i messed up and need help. immense help. am i in the wrong?
i lashed out on my boyfriend, and i don’t know what to do.
we’ve had crazy issues lately, and i’ve really been needing to discuss it over with him. he’s not been reply for ages, his affection and love for me has dwindled—everything from him has changed immensely.
today got really bad when i had two episodes right after each other. i was sobbing nonstop while he never responded, as well as entirely ignored me. i sobbed to my friends for a good thirty or so minutes spiraling. i couldn’t take it anymore. i then immediately ask to speak to him, asking to clear some things up. he then immediately goes to say that he wants to help his friend who is struggling. is it bad that i’m furious over that? he also went to say how much he cared more about that, and didn’t care about our situation. i’m so exhausted.
at that point, i began asking him if he truly loved me, and if he loved her instead. he then told me to get the fuck out of his dms with that bullshit, so i immediately went off on him. he’s always putting everyone else over me, and i cannot take it anymore. i went off on him again, and then stopped talking. i don’t know what else to do. i love him so much but i messed up so bad. help? what should i do. :(