The worst thing is that when I pmo and engage in fantasy in my mind Is that I can’t tell the difference between real and fantasy. I’m not sure If it’s healthy for me to engage this fantasies because they aren’t fantasies in those moments they become real.
Those fantasies are like rehearsals.
I realized I’m insignificant and that I need to earn my way, work/results/achievements speaking. I need to be disciplined in order to have success.
That said I still feel empty and depressed. And I feel this insight isn’t the progress I was expecting.
What am I missing here or what insight did you gain (or both)?
Thanks
So depressed. I don’t want to watch it. If I watch I get depressed, although released. If I don’t I also get depressed, with very amount of emptiness and sadness. How should I deal with this chronic emptiness? I feel misaligned, left out. If im very horny and don’t do it I’ll have terrifying nightmares until I need pmo to calm down. Insomnia or sleeping too much, lack of purpose, lack of belief and lack of love? Remember that famous comment on the hub “I want love”, it’s not easy if not straight impossible for me to have love. So before judging me for not being clean remember this: im desperate managing myself, im surviving, not living, 24 “normal” dude. This is life for me, I wake up: I survive