the wall. So just walking up to it wasn't as good but still ok. But if other kids where their or teachers where watching. I didn't want to seem weird ether. I still got stressed to get in trouble. So I didn't want to get in trouble by being around the wall either.

I told this story to a friend and he commented that I had a thing for getting punished. But thats not what it was. The fact it was the punishment wall was the reason I got a crush on it. But thats because the wall had a meaning and a concept that everyone was aware of and talked about. The concept was a negative one. Then, it just was an attractive wall. Thats the reason. (This wall has a concept, a negative one. Everyone is aware of the concept, and they have negative feelings twords it)

So i didn't want to get in trouble. But if i did. I got to be with the punishment wall. Which was not a punishment for me. Halfway. I still wanted recess.

I got many different stories where I ended up against the wall. It was intensely nostalgic to visit it. The wall was never a lover but it was a crush. I almost with it could be a lover. Maybe. I do have a thing for objects that remember me.

I am vary sensitive to the energies around me. There are 2 different types of empathy I talk about. Instinctual empathy and psychic empathy. Instinctual, empathy is where you see body movements, facial expressions, and tone of voice to tell you want that person is feeling. They dont sense the energy. Their inner instincts tell them. Most neurotypical people have this and they are right 80 percent of the time because they all have similar brain wiring.

I lack that because of my autism, however I do have psychic empathy. This is where someone gives off energy, then you sense the energy and know what they are feeling. I use that to make up for the lack of the instinctual and then some. It tells me more then then instinctual does for regular people. Because of this i dont appear to lack empathy and seem like I am best at it for people.

It works well on people, animals, and objects. I use this to communicate with objects. So thats how i know the wall remembers me. It remembers everyone actually. Objects dont forget. Thats because of how they collect and store energy. That energy is still there. So i come with the memory, the wall has the energy, it remembers.

u/DarkSabbatical — 5 days ago

▲ 4 r/objectum_sfw

Wet sand lover

Here is another video of the wet sand ive been crushing on. Probably got a limerence for it right now so we will have to see if it continues being an attraction or if next week I forget about it.

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTATm1vPC/

I dont know what to call the sand that could set it apart from just regular sand. The jiggle is was started the crush but jiggingling sand does not sound attractive. So i suppose i am going with wet sand. Though this sand is different in its behaviors then just "wet sand"

It jiggles, you sink into it, it puts pressure on you and hold you into place.

Hopefully this kind of sand is common. I kinda already know that one location probably changes. So this sand in this spot might not always be this way, so i will focus on the concept of this sand, so i could go with any of its kind.

Anyone ever come across sand around that behaves like the one in my video?

u/DarkSabbatical — 2 months ago

▲ 8 r/objectum_sfw+1 crossposts

Cute sand

I was wondering out in nature, walking along the river when I sunk into this sand. Here is a video (https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTAttbLDD/)

The way the sand jiggled when I moved in it was so cute. I always found that oobleck attractive for that movement. I ended up sinking halfway up my chest.

I am autistic and I like to do the squeeze machine thing. In the sand gave a lot of compression and held you into place with pressure. That movement with that pressure, i can feel a crush starting.

Would be interesting to have a nature lover. I definitely want to. I just dont know if I can find sand like that again. I might look for it again in the future.

u/DarkSabbatical — 2 months ago

▲ 1.9k r/confession

I am currently running an experiment on my roommate to see what will happen.

My roommate has started taking Marijuana gummies and has been getting really high. First time in his life that he has tried them. We can call him John. My experiment though, is everytime he is to far gone. (He has not figured out the dosage yet and has been greening out) I will sit next to him for hours and repeat a phrase. The phrase is (John, I think you've had this dream before) I will repeat it over and over.

What I plan on doing is after some time has passed. Either a few months or when he quits the gummies, I will tell him.

(Me: Hey John I had a weird dream about you last night. John: what was it. Me: I dreamed we both astral projected in our sleep and we had a shared dream on the astral plane. Did you have a dream like that? John: no I didn't. Me: dang that sucks, well in the dream you said you where afraid that you would forget. So I implanted a phrase into your mind. So that when we are awake, i could say it and you would remember like a sleeper agent. John: what was the phrase? Me: "makes eye contact" John, I think you've had this dream before. John: WTFFFFFF)

Ive done it for a month now, my other roommate likes to drink. So I just started to say it to him while he is drunk. We will have to see of it works.

Edit: It looks like this post might blow up. Its only been up for 20 minutes and my phone is blowing up. So based on the comments so far I thought I would give alittle more context.

1st. I do plan to tell him it was a joke.

2nd. Both roommates mess with me everytime I am intoxicated. Jump scares and taking me out into public.

3rd. I deserve alittle revenge. This roommate yells at me everyday on how ret*rded I am because of my autism mannerisms. He has gotten physical with me over it to. Despite it being my house and he rents a room from me.

4th. This is our humor and love language to mess with each other. He chose to take the gummies himself. Both have adhd, I have audhd. So he will be fine.

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u/DarkSabbatical — 4 months ago

▲ 75 r/objectum_sfw

Objectum flag from 16 years ago

I made this to be an objectum flag back when I was14 about 16 years ago. That was back when no one knew about objectum, so i posted it everywhere but it never got seen. So I seen the banner context here so I thought I would let it be seen all these years later.

u/DarkSabbatical — 5 months ago

▲ 5 r/gamingsuggestions

House builder games?

I want to recreate my childhood home in a house builder game and am wondering which one would be the best, and easiest to do this with. I want one that gives you the ability to put in the most miner details like placement of lightswiches and stuff.

I would prefer one that is VR, but any could do. I was gonna do it in no man's sky, but seen my roommate playing the Sims. Thats when I considered to look for other games just to see. What do you all think?

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u/DarkSabbatical — 5 months ago

▲ 4 r/TheMallWorld

Had a dream I was in mall world last night and I was looking for a toilet. Of course you can never find one that isint full of sewage. I went into the basement and found a sewage processing machine. It could be used as a toilet.

I became lucid and realized I was having a mall world dream. So I started asking the dream person questions about the machine. They explained that a lot of this places sewage comes through here. This machine grinds down all the solids and turns it into a brown water. At which point it drains into a filter beneath it.

The machine can be used as a toilet. If you are a guy you could just pee in the brown water. If you needed to poo, you could sit on the platform and it would wash the solids right into the grinder.

I decided to take 2 picture of it so that when I woke up I could post my find in a mall world group. Even though its uncomfortable and weird, its the most usable toilet I ever found in these dreams.

Of course though the pictures where not actually in my phone, so I used chat gpt to make them. It took awhile but this is exactly what it looked like. Only difference is there was not a wall to the left. It was in a hallway, but for some reason, chatgpt cant remove the wall without changing the look of the machine. So close enough.

u/DarkSabbatical — 5 months ago

▲ 3 r/autism

I had one of those dreams last night where you are at school in your underwear. But funny thing was, is that was not being focus on. The teacher was teaching us some weird thing. It was a match one side to the other side thing. So left side had a row of numbers. Something random like. 1746, 1847, 59373, 583726, 583726. Then the right side had random names. Bill, John, Fred, Jason, Sam. The task was to match what name went with what number. In the dream everyone in class was blowing right through the assignment. I had no idea how to figure out what number went with what name.

At this point it realized I was in my underwear. I was like, ohh its one of these dreams. What a cliche trope. I stood up out of the desk and dropped the papers on the ground and said, well time to wake up. I walked out of the door and I was now sitting in the principals office being yelled at about how stupid I was because I couldn't connect the numbers to the names. I then forgot it was a dream and i was asking questions.

Me: how does the number connect to the name? Principal: you are suppose to just know this, everyone else knows this. Me: but this is a school, schools teach, so teach me. Principal: this isint something you learn, its a skill you develop further by using school to do so. You are just being to stupid to even start. Me: so its an instinct thing? An instinct neurotypicals have but me being autistic I dont....wait.. Principal: miss park wants you back in her class now (she was miss park for some reason) get back in there and stop being stupid and do your work.

At this point I remembered that I didn't have my autism diagnosis in school. Hence my "wait". So then I say, I am still in this dream ain't I? This is some ptsd autistic dream from not understanding social ques when I was in school. I remember, i am an adult and I dont have to deal with this bs anymore. I stood up (still in underwear) and started walking out the door to try to wake up.

I entered a half sleep state, I could feel laying in bed but couldn't open my eyes. The presence of the dream principal appeared behind me and grabbed my dream arm and tried to pull me back. He said, well you got away in the dream school, how about we attack you in the real school then. He let go and I started waking up. I remembered that I was an adult and been out of school for 14 years. But I knew I would have to go to the building today, and thats where they would get me. But how? I dont need to go to the building.

Then I woke up fully and remembered. I have been a janitor at that school for 5 years now. So yes I was going to the building. But not for classes, just to clean it. I went to work later and was sitting in the break room. Other coworker was there and lower boss was there. We where sitting there and I was started telling them this dream.

Lower boss sends a text on his phone. Makes a beep noise. My phone is away on the charger, it makes a beep noise. I knew he seen me put the phone on the charger, so I thought it was a coincidence. I looked at him and said, it almost sounded like you sent me a text the way the beeps worked. He was in the process of sending another. His phone beep, my phone beep. I looked at him and asked are you texting me? Then my phone rang. So I got up and checked it. Roommate was calling. But the texts where from the boss. First was asking me to leave because they where about to have a meeting with the coworker. (He was in trouble) second was a get going before big boss gets here and wonders why you are not working.

So I answer the Roommate and start walking out as the big boss walks in. Says hi to me and I go to work. I get 2 weird senses. One felt like the presence of that dream principal fading, the other was like, (we got you fam, dont worry about it)

So now thinking about it, the dream principal was right. It almost got me at the real school building. I missed the social ques of the look he was giving me and thought the beeps where a coincidence. I would have continued to sit there if the Roommate didn't call. Got embarrassed and felt shame.

Ive noticed weird misfortunes my whole life. Patterns of misfortunes. I think sometimes autistic people will get negative entities attached to them and they feed on the negative energy of an autistic meltdown. Then they use the energy to do more misfortunes. Ive gotten really good at what I call final destination pattern recognition. I can see how things are placed in a room and how people are moving, and I will know what misfortune is going to happen. You cant usually prevent them. They find another way. You see a domino effect thats going to lead to a broken window. You stop it and move things away. A bird then crashes though the window and it happens anyways.

This one though, what ever was in my dream, something else protected me and helped me out with that. So I count the win in my dream and had help with the win in real life. What are the odds that its all just been a coincidence my whole life everyday? Lol

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u/DarkSabbatical — 5 months ago