I THOUGHT I was maybe considered pretty and then I went on FIVE different dating apps and my experience is this: I swipe right on someone I think is cute, they view my profile and then swipe left immediately 😭, lowkey about to give up cuz I’m not trying to completely destroy my self esteem. I guess it’s just not meant for me 🤷🏾♀️
I’m legit going through itttt, sometimes I just want to hang around a guy and we kiss a little or makeout AND THATS IT, but lots of guys don’t want that, they immediately wanna start hunching 🙃, which I mean—-I guess I get that, but damn it’s hard to find something similar to what I want. I’m not looking for anything serious considering I just left a relationship, but having romantic company as a distraction or at least a reminder to myself would be nice.
I have a resume that I’m ready to submit and I believe I have the looks for it as well (hopefully)
A little long but my intro is towards the end:
I’m tired of people speaking hieroglyphics to me (indirect language) and then expecting me to read in between the lines (and somehow everyone else being able to magically??).
I’m tired of seeming as an inconvenience because I do not go along with the crowd and hold my own space and opinions.
I’m tired of gossiping about celebs I don’t care anything for and not indulging in actual interests and hobbies.
I want more neurodivergent friends in real life, not just online. But they’re hard to find; especially in NC
I’m tired of people saying well “we all have a little bit of the tism/adhd/bpd 🤪” because no TF you don’t and you literally hate every ounce of me that exudes that
I’m tired of the “well you don’t seem autistic “ and “don’t let those doctors tell you who you are, there’s nothing wrong with you and they’re lying” like???? I never said there was anything wrong with me??? Also they’re literal psychologists with a doctorate ???
I’m done and annoyed, so here’s my intro:
I’m a 20F who works two jobs and is working on getting her own place. I’m working towards my RN license and should have it by next year. I’m a black girl (if that matters for some reason), I’m alternative in style and I like different interests but right now if you were to walk in my room you’d see mountains of books everywhere of different genres. I like weaponry collecting but I especially love USING the weaponry for fun. Ex: shooting range, axe throwing, archery etc. I sing and like to dance, I love painting and drawing and collecting hats too. I’m in love with science and research. I also am obsessed with medieval history and their torture mechanisms. I can be stoic and off putting at first but also calm. When you get to know me I’m bubbly, outgoing, and always happy for no reason. I’m medicated and diagnosed and working on regulating my nervous system, and trying to figure out who she is in life. (I tend to refer to myself in third person) I’m getting into cosplay and comic cons and anime because it was something I wasn’t allowed to do as a kid. I’ve already started my wig collection for it. There’s probably more but that’s all I can think of so let me know if you can relate or wanna be friends irl. Only reason I say irl is because I know myself, I don’t keep up with online friends fairly well and it can come across as uncaring. So I opt for friends I can hang with in person. That’s me! Nice talking to yall! Bye.
Hey, so idk what to say but he cheated and it’s crazy because he was always the one acting like whoever cheated was a piece of shit and deserved to die. He literally acted like it was as if you’re committing mass murder. So for him to cheat was insane. He’s a very very convincing actor too. We had a break up scare last week and I ended up moving out and he literally was saying I’m not looking at anyone else, I could never do that to you, etc. We all know the excuses by now. But he acted so heartbroken it’s scary how good of an actor he was. When I first moved out he left his job (which could get him fired for just up and leaving especially given he works in a power plant) —he left his job to come and convince me to stay. He’d do things like risk his reputation and job for me so you’d think “no way he’s cheating” but no, he is. I keep seeing and hearing that all men cheat, no matter how amazing they treat you. I used to not believe that, but every woman I know in real life has been cheated on and compromised on behaviors they didn’t like because of “love”. LMAO that shit is a game. There is no love. I used to believe that it wasn’t true that all men cheat, that there has to be a woman somewhere that they’re so in love with that they could never. I was wrong as hell. This shit is for the birds, I’m opting out.
Oh and btw I checked his bank statements, he had a whole secret bank account with an entire secret phone, and charges charged for whoever he was watching online and whoever he took out on dates when he was at “work”
What’s worse is it had been going on for over 5 months and I had no clue
Update: Oh and now he’s threatening to send the police to my home and post my nudes