u/Diligent-Sense2714

I’ve been dealing with anxiety for a couple years now. It started after I passed out multiple times in situations where I hadn’t eaten or drank enough, and doctors ruled it as vasovagal syncope. Ever since then I’ve developed a fear of passing out, especially in public. Over time I became hyper focused on eating constantly because I felt like if I went too long without food I would pass out. It got to the point where even a few hours without eating would make me feel weak and convinced something was wrong.

Now it’s turning more into health anxiety. I get chest pains and notice every little symptom even though I’ve had heart tests and doctors say everything is normal. The weird part is whenever I go to the doctor and they do things like blood pressure tests or EKGs, I panic badly and the readings come out weird, but at home when I’m calm everything is normal.

I’m 18 and nobody around me really knows how much this affects me. I still work full time and try not to avoid triggers, but it feels like I keep ending up back in the same cycle no matter how hard I try to get better. Has anyone else dealt with something similar?

I grew up in a Christian household and I’ve always believed in God mostly when it benefited me or when I needed help. But now I’m struggling with something I can’t really ignore anymore.

How am I supposed to truly believe in someone I’ve never seen, spoken to, or heard from? I’ve never had some clear experience that made me think “yeah, this is real.” The only things I’ve felt were emotional moments during hard times, but I can’t tell if that was actually God or just my own emotions.

I’m not trying to disrespect Christianity at all. I genuinely want to understand. But is it wrong to ask God for some kind of sign if He’s real? Because believing just because other people tell me to or because everyone around me does honestly doesn’t fully make sense to me.