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2 1/2 years post op: why can’t I eat all of a sudden?

Everything tastes awful. I am never hungry or even want food. A few weeks ago I felt like I could eat us out of house and home. Now? I’m literally shaking from hunger and I still can’t do it.

I even have been smoking a lil something something to try and get the munchies and it normally helps but still nothing.

I am already having a bad week and now I feel weak. I know I have to eat. I tried to go back to shakes but even those are a no no right now.

Any tips? Advice? Is this something more than just food aversion? It has been a stressful couple of weeks leading up to this big stress week. Maybe it’s stress?

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u/DrPizzaPie — 11 days ago
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Taco Bell did not help me lose the weight lol

I had gastric bypass surgery 3 years ago. I lost 200 pounds in all. 400 to 200. I’m very comfy at this weight and don’t plan on losing much more.

Anyways, I’ve always been a masc presenting lesbian. Touch me not, hard top, real butch looking, you know the type. My wife is more femme and I swear even her aura is sexy.

When I started the process for WLS I stopped working. My wife had just taken a huge promotion and it allowed me to take a step back and go get a degree.

My problem is I don’t know who I am anymore. My wife is powerful at her job. She leads a team of close to 100 and it’s SEXY. And I’m here, at home. Cooking, cleaning, painting my nails, wearing girly lotions. And, at night, I lay there with MY legs in the air. She’s a provider, a protector. I feel safe. I am a kept woman.

I figured now was the best time for a “rebrand” and I love our life. But, I just don’t know who I am anymore. My hair is long for the first time in 10 years. My pants come from the women’s section. I can barely even look in the mirror. We have sex with the lights off and my shirt on, but she’s wearing it. I am begging for a chance to carry our baby when, not but 4 years ago, I was ready to get a total hysterectomy.

My family is having a really tough time with the rebrand and that’s not helping. They keep making a big deal of showing how happy they are now that I’m not dressing masculine. And my mom keeps hinting that now that I don’t have to hide behind clothes, it’s time to be a “girl” again.

Again, I love this life. I want for nothing that my wife can’t provide. I wish I could just appreciate it without questioning it.

Sorry this is all over the place. It’s just all been confusing. The body dysphoria has made this all just harder.

(Also, yeah, that’s just a REALLY fat cat on that chair in the back. She’s on a diet, it’s not going well. lol)

u/DrPizzaPie — 19 days ago