I turn 40 tomorrow and I'm in my feelings
I didn't expect this. I've always enjoyed getting older, I have a lot more money than I did in my 20s and love that I get to see my kids grow. Lately I've felt that I'm going through a midlife crisis...marriage is fine but boring, job is stressful but rewarding and I'm making good money, my kids have some minor issues (like all kids) but things are good. For some reason I just feel off.
I think what's getting to me is the fact that I am finally accepting that I don't have forever. Half of my life is now behind me. There isn't that much time to change things. If I wait 5 years to decide my marriage sucks and I want something better, that's 5 years of my physical prime I'm throwing out the window. I'm feeling a little paralyzed by the fact that if I want to make a major change, I don't have as much time to do it as I used to.
I am self-aware enough to know I'm probably overreacting, but did any of you go through this? Any words of wisdom that can maybe get me to feel less pity for myself tonight would be appreciated.