
My friends, my brothers... I can't take it anymore. I'm sorry to have to write this publicly, but I'm exploding inside. 😢
We're going through terrible days, while others are enjoying life, we're suffering... and this has been going on for years. Every time I try to get up, to pray, to convince myself that things will get better, but then another night like this comes and I feel something inside me breaking again.
The doctors with public health care aren't really helping us, and we can't afford private visits and treatments. Today we went to the emergency room again. Hours of waiting. Fever, pain, crying, suffering... and seeing your child constantly sick destroys you in a way I can't even explain anymore.
The illness returns almost every week during the school year. We came home exhausted, and the pain was still there. I'm just trying to keep him on his feet, to reassure him, to not make him feel alone... but inside I'm collapsing. 😢
I can't take it anymore.
Perhaps you can't understand how tired I am, physically and mentally. We no longer have a life.
I haven't lost my faith.
I simply... I don't want to fight anymore.
I pray constantly, but my prayers are now weak, broken, tired. I know the LORD is here, I know that JESUS doesn't abandon us, but there are times when the pain becomes too strong and the questions remain unanswered.
And it hurts. It hurts terribly to see others living peacefully, sharing happy photos, trips, beautiful moments... while we and so many other families are just trying to survive day by day.
I don't want to compare our suffering to anyone else's. I know there are millions of people in the world who suffer. Everyone carries their own cross. But today I felt the need to say that I, too, am giving in.
I always try to reassure myself and my son Alessio by talking about faith, the suffering of our ancestors, searching for meaning in all of this... but sometimes it just doesn't seem to be enough.
I apologize for this public outburst. I'm not looking for controversy, nor judgment, nor a thousand medical recommendations. I simply ask those who feel it in their hearts: a prayer for us. A thought. A little light in this darkness. 🙏
Because right now, the only thing I truly wish for... is for the LORD JESUS to be here and finally take us into HIS arms. 😢❤️
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