u/Devilkingeordie

Sto cercando di ridurre il consumo di carne (anche se non credo di poterlo fare al 100% per sempre perché mi si ritorcerebbe contro e finirei per abbandonare la cosa), pur mangiando e bevendo prodotti del latte ogni tanto (cercando di provare sempre prodotti vegani anche) ho scoperto recentemente del caglio animale, ovviamente ora mi sento al momento di non mangiare più questi prodotti anche se sono molto buoni.

Non mi trovo in una posizione dove posso possibilmente comprare il lievito alimentare (ho letteralmente litigato fortemente con la mia famiglia perché non posso neanche spendere 7€ per 200g) e credo neanche si possa usare per fare crosticine sopra pasta o altre cose, qui vorrei magari qualcuno che mi raccontasse del gusto e utilizzo del lievito alimentare per il futuro.

Altra opzione è il parmigiano veg del supermercato ma ho notato che la maggior parte dei formaggi veg sono principalmente olio (come olio di cocco spesso) e non vorrei mangiarne troppo perché non so quanto faccia bene.

Ultima opzione però non vegana è la ricotta salata dura, penso abbia un sapore simile al parmigiano o pecorino e tradizionalmente è vegetariana, solo che costa molto e non la trovo spesso.

Voi che opzioni usate? Perché sono un po' disperata visto che uso il parmigiano ovunque però mi sento troppo in colpa ora.

I made a vegan frittata kind of thing with vegetables and just chickpeas flour (the flour has a bit of rice flour too) +water and spices.

I didn't really know how to make it properly since I even made some beans "meat"balls with it raw, the frittata came out decent but now im getting anxious because people say to hydrate it first for hours or all night and the centre wasn't liquid but was compact so I think was at least cooked but idk if now I'll get food poisoning like people and google say lol.

I tried to make seitan from scratch and look/taste wise it's good but the texture is very soft.

I either messed up the initial dosage because the dough wasn't very smooth or maybe I boiled with a too high temperature (it expanded too) or I didn't wash it enough even tho I thought I did.

I basically put around 420g of normal flour + 240 of water

Then worked on the dough for few minutes

Then covered it in water for one and half hour

Then washed it till it looked weird and the water was a bit less white, at least 8 times

It was stretchy and I braided it and made knots and then let it rest a bit so it would release excess water

Then boiled in broth for 1h

I want chicken dry texture but it came out very soft and not chewy at all, what went wrong?

And which recipes can I use with the remaining seitan that will camouflage a bit the current texture?

I can't ever want to start a hobby that they will either roll their eyes and start saying I have to study or they try to make me lose interest because they don't want to spend money on it (I never asked for something expensive and they buy things for their interests).

Recently I just wanted to eat more plant based things and even today I was making from scratch seitan and they made me feel bad by saying "its useless since you can get it in the store" (the consistency is totally different so even when I explained that they didn't care) or "I would never eat that" (my mother never wants to try things I make and either complains about the smell of even just oil and onion or when she tries she spits things out because she has no manners (mind you she does that even when she thinks the flavour is good).

Then we got in a huge fight because I just wanted an alternative to cheese that wasn't oil based like all the ones I find at supermarkets and that had proteins and fibres etc.

Somehow my request of buying something that was 7€ was too much and I just got attacked even tho I was literally saying that the other alternatives aren't as nutritional or good.

If was for some of his hobbies he would have spent those 7€, but for me to try something new no it's not worth it.

Other thing, I'm not mentally well, I take antipsychotics, antidepressants etc and cooking/food is one of the few things that make me happy, but I dont even have the freedom to do anything without being judged or questioned or looked at badly.

I live in a situation where especially my mother makes me extremely mad every single day, I feel very bad physically and mentally for the stress she causes me and ruins my days for hours.

When I get upset because of her I end up spiraling on OCD stuff that have nothing to do with her.

I just keep getting extremely stressed and angry and I get triggered and I can't escape anything because even when I'm trying to distract she is there, every time I try to be calm even just seeing her face bothers me and then I get scared I'll get triggered again and again.

I can't stay in my room all day because everything I see there triggers me at this point and I would end up staying with my phone and get triggered even more.

I used to cook and chill in the living room before for a pause but since a year she is ALWAYS there trying to make me miserable.

I feel like I have no escape and I can't even get out of the house because I dont know many people, the ones I know are busy during the week and this summer is terrible it's too warm to go out.

What am I supposed to do if I can't even ever calm down and being upset makes me feel horrible?

My OCD has always been more physical, I've struggled with groinal response since I can remember and with the years the intrusive thoughts and fears became more and more and constant and so I'm always in an uncomfortable situation.

I've reached the point where I can't do anything anymore without getting triggered, I can't sit, walk normally, rest in bed, scratch myself when I'm itching, pee, poop, laugh, cough, sneeze, move, be still that my brain will tell me that I was focusing on something bad and I moved just to feel something down there and then my brain will show me horrible images that will trigger me more and make me unable to do anything.

I can't ever just relax and be normal because then I would have to feel the urge to explain why my foot randomly twitched and that I wasn't doing anything bad, if I ignore I just feel like a monster and get scared that something bad is going to happen because I feel like I'm being spied or something.

This things are ruining my life and destroying me physically too since now my body can't handle it anymore and it's giving me things like stress gastritis and overall feeling constantly exhausted and nauseous.

I know I should ignore them and let them be but the OCD keeps focusing on bad things and makes me think bad things and if I don't answer by analysing the situation and repeating sentences to calm myself down the OCD will tell me that I am focusing on them.

I try to look around and distract but they keep appearing and it's so triggering and I feel the urge of physically send them away so I look really stupid by moving my head or arms to move them away.

And I can look at anything and my brain will still link it to bad things and show me bad things so now I can't even look at objects in a normal way.

I can't do simple things in my everyday life that the thoughts will appear and then my brain will tell me I focused on them.

I just feel horrible and as if I did a bad thing if I dont answer and it's physically exhausting.

The stress is too much and it's giving me too many physical problems.

I always had problems because of it, before with harm ocd I would hurt myself, but now other than chest pressure, panic attacks, nausea, chest pain, head pressure and pain because of compulsions I get gastritis problems (stomach pain, diarrhea, vomit, fever) and I get scared of getting it more often always now.

I just don't know if I'll be able to live my whole life with constant fear, constant pain etc

I cant even bring myself to take medicines because I just don't think they help me much.

I'm so tired I can't do it anymore I don't have hope or anything

In the past few days I felt extremely bad because of OCD fears, mentally I'm a bit better because I'm trying to ignore the thoughts but at the same time I'm very tired.

I did vomit (I'm not sure if it was due to stress or other things) and now I'm feeling exhausted, my eyes hurt, my whole body hurts, I just feel weird like shivering a bit and still nauseous (I can't even drink water) and obviously have a constant chest pressure.

I'm scared I will panic again and feel even worse but I'm not sure what should I do because I'm just in pain on the verge of panicking again and not even sleeping helped.