u/DegrassiDoll

This morning I realized I really need to change this habit. I’ve been smoking on and off for the past 6 years, and I love it as part of my nightly routine, but I can’t ignore the negative effects anymore.

I have autism and ADHD, so I already struggle with constant fatigue, and smoking seems to make it 10x worse.

It doesn’t matter if I sleep 10+ hours, I can still wake up exhausted. When I’ve smoked, it feels like the fatigue gets stuck in my body and behind my eyes, making them feel heavy all day.

The frustrating part is that smoking also helps me calm down and decompress after a long day. I genuinely wish I could smoke daily without it amplifying my already chronic exhaustion.

I think I’m going to try limiting it to 3 days a week and see how that goes. The hardest part will probably be stopping it from becoming a nightly routine again.

I got diagnosed with AuDHD about 9 months ago at 24. I’ve struggled with burnout for as long as I can remember, but even when things were really hard, I could always force myself to push through and stay hopeful that eventually all the effort would pay off.

Now I’m at a point where I feel completely empty. It feels different this time, more permanent somehow. Like certain parts of me are just gone and I honestly don’t know if they can come back. About a year before my diagnosis, it felt like the fire in me went out. I lost all passion, motivation, and excitement for things I used to care about. Everything either feels pointless or overwhelmingly difficult.

I’ve invested so much energy into so many things and it feels like all I got in return was exhaustion and disappointment.

I still live with my parents because of the housing situation, and I can’t handle a normal full-time job. Since the pandemic I’ve been self-employed, but I barely make enough money to survive and I don’t even enjoy it anymore. I poured everything into my business and never really saw results from it. At some point I’ll need to make more money, but I genuinely don’t know how when I can barely function as it is.

I also feel really isolated. I only have two close friends, one of them being my long-distance boyfriend, so I feel lonely a lot of the time.

The hardest part is that I don’t even enjoy anything anymore. I used to be extremely creative, and movies/shows used to be one of my biggest special interests. Now I just feel numb and overwhelmed all the time. Everything feels like too much.

I don’t really know what to do anymore.

I got diagnosed with AuDHD about 9 months ago at 24. I’ve struggled with burnout for as long as I can remember, but even when things were really hard, I could always force myself to push through and stay hopeful that eventually all the effort would pay off.

Now I’m at a point where I feel completely empty. It feels different this time, more permanent somehow. Like certain parts of me are just gone and I honestly don’t know if they can come back. About a year before my diagnosis, it felt like the fire in me went out. I lost all passion, motivation, and excitement for things I used to care about. Everything either feels pointless or overwhelmingly difficult.

I’ve invested so much energy into so many things and it feels like all I got in return was exhaustion and disappointment.

I still live with my parents because of the housing situation, and I can’t handle a normal full-time job. Since the pandemic I’ve been self-employed, but I barely make enough money to survive and I don’t even enjoy it anymore. I poured everything into my business and never really saw results from it. At some point I’ll need to make more money, but I genuinely don’t know how when I can barely function as it is.

I also feel really isolated. I only have two close friends, one of them being my long-distance boyfriend, so I feel lonely a lot of the time.

The hardest part is that I don’t even enjoy anything anymore. I used to be extremely creative, and movies/shows used to be one of my biggest special interests. Now I just feel numb and overwhelmed all the time. Everything feels like too much.

I don’t really know what to do anymore.

I fly quite often and plane noise is one of my biggest triggers, I use normal AirPods and I can hear it through them. So now I’m looking for better solutions. Any tips?