u/DeliciousWind8230

Hello, I am a 22M year old gay college student. I've been finding it hard to be happy for a few month. Actually its been several years but it hasn't gotten bad like this in a while. I just finished the semester and it's been hitting me of how unhappy I am with life. I have so many things in my life to look forward to but I don't have that excitement, joy, or motivation that comes from these goals or thingd that bring me joy. A few of these are: 1. Getting my degree 2. Traveling 3. Reading a book 4. Building a life for myself. All I feel is this feeling of; sorrow? Unhappiness? Despair? I'm not sure how to describe it. But to provide an analogy, it's like when you're drunk and it's difficult for you to take things seriously when something bad happens, rather you continue to act like a fool. I have hard time connecting with loved ones given I have few even when I have a large family. My parents have a difficult time understanding my mental health which is why I stopped adressing it to them. My siblings, well, they don't really say anything. I think it's because they don't know what to say which is why I don't really reach out to them anymore. With this, my family doesn't provide much compassion, sympathy, empathy, or love. Or it doesn't feel like it. I just feel alone. It's getting harder every day with this pain. I planned on going out with a colleague/friend of mine tonight, but I cancelled because it's even more painful to keep myself together and act like everything is okay. I don't really tell my friends about my depression because I feel like they will distance themselves from me. I find it difficult entrusting them with my feelings beecause if they break my trust the pain will hurt even more. I'm tired of this sadness, or pain, or whatever this is. I've been having frequent thoughts of ending it and it's getting more and more alluring. I'm not looking for solutions or advice. I'm not sure what I'm looking for but just for someone to listen.

(I really hope I don't get that automatice 988 suicide hotline ad saying "Youre Not Alone", or similar to that)

(This post will be up for a week before I take it down)

Hello, I am a 22M year old gay college student. I've been finding it hard to be happy for a few month. Actually its been several years but it hasn't gotten bad like this in a while. I just finished the semester and it's been hitting me of how unhappy I am with life. I have so many things in my life to look forward to but I don't have that excitement, joy, or motivation that comes from these goals or thingd that bring me joy. A few of these are: 1. Getting my degree 2. Traveling 3. Reading a book 4. Building a life for myself. All I feel is this feeling of; sorrow? Unhappiness? Despair? I'm not sure how to describe it. But to provide an analogy, it's like when you're drunk and it's difficult for you to take things seriously when something bad happens, rather you continue to act like a fool. I have hard time connecting with loved ones given I have few even when I have a large family. My parents have a difficult time understanding my mental health which is why I stopped adressing it to them. My siblings, well, they don't really say anything. I think it's because they don't know what to say which is why I don't really reach out to them anymore. With this, my family doesn't provide much compassion, sympathy, empathy, or love. Or it doesn't feel like it. I just feel alone. It's getting harder every day with this pain. I planned on going out with a colleague/friend of mine tonight, but I cancelled because it's even more painful to keep myself together and act like everything is okay. I don't really tell my friends about my depression because I feel like they will distance themselves from me. I find it difficult entrusting them with my feelings beecause if they break my trust the pain will hurt even more. I'm tired of this sadness, or pain, or whatever this is. I've been having frequent thoughts of ending it and it's getting more and more alluring. I'm not looking for solutions or advice. I'm not sure what I'm looking for but just for someone to listen.

(I really hope I don't get that automatice 988 suicide hotline ad saying "Youre Not Alone", or similar to that)

(This post will be up for a week before I take it down)

Hello everyone, I 22M am gay and Ive been struggling with meeting other LGBT people my age on Long Island. I’m in college and the semester ended and I had trouble meeting at school. I’m not really a drinker so I don’t go to bars much and I tried online dating and no luck. Anyone have any advice?

Additional info:

I’m pretty gender neutral and I’m not really masc or fem. I don’t go to a lot of pride events because I’m not heavily envolved with the community. Ive been to a few parades and events in the past and it was nice but the only people I met were 30+. Also any other people around my age I couldn’t really connect with them. We didn’t really share the same interests.

I 22M am an upcoming senior at SBU majoring in psychology and I'm uncertain about where I'm going in life. I'm going into my senior year next semester and I'm still unsure what career I want to pursue. At first I was thinking of looking into different fields to study but nothing clicked with me. I'm more drawn to psychology because I can relate to certain topics in it and I find the study enticing. I'm just not sure what part of it is something I want to pursue for a career.

After thinking for some time I realized I that this may be something deeper than just a career, more like my purpose, I guess. I'm uncertain about what mine is. What I want to do with my life, what makes me happy, or what I'm passionate about, even though I really want to know if that makes sense. I've tried being mindful and open-minded but a part of me still feels this sort of depression, uncertainty, detachment to self. I've tried taking up different hobbies but nothing really clicked. People look to religion as a way to guide them in life, but with me I'm not religious nor do I believe in god. I do respect everyone's religion, but it's something I don't really see myself being with any. People look to their loved ones (friends and family) for help, I do have a few friends and I appreciate what they do for me, but for some reason I don't really feel any resoulation for this. I'm sorry if this may have been a little triggering for anyone who is reading and I hope you're okay. Can anyone else relate to this? What do you do when you don't know what you want to do with your life even though you want to know?

Hello I am interested in studying abroad at the University of Sussex next spring (2027). I know I’m thinking about this way ahead of time, but I think it’s a great opportunity to take up before I graduate next year. Also I think it’s good to think about this so I would be ready mentally, physically, and financially. So I have a few questions if anyone might bee able to answer:

-What was your experience like studying in England or in another country.

-How much did you spend?

-Did ou receive any scholarships? How likely is a student to receive one? (I know it costs a lot so I want to know what my options are for financial assistance.)

-I am a psychology major with a concentration in history. Does the school offer any courses I may be able to take within these categories? If not are there any alternatives? (I looked on the study abroad website and found a few available classes that are transfer worthy. But at the top off the page it stated that not all the course were listed that are SBU compatible).

-What was it like studying abroad and do you have any advice?

I am currently a junior at SBU. I am struggling with my mental health and I don’t have a support system I can turn to. I am in therapy but that can only do so much. I only have a few friends and can’t go to my family about this because I don’t have the best relationship with them. I looked into joining clubs but I rarely have any time because I work when I’m not at school and it’s like an hour’s commute from where I live. Can anyone else relate? Does anyone have any advice?