i messed up and need help. immense help. am i in the wrong?

i lashed out on my boyfriend, and i don’t know what to do.

we’ve had crazy issues lately, and i’ve really been needing to discuss it over with him. he’s not been reply for ages, his affection and love for me has dwindled—everything from him has changed immensely.

today got really bad when i had two episodes right after each other. i was sobbing nonstop while he never responded, as well as entirely ignored me. i sobbed to my friends for a good thirty or so minutes spiraling. i couldn’t take it anymore. i then immediately ask to speak to him, asking to clear some things up. he then immediately goes to say that he wants to help his friend who is struggling. is it bad that i’m furious over that? he also went to say how much he cared more about that, and didn’t care about our situation. i’m so exhausted.

at that point, i began asking him if he truly loved me, and if he loved her instead. he then told me to get the fuck out of his dms with that bullshit, so i immediately went off on him. he’s always putting everyone else over me, and i cannot take it anymore. i went off on him again, and then stopped talking. i don’t know what else to do. i love him so much but i messed up so bad. help? what should i do. :(

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u/DreamiestWitch — 10 days ago

i messed up and need help. immense help. am i in the wrong?

i lashed out on my boyfriend, and i don’t know what to do.

we’ve had crazy issues lately, and i’ve really been needing to discuss it over with him. he’s not been reply for ages, his affection and love for me has dwindled—everything from him has changed immensely.

today got really bad when i had two episodes right after each other. i was sobbing nonstop while he never responded, as well as entirely ignored me. i sobbed to my friends for a good thirty or so minutes spiraling. i couldn’t take it anymore. i then immediately ask to speak to him, asking to clear some things up. he then immediately goes to say that he wants to help his friend who is struggling. is it bad that i’m furious over that? he also went to say how much he cared more about that, and didn’t care about our situation. i’m so exhausted.

at that point, i began asking him if he truly loved me, and if he loved her instead. he then told me to get the fuck out of his dms with that bullshit, so i immediately went off on him. he’s always putting everyone else over me, and i cannot take it anymore. i went off on him again, and then stopped talking. i don’t know what else to do. i love him so much but i messed up so bad. help? what should i do. :(

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u/DreamiestWitch — 10 days ago

bpd sucks.. and it ruins everything.

bpd has become the bane of my existence, and i truly wish i wasn’t like this at all! anyways, im in desperate need of advice or some kind of help because i’ve been miserable due to this.

im in a relationship, and it has been going on for at least 4 1/2 months. i really love my partner, and i depend on them HEAVILY. i desperately crave and need their attention and affection 24/7. lately, i’ve been having an episode and my emotions have been off the charts. his behavior has been triggering me badly yet i dont say or speak up because i fear that my emotions will burden him badly.

my main emotions lately just consist of huge feelings of jealousy and sadness. i’ve been heavily jealous due to the fact he’s always with friends now, and how he is CONSTANTLY taking forever to respond. delayed responses are one of my more frequent triggers that cause me to spiral for hours and days. i brought it up once but he immensely dismissed it as an accident. he has comforted me a plentiful of times, yet i still find a plethora of things to worry about and over analyze. as i write this he’s with friends and i feel crazy jealous, like super irritated. i really wanna know how to maintain this because i do want me and him to work out, im just overly jealous and pissed.

please help! if you do thank you for your advice and help! :) <3

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u/DreamiestWitch — 12 days ago