u/DevelopmentPrior5572

"Here, have this depression! Ha ha ha, you dumb b****. You think you deserve better? You don't. I'm gonna make you eat proverbial s*** each time you're in luteal! Why? Hell, nobody really knows, I simply picked you out of all the women in this world, now deal with it! So anyways, you're gonna bleed soon, and guess what? My job isn't done yet. I'm gonna make you ache. Better stock up on that pain medicine, cause God sure as hell won't heal those pathetic cramps. Ha ha ha. See you again next month loser, and then again every month after that! But don't worry, I'll never fail to make you feel inferior. Take it easy, buddy!"

u/igetyourband gave me the inspiration to make this post, after their own one about what you would call a book about your own life.

For me the biggest one that stands out is "To the Moon and Back" by Savage Garden.

We're just these things that hop into cars and drive to some location, spend some time doing something we have to do, then go back home and spend some more time doing something before we go to bed, where we wake up and repeat the whole process.

Society created this for us, but I don't think it's healthy.

I want to low key live in a small village. Am I nuts? I hate the hustle and bustle.

We're both moving and alive, but they're getting the thrill of their lives, whilst I'm just barely getting ahead.

I was meant to get these extra wheels taken off, but for some reason it never happened. I didn't really know why. I thought maybe I was just too different and it was my own fault for not being as good or skilled like the others were. Just a mental defect of sorts.

Then you realise far too late that the other kids had their parents help them get to the mountain bike stage. And they did it with the utmost love and support, because they wanted to see their child thrive in life.

And you're still here, in your mid thirties, wondering what it feels like to ride a mountain bike.

("Mountain bike" can be analogous to a number of things, but in this context you could call it "living life to the fullest").

"Oh look, guys, she's totally got daddy issues! Remember, don't stick your dick in crazy, boys!"

It's like, these phrases always painted the victim like they were somehow the weird ones for having these problems. Nobody cared to get down to the crux of why the problems were even there. It was just like "Daddy didn't love you? Boo hoo b****, don't need to make it your damn personality. Grow a spine."

Except, Daddy's the one who makes us feel whole and complete. If he never did that, and I'm a broken person, why am I the laughing stock?

I suck at masking too, so it just makes it look even more obvious that I'm damaged and trying to hide it. 🥹

"You what? Dude... Parents generally don't give a f*** about their kids. They'll put a roof over their head, feed them, clothe them, and once they're 18, sayonara. If you weren't beaten, count your freaking blessings and stop being such a pansy. Jesus."

And this is exactly the toxic mindset that creates generational trauma. Humans passing covert abuse down the line without truly realising how damaging this is to people's health and wellbeing.

We're expected to believe this is OK. It is NOT. Your child is not a robot. Show LOVE. Show CARE. Make them feel SEEN.

I mean I get it. Some parents really are missing the empathy chip. Don't know what to make of that, but it's a damn shame your kids never got to experience a true child-parent relationship. And I'm not sure how not having that relationship can even make procreation worth it.

Note: This is not an antinatalist post.

I just think that not enough parents understand the depth of creation. I don't think they understand what it means to create life. Very few have the capabilities to guide that life to experience existence in a wholesome and fullfilling way, and so many don't think it's their job to guide the child at all, which is incredibly sad. These are the people who procreate to simply check an item off a to-do-list.

It frustrates me that there aren't enough tools available for individuals who have felt wronged by the system of life. We shouldn't have to accept the life we were forced into. More options should be available for people who want to live happier and healthier lives away from humans who didn't serve us to the required capacity.

Don't tell me I'm wrong. I'm so fing done with this s. I have to vent. Thank you for letting me do so.