u/Dry-Letterhead-2902

I was going through pictures of me tonight and there is a distinct before Jesus and after Jesus and i just want to let any teenager who is reading this who is going through mental health issues, eating disorders, abuse at home, abuse from a partner, feeling so lost and alone and wanting to end it all that not only was i there but that was all i knew for 20 years, in my old pictures i am pale and far too skinny and i remember being exhausted and miserable and all of my poor coping mechanisms, today im 22 and my life is still imperfect but its literally so easy now in comparison and that has only happened through Jesus and ageing so hang in there and eat enough food and get away from people who hurt you even though you feel like theyre also the only one who cares about you and go to church and listen to happier music. I wanted to be dead so bad but now i am so happy i am alive even though im poor and sick and mentally ill life is good God is good and there are always bright things ahead.

God bless :p

In all of the Catholic sub credits I constantly see people either admitting that they have been taking communion for a long time immortal sin, arguing that they are allowed to take communion when in a state of mortal sin, or being told for the first time ever that they can’t *by other lay people* As well as this I know many people in my personal life I know dont bother with confession or dont believe in xyz really being a sin who take communion, and i have NEVER seen a priest tell anyone this or mention it to a congregation. Why? Should this not be taken more seriously?

I know this is a bit of a rogue post but i keep praying to be more kind, i think im just a bit nasty to be honest. For context i was raised by an emotionally, verbally and physically abusive mother and so her words became my own inner dialogue and now i am 22 and i did a lot of raising myself.

I have long term friends, ive had successful relationships i have really learned how to be a normal person by having friends. For some reason the thing that has stayed the most is that i can say and think the most horribly hurtful things and i dont want to be like this but its my default. I dont like people, i dont trust people, i see the worst in people and its like i want to get little digs in. I know this sounds insane to anyone who hadnt had this but its not ME and i always feel so sad and horrible after but its like i dont even hear myself. I very often default to harshness..

My actual personality is so loving, i love animals i love kids i love my friends i love making random people smile i love helping people, ive volunteered for charity, i converted to catholicism, i want to do good and be good but im afraid that at my core im still mean. I dont really know what to do i never had a kind or nice role model and i dont really know how to rewire it.

Please give me advice or pray for me

If you dont want to get an answer about someone elses personal experience dont trauma dump on strangers about your suicidal desires.

I wanted to, jesus helps the end. You dont get to report people who were nice idk what answer you wanted ?? I dont know you…

Have any of you ever made it to the barrier for a papal audience. I would LOVE this experience and im willing to do anything really so if you got there and have any tips please share, God bless!!

Hello, i am taking a few long journey soon as a young solo female traveller, im quite nervous about the random 01:00 changes and things, i was wondering how that works, is there a safe place to go when theres time between getting off one and getting on the other?

Thank you for your help understanding!!