Comecei a usar o serum da The Ordinary no final do ano passado e desde então minhas espinhas e a textura na minha testa diminuíram muito, além de ajudar com a oleosidade da zona t, mas não tenho como comprar o serum de novo e queria saber de alguma alternativa boa e que seja mais em conta
Im already completely drained all because I decided to watch a movie and all of a sudden im faced with my biggest obsession theme on screen. I didn't stop watching it because that would mean that it affected me so I decided to keep watching "and ignore it" but in reality I was just checking and testing myself again and didn't even pay attention to the movie.
It never ends, I've been testing myself for almost a year now and it never brings any answers, but I keep harming myself with it. I feel like if I find the answer now ill be ahead of it and be better but it just makes me feel miserable and empty.
The day just started and I just want to sleep.
First of all, happy pride!!! I, however, im not happy so to me its just pride.
Because in my delusional plans I fantasized about having some sort of relationship with this girl at this point, but said girl is too busy flirting with other girls, sometimes in front of me, and never with me... so im seeing now why some people don't like blondes.
Now im fantasizing about going to pride parades and letting the cute lesbian couples know that I too was happy once, but now Im a jealous and frustrated "girlfriend" because my "girlfriend" doesn't want me anymore.
Im just confused about this because i might be overthinking it or it might be linked to ocd or anxiety, but its like my nervous system dosent do really well with sensations and feelings. Anything that I feel sends my body into panic mode, im never just hungry or sleepy, I feel like im going to pass out or have a stroke over the most normal things a human can experience and feel.
I joke that I have the nervous system of a chihuahua because of this lol. Sometimes I wake up in the middle of the night slightly panicking about whether what im feeling is a panic attack, a stroke or if im just cold. Even when I think im relaxed and I dont feel any tension in my body my brain goes into alert mode because something might be wrong.
And lately disgust and discomfort makes me feel weird things happening inside my brain, like I can feel something really bad fisically happening in there, is horrible, and then I get this weird "tic" like things. I feel like im always shaking but then I check and im not but my body almost feels like a whole agony.
Idk does someone else experience the same things? What causes all of it?
So, we all grew up with the heterosexual relationships being the only thing everywhere right, so I never really understood when they would talk about those intense feelings you know; the want, the need, lovesickness and the bone deep aching. I thought it was all so exaggerated and unreal, even in my teenage years where I read romance books the most, it was still a very ridiculous thing for me.
But I wanted to apologize for my ignorance 'cus now I get it ok! I feel it all for this one girl and It is that intense, and I swore to myself I wouldn't ramble about her to people anymore but I really really need to get this out of my chest.
I daydream and fantasize about her quite often and its so spontaneous, even her profile picture on instagram is enough to get me weak.
And the possibility of something happening between us is very VERY low, so im basically cooked lol