The lore is still in developement but I just wanted to show these fellas cuz’ they’re on my mind 24/7. Im probably gonna make a comic about em someday. Quincey is the emo bat and Clauxe is the bird btw.
Every night I hate myself for cutting, but it just makes me wanna do it even more as a punishment for being so fucked up. Being ugly is one thing but having obvious self harm on my legs makes it worse :( The only good these scars do is making me feel valid about my depression.
So I've been depressed for a few years now, but this year has been especially tough for me. I've been skipping classes and stuff because I'm scared to go to school. I've been in and out of psychiatric care due to my depression and bulimia. (My parents divorce really kickstarted my anxiety and depression.)
I had gotten a flu two days ago, so I actually stayed out of school for a real reason, but now that I skipped the third day, my dad just started yelling at me. He has always had a bad temper but this just left me speechless.
He yelled that he can't stand me anymore. He said he's completely exhausted because he's tried everything to help me and he's angry that I talk so little. He says he doesn't care what I do anymore.
Im just sitting on the bed right now. I don't know what to think. Maybe that was him indirectly saying he wants me to finally kill myself? I've been wanting to do that but I was scared how my family would handle it. I've been a really sensitive person my whole life, maybe I'm over reacting. I don't know anything anymore.