Second day kind of sucked
It’s my second day of floor training and I don’t really want to get into why (personal stuff happened halfway through my shift that I couldn’t handle because I didn’t want to be on my phone, but I was aware of it the whole time) but I was really unfocused and missed a lot of important stuff + made some really dumb mistakes on my charts. It was all stuff that yesterday I wouldn’t have let happen. But I had a different trainer today than I did yesterday, and she was much less casual and much more hard on my mistakes. She asked me just now at the end of my shift if I even want this job.
I absolutely do. I’ve wanted to work in medicine since I was in elementary school. Today was just not a great day for me and it was her first impression of me, so she thought I wasn’t motivated enough or good enough to do this job. I had a great time yesterday and was looking forward to doing more today, but it ended up not being a great experience I guess. The only reason I’m making this post is to let someone know who understands. I can tell my friends about it all day, but they’ve never done this work before. My next day of floor training isn’t until next week so hopefully I can get it together before then, and hopefully I won’t have the same trainer again.
(PS: I don’t think it’s bad to have high expectations as a trainer, but she read me wrong and that’s what’s upsetting to me about this. I don’t take failure well in general, and it’s worse when someone who knows what they’re doing in my field considers me not good for this job.)