Before I start speaking, am 14 years old.
When I look in most mirrors I don’t look that ugly, even on back camera videos. But when I record my self in natural light on my iPhone 16 pro max front camera(it was on hd 30 btw), my skin looks very fucked, but this happened in the past also. But even on the phone’s blank screen my skin doesn’t look so bad.
Alright here is the full story on what I did to my skin and what happened:
Alright from I was from 10 to 13 or 11 to 13 around when I was 10-12 these were the years I did t mostly… I used to look in the mirror wet my face… then use my fingernails and aggressively scrape off the area(where you see your smile lines pigment or nasobial folds… when I was like 11, in videos i made in the past I never really saw them there, so the pigment could be self inflicted… I also used a damp rag with water and aggressively rub the area to get the pigment off, my skin would end up hurting too or even get red… but I still did like almost everyday before school when looking in the mirror…
Then there were other pigments too.. like I used to rub my nose due to allergies, but when I was around 10, I don’t think I had this dark line over my nose which I heard is called tranvanasal crease… I did the same thing, I used my fingernails and aggressively scrape the area when it was damp, or used a damp rag and aggressively rub the area… it would look lighter/less visible but it usually got dark after a while again…
There was also a dark area at the sides/behind my two of my nostrils(like the half ring part.. it’s complicated to explain…) But darkness/hyperpigmentation was around there and coming unto my cheek and was very dark and visible to the outside world… so I did the same thing… use my fingernails and water to scrape off the dirt… and the area would like clear up temporarily, then get dark again or darker short while later, my mother and me also used damp rags around there to rub, and we would usually end up seeing something dark or brown on the rag when we rubbed around their aggressively… but it still kept on coming back… then I just left it alone and used some products to get clear skin and lighten my face using a bar soap… some info on the soap… it is said to fight acne,fade dark spots,lighten skin. Also they say you can see results within two days.. I would wash my face everyday and use that and use 2 other products to lock in hydration after that:Bio lipid lotion from natrium and the natrium urea 5% body serum… I also used cool or cold water to wash my face… and I would splash my face with cold water immediately after exercise cause my face would start itching intensely and I used to think it was germs causing that…
Then about my skin and the heat rash, many months ago, I did scrape off some bumps or wtv which was on my skin a pretty long Time ago, but not all of them… then about 2 months ago, I once decided to use my fingernails and Intentionally scrape the bumps/likely heat rash(thought they were clogged pores), I intentionally scraped them off… Then month later… I got Cera ve products: Acne control gel, am spf 30 sunscreen facial moisturizing lotion(this used to itch a lot and someone said I probably have contact dermatitis, as the itching was kind a intense and would quickly switch to other areas fast, but it would be like at a couple areas and just switch up fast, the acne control gel, stung a lot.. and switched quickly too, and it especially stung behind that place I scraped(behind my nostrils)… the ceraave pm lotion (It stung also, and the stinging would fade maybe 15 minutes later… then one day it randomly stopped stinging much, barely did, and barely itched…. Idk why… the Cera ve hydrating bar sometimes it feels like it stings a bit, after washing off my face with lukewarm water but not so intensely like the other cera ve products I then switched to black girl sunscreen spf 50.. barely to no any irritation Nowadays I try to get cool air all the time, leave the cera ve hydrating bar on my face for about 15-20 seconds before washing off, just certain stuff that yk… will fix my skin. Ai keeps saying I have a heat rash/ millaria rubes on a damaged skin What is up with my face in this video, I rarely see my face this unflattering only on iPhone videos💔💀. But I know I do have the flaws in the video… they just look very bad in this video and very exaggerated… and am 14.. how can know what’s up and potentially fix them??