u/Diligent-Radish-7490

I wear my heart where the cold can touch it,

And every scar finds a way to hush it.

Ill let the wind decide what is mine.

Will i become lost in time?

There is always something that pains.

My thoughts sway above the skyline,

Untamed by gravity or chains.

A soul that is always fine.

A body here, a spirit wandering,

Speaking in half-lit metaphors, rarely acknowledging.

While the stars do all the answering.

The world sees me smiling in motion,

Effortlessly sailing an ocean.

Never noticing how hard a soul can ache

While still looking soft as day.

All hearts someday break.

Did we forget there isnt much to take?

For it is all out on the floor.

Sitting here with an open door,

My heart hangs carelessly from my sleeve.

While my mind drifts far beyond me.

Who knew youd go this far. I sure didnt. Never imagined a life as an adult would still be so, endless. Let alone imagining it period. So many times youve tried to leave yet here we are. The passengers in our minds have came far as well. They dont bring in chaos, They let us thrive in it. I see it every day.

The consuming thoughts and emotions that lead others to their own misery.

Its a cycle youve seen since birth.

And it wont stop.

But this world we've created in our hearts still speaks.

It still shines.

As fragile and vulnerable as we were it feels multiplied now.

And so does our strength with the will to keep pushing. To see more. Know more.

Even after those who left us too soon.

Those that bring joy and pain always leave.

But im still here.

I stay in my head questioning everything unanswered until the "perfect" words arrive. I dont truly know if theyre the right ones but my soul pushes the thoughts ahead. And out they go. It so hard to put them together until they spill out in rivers I cant stop. I wish they would stop. I surround my self with stimulation and pure distraction but yet they still. Go. They key is getting them out but even then, here I am, and there I was. Pouring out. Just like every river that flows I cant stop. Its like an endless storm. Which is ironic because I find beauty in every single one. I dance, sing, laugh, smile, remind myself, i. am. me. Yet the desire always remains. And I feel this infatuation. Not in what I see but in what I dont know. Weird isnt it? I want to go. With my thoughts so they may flow. But forever like the wind, my thoughts surround me once again.

I try not to offend. My mind just goes for a bend.

Left and right then it never ends.

I see you and again it begins.

Here in the night, solace brings me might.

I do wish my mind wouldnt fight.

Id love to see you on any night.

Your eyes more than catch my eye.

I have to stop and ask myself why

This heart throbs and my head feels so high.

As my mind loses sense of time.

Even on the surface

My hands long to be at your service.

Though my heart knows I shouldnt start.

So In the night I try to find might.

Just to ask would you meet me in the light?

For your mind is a place I have not been.

Nor is it somewhere ill be let in.

I try to be open and sincere.

And I know you always hear.

Im sorry its just my fear.

That your hanging far only to be near.

Though I could simply meet you anywhere.

Its always in the night.

Where time slows and souls glow bright.

Hearts bring songs of motion.

As the stars reflect off the ocean.

You think its your beauty that pulls me in.

Buts its the entire soul I see within.

Full of stories and sights rarely shown.

Like the universe thats barely known.

Your gaze holds me in place

And so I continue the chase.

I dont know much that is true.

Though your eyes always show me you.

If your curious of what i see,

You shouullld just ask me.

The night goes still above the stars

An endless sea of light far from applause

There are galaxies within those eyes

Quietly pulling me in like tides

Nothing ever held me quite like this

A fleeting moment of pure untethered bliss

When your gaze met mine

And your eyes made constellations of time.

Just your gaze puts my mind in a haze.

Is it me or does your heart ponder for days?

Tell me now, should i leave with a bow.

Or if you'd allow,

May i show you how?

Id say take my hand only if you can.

If Just for one night, would say that you might?

Some nights i speak to the wind.

Waiting for another possible end.

Will it become something more?

Maybe I should leave one foot out the door.

My oh my, my heart says why.

Im down for a try,

But I do hate to cry.

So if you ever look me in the eye,

Their light may give you a high.

Just the same my heart might lie.

Honestly I really do comply.

Always in fear of the goodbye.

Hardly a poem, Though who knows. These are the thoughts that leave me with blows.

I always wonder,

Maybe too much.

Oh how often I ponder,

Of the warmth from your touch.

Maybe its too much.

My mind races and tells me as such.

Honestly its kinda tiring.

My heart is through with the hiring.

Its always too much. My soul knows this a bunch.

Even so..

I wish I knew your touch.

So ive made "friends" with this girl I like but it seems she doesn't really care for an actual conversation most times. She'll respond to my texts a couple times a week maybe or go over a week without responding if im not double texting. At first she didn't text or message much at all and even went over a month without contact but then she started coming around more and telling me she wanted to hang out or play video games together. She continued to come around and apologize for not responding but kept saying she'd like to hang out or play another game so I do comply and try to get to know her with the opportunities that she presents but now it feels as tho its on her time alone and I could simlply just be waiting to get ghosted again. I dont know if I should continue to try to get to know her or leave our convos for her to start and stop any double texting or check ups. For context I have asked her within the last week if she truly wanted to get to know me or if it was just her making convo to keep things from being awkward whenever she saw me and shes stated that she does indeed wish to get to know me just that she sucks at replying and forgets.Tho I do understand I just feel like theres no actual conversations in our interactions aside from when she comes around in person and talks about whats been going on.