u/Date-Impossible

Just really wish I wasn't too useless, too broken as a person to ever find a relationship. It's so exhausting being on my own day after day, in this flat, alone, with nobody to share anything with.

I just can't shake the feeling that I am fundamentally unlovable. Of course I'm too much to deal with. I'm autistic and have other mental health issues, I am selfish and irritable, I have always struggled with basic everyday things and can barely take care of myself. Why would anyone want me when there are so many people out there who have actual things they can offer, who are far less of a messy fuck up? My last relationship ended because of this. They thought they could deal with me but I was too much so they went and found someone better.

I know I post in here a lot and it's probably very tiresome seeing the same things repeatedly but I don't know how else to let this out. Sorry.

It's no good. I'm just an annoying person who people aren't ever going to like or want to be close to. Even if they don't realise that straight away they do in the end and I'm back to being alone.