u/DualWheeled

Note before I start: while none of the numbers are scientifically accurate, I weigh myself daily and am maintaining my average, so it's near enough and errors are rounding out.

My resting daily metabolism is about 1750kcal. If I walk to work, walk on my break, and walk home again, I get that up to just about 2000.

Breakfast is overnight oats (oats, dried fruit, nuts, almond milk) ~300kcal

Mid morning snack fruit 50-100kcal

Lunch ~300kcal

Afternoon snack chocolate + fruit ~150-250kcal

Evening meal ~600kcal

Evening snacks fruit/sweets etc ~250-300kcal

Evening meals are 100% homemade, usually vegetarian so I can eat physically more food without adding calories (and yet it still doesn't seem that much). I tend to cook and have two-thirds for dinner and save one-third for lunch the next day. So assuming the calorie counts are ok I know lunch is half of dinner.

That's ~2000kcal on a *good day* and I am fucking STARVING between meals. I wake up hungry, I go to bed hungry, and the food noise is 100% permanent. I can't cut that down to my basic maintenance amount without actual impacting my ability to do my job or function.

If I want a pastry from the bakery one morning that's a quarter of my entire day's calories gone in 5 mouthfuls. An ice cream on a sunny Sunday could be even more.

Eating out is a nightmare unless you want to eat salad every time. Main courses start at 800kcal in most restaurants. If you add a side (rice? With your curry??) I'd have to skip three meals the next day to make up for it.

Exercise is pish. I'm in a one bed flat without room for a bike or a treadmill. And I'm not dragging myself out of bed at stupid times in the morning to go to a gym even if I could afford it.

I can't even talk about this to the people around me because I *look* skinny. "What are you talking about?? You don't struggle with your figure, look at you!". Yeah I fucking do. I'm not trying to *get* skinny I'm trying to *stay* that way.

And I count myself lucky because I'm not actually trying to lose weight. I'm only trying to stop myself putting on. Losing it must be so much worse than this. How do people do it??

32, F, 5'9", 142.7lbs

I listen to long form podcasts over a few days but I keep hearing the same bit over and over as Spotify no longer remembers where I stopped listening.

It's not consistent and it's not always playing from the start. Sometimes it remembers, sometimes it's a few minutes off, and sometimes it puts me exactly at the point I started from yesterday.

This has been happening for a month or more but it got worse this week.

I was lucky enough in the 2000s to attend two firepower demonstrations on Salisbury Plain. At least one of them was open to the public (I went with my dad), the other I went with my school cadets.

They had a lineup of vehicles to go and look around and sit in, and a grandstand to spectate the main event.

We watched APCs unload into a mock battle. We saw a Hercules land on a ludicrously short grass runway, unload a gun without stopping, take straight back off again, and the gun immediately prepared for firing and fired. An Apache showed off its machine gun and rockets. A pair of jets dropped a bomb on a target. I'm pretty sure we saw a squaddie fuck up a grenade throw because the three of them in the firing trench jumped straight up out of it after he was meant to have thrown it and it looked like it exploded in the trench.

These were absolutely incredible events to watch. Do they ever do these any more?