u/Dheeraj04

The main priority is a good camera for content creation. The performance and battery life come next. Hopefully a 256gb storage.

Not really picky about other stuff tho. Please suggest me some decent phones guys.

Soooooooooo.. this suthi explains about my gender and sexuality.. it's gonna be veeeeeery long

Cut chesthe 3rd class lo mana hero. Pedha dhula candidate veedu. Eppudu teachers tho thitlu tinadam, friends tho godavalu padevadu..oka sari principal room daka veladandoi.. principal papam manchiga advice ivvaniki try chesthe veediki navvu ochindi.. enduku ani adakkandi vaadu anthe serious vishayalalo kuda silly ga undetodu..emundi principal vepu mida gattiga okati ichadu.. kani mana hero strong kada entha noppi ochina evari mundu edchevadu kadu.. okkali mundu thappa...

Enters katha nayakuralu(kind of, chinna cameo pedha impact)..appudu ardham ayyedi kadhu kani thinu ante mana hero ki istam..principal room nundi baitiki ochaka vadi kallalo nellu thiragadam chusi thanu vadini bujjaginchindi.. debbaki Ganga nadhi karindi manodi kalla nundi.. aithe ikkada twist 1 introduce aithadi.. ee lafanga gadu eppudu aa ammai gurinche alochichevadu.. kaniiiiiiiiiiii thanu vadi pakkana unnatu matrame kaadu.... veede aa ammai ainattu kuda imagine cheskunevadu.. vadiki aa thoughts endhuku ochayo vadike telidu just ochevi regular ga.. appudu vadiki em ardham ayedhi kaadu, lite tiskunadu..

Cut chesthe hero 9th class ki ochadu.. 3rd class lo oche aa thoughts 4th, 5th daka continue ayayiiii ...6th, 7th vatini baaga suppress chesadu.. malli 8th lo start ai 9th 10th lo aa feeling malli gattipaddai.. vadiki aa alochana disgusting anipinchedhi.. vadiki clear ga ammaile istam ani vadiki telusu kani mari vadini vadu ammai la enduku imagine cheskunta, prathi roju night naa body oka ammai body la marthunatu enduku kalalu osthunai ani okate anxiety, bayam and disgust.. ade time lo inko pedha shock tagilindi..

First time, oka abbai mida kuda vadiki crush ochindi.. kadu kadu ani deny chesina final ga adi nijame ani realise ainappudu vadi gunde heavy aindi.. nenu gay aa?? Cheee nenu kojjodini asal kanu ani vadiki vadu manasulo anukunnadu (pedha homophobic badkav veedu chepu thiskoni kottali).. kani oka relief enti ante vadu inka ammailake attract avthunadu.. and andaru abbailu vadiki attractive anipinche vallu kaadu.. so vadu selective ga ammaila marali, abbailaki kuda rare ga attract aithuna anna nijalani thoki thoki madachi anachi malli thoki gundelo deep ga ekkado seal vesadu.. kani avvi janaganamana nen evvanki ina ani malla resurface aithai ani ee pichipulav gadiki inka telidu

Intermediate parayana lo join chesaru.. ikada kotha element introduce aindi.. crossdressing.. appudappudu vadi chelli battalu eskuni tega mursipoyevadu silly fellow.. eskunna prathi sari, he felt happy, at peace and very cuteeee...aa 2 years lo vadiki ammaila mida unna crushes 10 smtg and abbaila mida unna crushes 4.. ee realisation ragane malla existential crisis ki poindu.. btech fresh ga start chedham ani malla suppress chesindu( vediki unda?? Asal undha antuna vedu othudu adi lechudu endi idi maku?)..

Cut chesthe btech. Vediki iddaru best friends ayyaru.. idharu abbaile.. 2nd year lo oka best friend inko best friend ki propose chesadu!!!!!!!! Bestfriend 1 is bi!!!!(idi nen sudalaa enna twist thalaivaaaa).. vediki ala react aithe correct oo ardham kale kani he knew he wanted to support his friend wholeheartedly! He did not judge his best friend at all and was very happy he took the courage to propose! Enti ee yedhava ally ayyadaaa? Eedu?? Avnu ayyadu.. infact he was an ally from the very fukin beginning.. he respected gays, his mother taught him to do so.. in inter, he secretly liked lgbt movements from alt insta account.. kani around friends he had to act extra 'macho' because he was scared they would see through his other side..

This my friends is internal homophobia.. veedu andarni support chesthadu, be yourself, fk society antadu kani vadi daka oche sarki vadu accept cheyadu.. how could he be anything other than straight? No way. Ee pichi sale gadini flute thiskoni gundu mida kottali..

Anyways, vadi friend ni vadu whole hearted ga accept chesinappudu he realised that he was being an very veryyyy harsh on himself. So he started joining communities again, started accepting himself again.. cross dressed, accepted that he sometimes wishes he was born a woman, accepts that he crushes on men if they are his type too..that he can be anything he wants to be and still be himself or perhaps herself. He researched transitioning, and now considers it an option that he can take if he really wants it. He never felt dysphoria in his body but just yearning for the other side. Wanting to be in the other side. He wants to become a woman because it feels euphoric to be one. Again veedu transition avvali ani tondarlo ledu.. cuz he is comfortable in who he is now and if he feels like it, he can take that jump anytime he wants.. antha track lo padindhi.. happy ending..

BUT... that fkin monster called internal homophia hasn't completely died!!! It made a comeback and made him wipe out 300+ pictures of him crossdressing, block and delete his connections and circle.. 'she' cried, wailed and was deeply hurt but you know what? She didn't blame him, didn't hate him.. but is still trying to convince him that being ourself is okay.. and he now knows he needs to work on himself more..

Well, ee katho lo hero maname(waaw mind pothundi lopala ayyababoi plot twistuu evarru expect cheyalee)

Ide naa katha..

TL;DR : Aa cheptharu mari motham chaduvu 😤

On public demand TL;DR : I explaied my story of how I discovered gender identification and sexuality can be very different things. Wanting to be a woman while being biological man and still getting attracted to woman(and sometimes men) confused me at first, but I realised it is totally valid. Anthe.. denike naa story add chesi cheppa..

A few months back ee sub lo nenu vere account tho active unde.. but in a moment of denial that I couldn't be anything but straight, aa account ni delete chesesa and tried to fit into society's standards again.

But guess what, everytime I do that, the relapse is harder. So eesari, I want to understand myself properly, explore and accept that I can be anything I want to be and that would not change the fact that it is still me. Anduke ee sari na main account nunde post chesthuna to solidify this conviction in me..

Anyways, Happy Pride peeps!! 🏳️‍🌈