u/DifferenceBusy6868

No wonder I wanted to be a droid as a kid.

Doing a bunch of work with my therapist on learning about my emotions and feeling them. Some stuff happened. I had big feels. Took actual time to dig deeper. Sit with the feelings. Understand what they might mean. Told myself they are valid.

I went with flair of self care because this doesn't seem like recent victories! Only one having a good time with this will be my therapist.

Anyway... I'm exhausted and doing this forever sounds like hell. Yeet me into an asteroid field.

"Sir, the possibility of successfully navigating an asteroid field is approximately 3,720 to 1!"

I'm counting on that.

I love my family but it is so nice to be alone.

My mom has dementia and is currently sleeping in her room. Pretty common most days.

My partner is off gaming with his friends.

My son is hanging with his grandpa and they're off garage sailing for trinket treasures.

I am blissfully alone. The windows open. Relaxing on my sofa.

Are there chores and things I could do? Sure. I could vaccum, put the dishes away, yard work, and do a load of laundry. But all of that will be there later when the house is full again.

So instead I'm going to just exist for a few minutes and then go do some favorite activity. And when everyone is home tonight I'll be slightly recharged and a better me for all of us.

Took me so long to not feel guilty about needing this.

Take care of yourselves ladies.

Fuck right off with that nonsense.

Went on a school trip with my kid. He is level one, communicates verbally, no intellectual disability, and is in general education classes (with a worthless 504 plan).

My son (AuDHD), his friend (ADHD), and one other kid (who was reading an adult level history book) were the only ones not on their phones during the bus ride. But my kid googled how a sink works so screen time made him autistic...

Sincerely,

A mom who was an undiagnosed 90s kid that spent all her time on the computer.

Rant over.

I don't really need support. I'm just sick of ignorant people blaming autism on random shit. And do you realize how much screen time these kids get at school?

Okay, really, I'm done now.