u/Dizzy-Spare643

Everything seems so hopeless. Whatever I do, the situation never changes. How am I supposed to get through life knowing nothing will ever change. It’s impossible that anything will ever change. How can I do anything in a world that clearly doesn’t want me in it. I want a purpose. I so badly want a home, i want our family, I want stability. I will never be happy. I am useless

I had a SA at around 11 weeks pregnant. Before falling pregnant this time around, I had a miscarriage at around 9 weeks. All I want is a baby with my partner and to be a mother.. it’s all I’ve thought about over the last year - I realised that this was my purpose to be alive..

But I had severe HG, heart palpitations and naturally, what followed was feeling extremely depressed. I lost my job before falling pregnant the 2nd time, though I have tried so hard and have applied for everything under the sun. I have a 1st master degree, but can’t even get a even a basic minimum wage job. We live my partner’s family, but in a tiny room and not officially either. Whilst feeling so sick and depressed, I realised that I couldn’t do this - the anxiety was eating me alive and I want my baby to have the best life.. which I felt I couldn’t give them.

I am utterly heart broken. I am struggling to have a reason to keep living.

My partner says I just need to take time to heal - but how can I? I feel like my life’s purpose has been crushed.

I have no close family members or friends to talk to and my suicidal thoughts and depressive state is hurting my partner (I never ever want to hurt him). During my pregnancy, I reached out to doctors for help, but I was belittled and eventually given medication (after begging) and that barely did anything. I have since reached out for mental help from my doctor, but was completely dismissed.

I can’t see a reason to keep going.. I feel like there’s no light at the end of the tunnel. I am literally useless. I don’t think I’ll ever have a baby…

I need advice regarding someone I worked for. For context, it is a clothing buisness and I have worked here since January this year (so six months).

This person required workers in his shop to be classed as self-employed despite treating them like employees. I believe this was done to avoid the costs and obligations associated with employing staff directly.

They also expected workers to deal with business waste themselves, including taking it home or disposing of it elsewhere.

The workplace environment is toxic. Workers were regularly spoken to disrespectfully and referred to as if they were possessions rather than people. He literally told us we are his property. He also doesn’t allow us a break, nor can we choose when to work or for how long. It is all dictated by him.

This person would also often make insulting comments about customers and ‘employees’ behind their backs, including remarks about their appearance, weight, and other personal characteristics. They also made comments that I considered offensive towards LGBT+ people.

There were repeated instances of behaviour that I felt was sexually inappropriate towards staff. They also seemed to have a pattern of becoming overly involved with employees on a personal level.
I am personally owed more than £1,300 for work I completed and have been unable to obtain payment despite repeated requests. He is ignoring my messages and in person talks over the top of me.

Workers have also been asked to transfer money through their own bank accounts to unknown recipients. One person's account was subsequently blocked, which raised serious concerns for those involved.

The public image presented by this person is completely different from the behaviour I witnessed behind the scenes.

I must add, this is all happening in the UK - however this man is Indian and from India. I believe he would run away if he had to.. I feel utterly powerless. I have no contract and no proof I have worked the hours I’ve worked.

What legal options are available in a situation like this?