u/Dry-Message-3891

Okay, I would love your guys’ opinion here. I normally wouldn’t post here but I need to get this off my chest.

I (25F) recently finished law school/took the bar and am starting my legal career. I also have Bipolar I and recently experienced my first significant mixed/manic symptoms since being diagnosed.

During this, I met a guy (30M).

We are wildly different people. I’m very career-oriented and increasingly realizing that because of bipolar, stability, routine, sleep, and avoiding unnecessary chaos are extremely important for me.

He is very different than me. He carries a weapon, has a history of reckless racing/speeding, describes himself as a thrill seeker, reports hearing voices, and told me he isn’t fully honest with doctors about them because he fears involuntary hospitalization and losing his weapon license. Later on, he told me the voices “don’t trust me” and that they’re “always right.”

Now, I have no issue with hearing voices. That’s normalized for me bc I have a lot of friends, as well as myself, who have experienced psychosis.

He also has an extensive demon/occult fixation, including demon tattoos and stories involving pacts/sex magic, plus a history of sex/porn addiction.

I’m not diagnosing him or saying these things make him a bad person. He also works consistently, has savings, says he’s calmed down significantly, and showed me genuine compassion.

But objectively, there were a lot of reasons for me to slow down.

Instead, we became intensely emotionally involved within about a week.

Before we’d even met in person, we established that we saw each other as more than casual sex, but we never agreed to exclusivity.

Then he went to a concert with a “homegirl,” stayed at her house overnight, and I thought he was essentially standing me up (which there is an argument for saying he did).

Instead of communicating normally, I impulsively had reckless, unprotected sex with another guy in a parking lot. I told him it was no issue that he had bailed on me and that i kinda figured so I made plans with my “homeboy”

I completely own that this was reckless and extremely unlike my baseline behavior. It became one of several signs that my judgment was impaired.

After A and I met, he found out and was so upset and basically said it was a dealbreaker. He said I crossed his boundaries and viewed it as a betrayal.

My issue is: how could I violate an exclusivity agreement we never made, especially when we hadn’t even met yet?

Apparently he believed exclusivity was implied because we’d established emotional interest. I believe expectations like that need to be explicitly communicated.

Now that my mixed/manic symptoms are coming down with treatment, I’m realizing something else.
Why was I seriously considering this man as a partner at all?

I saw every red flag. I could explain exactly why each one was concerning.

I just didn’t care.

A friend with bipolar heard the story and described us as two different species: he’s a raccoon/possum and I’m a princess. At first I thought that was ridiculous. Now I understand what she meant—not that I’m better than him, but that the life I’m trying to build requires stability, and I was contemplating introducing an enormous amount of risk into it after knowing someone for a week.

The facts about him haven’t changed.

My reaction to them has.

So AITA?

I know bipolar doesn’t erase responsibility. I regret reacting to perceived rejection with reckless sex, and I understand why he was hurt.

But I also think girlfriend-level expectations before we’d even met, without actually communicating exclusivity, were incredibly intense—especially considering everything else going on.

EDIT: yea. I think this has more to do with my relationship incompetence rather than bipolar. bipolar does not cause relationship incompetence, it just made me incredibly impulsive and act out. i remain firm on that if we had established exclusivity i would have probably given him the silent treatment AT MOST. again, more to do with my need to work on relationships than bipolar.

I have Bipolar I, and I think I just figured out something important about how my episodes affect me. I haven’t had an episode since i was originally diagnosed.

I realized that my insight can remain surprisingly intact while my judgment is impaired.

During my recent mixed/manic symptoms, I became involved with a guy who objectively has a ridiculous number of risk factors. He carries a weapon (idk if i can say what it is here), has a history of reckless racing/speeding, reports hearing voices AND lying to doctors about it for fear of involuntary hospitalization and getting his license for his weapon taken away, has a lot of demon/occult stuff going on, and has a complicated history with sex addiction/porn. We also became emotionally intense incredibly quickly over the span of a week/week and a half

To be fair, I really could’ve gone about things differently but we hadn’t established exclusivity and i guess he assumed we had set those expectations of each other before even meeting. right before we met, i thought he was standing me up and i immediately reacted by having reckless unprotected sex in a parking lot (very much unlike me). when he found out after we met, he went on a whole thing about me crossing his boundaries.

Looking back, yes, I could’ve handled that differently but also having girlfriend expectations of me before even meeting is very fast and intense, which shouldn’t be surprising on top of his other red flags.

The weird thing is: **I saw all of the red flags.**

I wasn’t thinking, “There’s nothing concerning here.” I could literally list every red flag and explain why each one was concerning.

I just **didn’t care**.

I still seriously considered him as a potential partner.

A friend with bipolar basically looked at me like I had lost my mind and described us as two different species: he’s a raccoon/possum and I’m a princess.

She asked whether any part of me thought this was remotely a bad idea, and my answer was genuinely “yes and no.” That’s when she told me this was exactly when I needed to use my prescribed PRN antipsychotic.

Now that I’m taking the PRN antipsychotic and coming down, I think I finally understand.

The facts haven’t changed.

**My reaction to the facts has.**

I’m starting to look at the exact same situation and think, *Wait. Why was I treating any of this as acceptable and normal?*

Apparently, for me, impaired judgment doesn’t necessarily feel like being irrational. It can feel completely logical because I still recognize the danger—I just don’t give the danger its normal weight.

At the same time, I still carry so much guilt about sleeping with someone else. He said the voices don’t trust me and that they’re always right. If I were not in a mixed state, I don’t think I would have lashes out but at the same time WE HADNT EVEN MET IN PERSON YET. the only thing that i had made clear was that he was more than just sex for me before even meeting.

I truthfully feel horrendous about this but it also seems incredibly intense for only having interacted for about a week plus the other red flags.

so—am i the asshole here?

so far i’ve got:

you’re somebody else by flora cash:

Well, you look like yourself
But you're somebody else
Only it ain't on the surface
Well, you talk like yourself
No, I hear someone else though
Now you're making me nervous

liability by lorde: honestly the whole song

Baby really hurt me, crying in the taxi
He don't wanna know me
Says he made the big mistake of dancing in my storm
Says it was poison
So I guess I'll go home
Into the arms of the girl that I love
The only love I haven't screwed up
She's so hard to please, but she's a forest fire
I do my best to meet her demands, play at romance, we slow dance
In the living room, but all that a stranger would see
Is one girl swaying alone, stroking her cheek
They say, "You're a little much for me
You're a liability
You're a little much for me"
So they pull back, make other plans
I understand, I'm a liability
Get you wild, make you leave
I'm a little much for e-a-na-na-na, everyone
The truth is I am a toy that people enjoy
'Til all of the tricks don't work anymore
And then they are bored of me
I know that it's exciting running through the night, but
Every perfect summer's eating me alive until you're gone
Better on my own

this is all the comedown and realizing what you’ve done

I have Bipolar I with a history of psychotic features, and my psychiatrist recommended an evaluation for Partial Hospitalization or Intensive Outpatient. I suggested treating this outpatient completely because i still think my insight can get me out of this.

My grandmother had stage 4 cancer and passed away on Wednesday. I found out she had less than 6 months to live right after I finished the bar exam July 29. I’ve been experiencing significant grief, crying, depression, and hopelessness since then but at the same time I’ve become increasingly activated and impulsive.

Over a short period, especially this past week leading up to her death, I’ve done several things significantly outside my baseline:
\\- day drank around half a bottle of tequila alone despite rarely drinking,
\\-work performance has declined significantly
\\- had reckless/unprotected sex in a parking lot,
\\- started using nicotine again,
\\- smoked weed after sobriety,
\\- made impulsive/risky social decisions by contacting dangerous individuals,
\\- i also began a somewhat intimate relationship with someone i normally wouldn’t go for and still managed to fuck it up.

My sleep schedule hasn’t suffered too bad just 2-3 nights in the ER with her

The day i drank was the first day i noticed something off and took 40mg PRN when im prescribed 20mg PRN. i panicked that it was escalating. and i had already called my doctor about a mood stabilizer increase, but because ive been so distracted ive only taken half the dose instead of twice daily. that has been fixed now.

A bipolar mentor who knows me well is concerned I might be in mixed state.

i talked to my mentor and she essentially gave me 24 hours to get my shit together, not taking any substances that i’m not prescribed and if i can’t, then i seriously need to consider some form of hospitalization. she said this is serious and she needs to be assertive with me here. it gave me more insight but part of me thinks she may be overreacting.

i can tell something is wrong which is good because that means I’m not completely insane. the only thing that can help me is the antipsychotic which i plan and have been taking for past 2 nights, and make it the 24 hours without substances.

like i said, i know something is wrong but i can’t tell how bad it is. can you guys help gauge this?

I have Bipolar I with a history of psychotic features, and my psychiatrist recommended an evaluation for Partial Hospitalization or Intensive Outpatient. I suggested treating this outpatient completely because i still think my insight can get me out of this.

My grandmother had stage 4 cancer and passed away on Wednesday. I found out she had less than 6 months to live right after I finished the bar exam July 29. I’ve been experiencing significant grief, crying, depression, and hopelessness since then but at the same time I’ve become increasingly activated and impulsive.

Over a short period, especially this past week leading up to her death, I’ve done several things significantly outside my baseline:
\- day drank around half a bottle of tequila alone despite rarely drinking,
\-work performance has declined significantly
\- had reckless/unprotected sex in a parking lot,
\- started using nicotine again,
\- smoked weed after sobriety,
\- made impulsive/risky social decisions by contacting dangerous individuals,
\- i also began a somewhat intimate relationship with someone i normally wouldn’t go for and still managed to fuck it up.

My sleep schedule hasn’t suffered too bad just 2-3 nights in the ER with her

The day i drank was the first day i noticed something off and took 40mg PRN when im prescribed 20mg PRN. i panicked that it was escalating. and i had already called my doctor about a mood stabilizer increase, but because ive been so distracted ive only taken half the dose instead of twice daily. that has been fixed now.

A bipolar mentor who knows me well is concerned I might be in mixed state.

i talked to my mentor and she essentially gave me 24 hours to get my shit together, not taking any substances that i’m not prescribed and if i can’t, then i seriously need to consider some form of hospitalization. she said this is serious and she needs to be assertive with me here. it gave me more insight but part of me thinks she may be overreacting.

i can tell something is wrong which is good because that means I’m not completely insane. the only thing that can help me is the antipsychotic which i plan and have been taking for past 2 nights, and make it the 24 hours without substances.

like i said, i know something is wrong but i can’t tell how bad it is. can you guys help gauge this?

I have Bipolar I with a history of psychotic features, and my psychiatrist recommended an evaluation for Partial Hospitalization or Intensive Outpatient. I suggested treating this outpatient completely because i still think my insight can get me out of this.

My grandmother had stage 4 cancer and passed away on Wednesday. I found out she had less than 6 months to live right after I finished the bar exam July 29. I’ve been experiencing significant grief, crying, depression, and hopelessness since then but at the same time I’ve become increasingly activated and impulsive.

Over a short period, especially this past week leading up to her death, I’ve done several things significantly outside my baseline:
- day drank around half a bottle of tequila alone despite rarely drinking,
-work performance has declined significantly
- had reckless/unprotected sex in a parking lot,
- started using nicotine again,
- smoked weed after sobriety,
- made impulsive/risky social decisions by contacting dangerous individuals,
- i also began a somewhat intimate relationship with someone i normally wouldn’t go for and still managed to fuck it up.

My sleep schedule hasn’t suffered too bad just 2-3 nights in the ER with her

The day i drank was the first day i noticed something off and took 40mg PRN when im prescribed 20mg PRN. i panicked that it was escalating. and i had already called my doctor about a mood stabilizer increase, but because ive been so distracted ive only taken half the dose instead of twice daily. that has been fixed now.

A bipolar mentor who knows me well is concerned I might be in mixed state.

i talked to my mentor and she essentially gave me 24 hours to get my shit together, not taking any substances that i’m not prescribed and if i can’t, then i seriously need to consider some form of hospitalization. she said this is serious and she needs to be assertive with me here. it gave me more insight but part of me thinks she may be overreacting.

i can tell something is wrong which is good because that means I’m not completely insane. the only thing that can help me is the antipsychotic which i plan and have been taking for past 2 nights, and make it the 24 hours without substances.

like i said, i know something is wrong but i can’t tell how bad it is. can you guys help gauge this?

i had a feeling this would happen. i am hypomanic and it is 21 days before the bar exam. the stress got to me but i have been protecting my sleep with my life.

i take the PRNs and force myself to knock out. i can ride out the hypomania and prevent full blown mania as long as i am sleeping. i am tracking my sleep, meds and mood.

i am not dysphoric but im slightly distracted which makes it hard to study (then again it just hit me today that i didn’t stop the adderall, which i think is adding to the distractibility)

i just need to hyper focus (im getting rid of the adderall too because that will amplify hypomania) but my brain can thankfully get me the focus i need naturally without the adderall. i know this because it’s what got me through law school, a rigorous doctoral program, undiagnosed.

i have an attorney friend who also has bp1 w psychotic features and they’ve successfully avoided manic and psychotic episodes and hospitalizations since their diagnosis 20 years ago. they told me to not be scared of this and to protect my sleep but that this is where i can “use” this to my advantage but that it is a tightrope i am walking. as long as i medicate and sleep i am okay.

i could be upset this is happening right now after 6 months of no episodes (silly me, i thought i had been cured lol).

on the bright side, i have gotten this feeling that i am greater than myself and confidence that i am beyond capable of passing this exam. that is a MAJOR switch from the past 4 months but definitely needed to enhance my performance.

i think my plan is to hit the gym early in the AM to get rid of the energy as much as possible and set my day straight. exercise will also help me with sleep too.

i just need some support that i will make it to the finish line!! thank youu!!

i need to go hard on the bar exam and i’ve been holding back and doing things at a slower pace for the fear of going hypomanic but i think i need to realize that just because i can go really fast and process quickly, it does not mean im hypomanic

anyways this is to the final three weeks of bar prep where i will be pushing my brain to the extreme of knowledge and have decided to stop letting my fear of hypomania hold me back. i have antipsychotic PRNs if i reallllly need them so time to lock in!!

i decided im going alll the way in. i’m starting to fast and hit the gym because im exhausted of complaining about the 30 lbs i gained on antipsychotics. sleep remains a priority.

does this make sense to you guys? going fast does not equal hypomania

i was 192 before antipsychotics. i had become obsessed with boxing and hot yoga (and diet) the year and a half prior to being diagnosed. i had started at 237.

i began olanzapine and went back up to 225 ish in a few months. then i switched to asenapine and was stuck at around 218 but still was gaining a bit. then i switched to geodon and my weight stayed the same at around 216-220.

i’ve gone down on the geodon dosage the past three weeks and now im down to 213. if anything i had thought i had gained weight because of how poorly im eating. the only thing thats changed is dosage

anyone else experience this ?

coming to this subreddit to consult the sleep disorder community! pls help!!

for context, i have bipolar 1 w psychotic features, which i believe is more of a sleep disorder than a psychiatric one, but i digress. i recently lowered my antipsychotic, which is a sedating medication (blocks histamine (H₁) and alpha-1 adrenergic receptors in the brain). now, i can’t sleep.

to remedy this, i’ve been taking hydroxyzine but it’s making me sleep longer than i need to and i have trouble falling asleep. i’m trying to train myself to get up by 5:15 am for an important event july 28 (the bar exam)

so tonight (last night) i didn’t take anything and have gotten absolutely no sleep per my apple watch. the night before i was desperate to get to sleep earlier so i took half a dose more of hydroxyzine and a xanax and slept for 11hours.

my theory is that now that ive had no sleep for an entire night and im not planning on taking adderall, that ill be able to fall asleep at a respectable time naturally tomorrow and then wake up at 5:15am.

i have PRN antipsychotic in case any bipolar symptoms start flaring up. any suggestions? i really need to fix this asap.

EDIT: i also take 300mg magnesium

coming to this subreddit to consult the sleep community! pls help!!

for context, i have bipolar 1 w psychotic features, which i believe is more of a sleep disorder than a psychiatric one, but i digress. i recently lowered my antipsychotic, which is a sedating medication (blocks histamine (H₁) and alpha-1 adrenergic receptors in the brain). now, i can’t sleep.

to remedy this, i’ve been taking hydroxyzine but it’s making me sleep longer than i need to and i have trouble falling asleep. i’m trying to train myself to get up by 5:15 am for an important event july 28 (the bar exam)

so tonight (last night) i didn’t take anything and have gotten absolutely no sleep per my apple watch. the night before i was desperate to get to sleep earlier so i took half a dose more of hydroxyzine and a xanax and slept for 11hours.

my theory is that now that ive had no sleep for an entire night and im not planning on taking adderall, that ill be able to fall asleep at a respectable time naturally tomorrow and then wake up at 5:15am.

i have PRN antipsychotic in case any bipolar symptoms start flaring up. any suggestions? i really need to fix this asap.

EDIT: i also take 300mg magnesium

coming to this subreddit to consult the insomnia community! pls help!!

for context, i have bipolar 1 w psychotic features, which i believe is more of a sleep disorder than a psychiatric one, but i digress. i recently lowered my antipsychotic, which is a sedating medication (blocks histamine (H₁) and alpha-1 adrenergic receptors in the brain). now, i can’t sleep.

to remedy this, i’ve been taking hydroxyzine but it’s making me sleep longer than i need to and i have trouble falling asleep. i’m trying to train myself to get up by 5:15 am for an important event july 28 (the bar exam)

so tonight (last night) i didn’t take anything and have gotten absolutely no sleep per my apple watch. the night before i was desperate to get to sleep earlier so i took half a dose more of hydroxyzine and a xanax and slept for 11hours.

my theory is that now that ive had no sleep for an entire night and im not planning on taking adderall, that ill be able to fall asleep at a respectable time naturally tomorrow and then wake up at 5:15am.

i have PRN antipsychotic in case any bipolar symptoms start flaring up. any suggestions? i really need to fix this asap.

EDIT: i also take 300mg magnesium

recently lowered my antipsychotic and experienced some nasty withdrawals. the first few days to a week was horrible depression, an impending sense of doom, and horrible anxiety.now, i can’t sleep.

i’ve been taking hydroxyzine but it’s making me sleep longer than i need to and i have trouble falling asleep. i’m trying to train myself to get up by 5:15 am for an important event july 28 (the bar exam)

so tonight (last night) i didn’t take anything and have gotten absolutely no sleep per my apple watch. the night before i was desperate to get to sleep earlier so i took half a dose more of hydroxyzine and a xanax and slept for 11hours.

my theory is that now that ive had no sleep for an entire night and im not planning on taking adderall, that ill be able to fall asleep at a respectable time naturally tomorrow and then wake up at 5:15am.

any suggestions? i really need to fix this asap. i have PRN antipsychotic in case any symptoms start flaring up.

currently under a severe amount of stress with the bar exam and my job. i’m thinking i might get fired because i asked and was approved for 3.5 weeks off before the exam. the thought of not having health insurance actually makes me want to off myself. when that realization sunk in i got so pissed at my boss and everyone at my work for not understanding that i am taking THE FUCKING BAR EXAM (THE HARDEST PROFESSIONAL LICENSING EXAM RIGHT AFTER THE MEDICAL BOARDS) and now i have all this extra energy and got this feeling that I NEEDED to get to the gym to burn this all off. i know this is how i went manic last time with severe stress from law school and work and over exercising. i just can’t tell if im just burning off some steam or starting to get agitated/irritable? can that even happen one second to the next?

EDIT: so i probably just needed to take my PRN antipsychotic. i’m chillin now :)

Here’s the deal: I’m studying for the bar exam in 4 weeks and my boss just hit me with the biggest curveball.

Originally, I asked and was approved for PTO for the bar exam. Part of the leave (July 14–29) had been approved for a while, and recently I got approval for the week of July 6 as well.

My manager saw my calendar and messaged me saying the PTO “freaked out a few folks.” I explained that he approved the 14-29 on our portal and the week of the 6th had already been approved by him, his boss (VP) and the General Counsel this past week. After that, he responded:

“I didn’t realize you already had that time off. It would have been good to mention when we were talking about the week of the 6th.”
He then asked when the bar exam is.

The thing I’m hung up on is the “it would have been good to mention” comment. From my perspective, I did tell him before, and the leave was approved. I wasn’t trying to hide anything. It feels like he’s criticizing me for not reminding him of something he had already approved.

I could totally be reading way too much into this bc of how stressed I am and I feel like Im starting to feel somewhat agitated and very “go go go” because I need to lock I’m but now Im afraid of losing my job. My solution is to just go to the gym and workout out until i feel like passing out.

Any advice or thoughts are just greatly appreciated because my biggest fear is not having any health insurance.

I asked and was approved for PTO for the bar exam. Part of the leave (July 14–29) had been approved for a while, and recently I got approval for the week of July 6 as well.

My manager saw my calendar and messaged me saying the PTO “freaked out a few folks.” I explained that he approved the 14-29 on our portal and the week of the 6th had already been approved by him, his boss (VP) and the General Counsel this past week. After that, he responded:

“I didn’t realize you already had that time off. It would have been good to mention when we were talking about the week of the 6th.”
He then asked when the bar exam is.

The thing I’m hung up on is the “it would have been good to mention” comment. From my perspective, I did tell him before, and the leave was approved. I wasn’t trying to hide anything. It feels like he’s criticizing me for not reminding him of something he had already approved.

I could totally be reading way too much into this bc of how stressed I am but now I feel like I will lose my job or they will try to reprimand or push me out when I’m back.

What do you guys think?

bp1 studying for the bar exam and i feel like sleeping is ruining my life. i either sleep too much because of the meds i take (though i did get my psych to lower my AP at the lowest possible dose) or i don’t sleep enough and risk going manic. it’s a lose lose.

i wish i could just run on 3-4 hours of sleep with enough energy to study for 8-10 hours. 6 hours of studying is hell for me now. i can’t even wake up because the antihistamine i take to go to bed makes me groggy.

on the day of the exam i have to be at the test site by 6:30am. i don’t know how im going to make that happen. i wish i could just sleep like a normal person.

i don’t know what to do.

a year ago i was diagnosed with bp1 w psychotic features after a severe mixed episode with psychosis my final semester of law school. i spent the summer doing a PHP and the past year getting medicated and essentially zombied out.

it’s clear i was experiencing symptoms of (hypo)mania through law school, undeniably induced by severe stress and lack of sleep. ive spent the past year learning stability and adhering to my medication.

recently, i lowered my meds below therapeutic level (with my psych) because i was having cognitive issues studying for the bar. the first few days i had withdrawals but now im fine. except the bar is 4 (FOUR) weeks away and i just scored a 52% on an exam when im supposed to be scoring a 65% by exam day.

i spent 5 hours testing and reviewing the exam and i feel so defeated and overall STRESSED. i began having thoughts of going back to my old ways to cope (hypersexuality w sketchy men). it’s been so long since ive had these urges. they’re not strong but im just shocked that they are rising up.

could this be due to stress? i know what being manic feels like and i certainly don’t feel that way. i just feel like im under a ridiculous amount of stress and overall not having a good time!!!

EDIT: i dont feel grandiose, my sleep is fine, i dont feel like im going too fast, i lowered my responsibilities, im also talking at a normal pace per my mom and everyone else.

2nd EDIT: Im honestly thinking of just sacrificing my sleep and doing what i need to do to pass. i feel like sleeping is a waste of my time where i could be getting so much more done. i have so much material to review.

a year ago i was diagnosed with bp1 w psychotic features after a severe mixed episode with psychosis my final semester of law school. i spent the summer doing a PHP and the past year getting medicated and essentially zombied out.

it’s clear i was experiencing symptoms of (hypo)mania through law school, undeniably induced by severe stress and lack of sleep. ive spent the past year learning stability and adhering to my medication.

recently, i lowered my meds below therapeutic level (with my psych) because i was having cognitive issues studying for the bar. the first few days i had withdrawals but now im fine. except the bar is 4 (FOUR) weeks away and i just scored a 52% on an exam when im supposed to be scoring a 65% by exam day.

i spent 5 hours testing and reviewing the exam and i feel so defeated and overall STRESSED. i began having thoughts of going back to my old ways to cope (hypersexuality w sketchy men). it’s been so long since ive had these urges. they’re not strong but im just shocked that they are rising up.

could this be due to stress? i know what being manic feels like and i certainly don’t feel that way. i just feel like im under a ridiculous amount of stress and overall not having a good time!!!

EDIT: i dont feel grandiose, my sleep is fine, i dont feel like im going too fast, i lowered my responsibilities, im also talking at a normal pace per my mom and everyone else.

2nd EDIT: Im honestly thinking of just sacrificing my sleep and doing what i need to do to pass. i feel like sleeping is a waste of my time where i could be getting so much more done. i have so much material to review.

I was doing single subject sets and scoring in the high 50s, low 60s. today i switched to close book mixed subject and scored a 52%. i saw someone on here post about a 67% being pretty easily attainable and that feels so far from the truth for me!

im reviewing my answers and it looks like a lot of it came down to me not knowing/understanding the rule. i didn’t want to start memorizing too early but i have to begin now to even get a chance at passing.