End Of An Era: NUST
I had high hopes for me, for my admission in NUST as I did my prep so well, gave my best in these 10 months. I was preparing from August joined Sir Hashim Zia's course, nustrive nd did everything possible. Practiced past papers, did FLPs, nd what not? I used to score 150+ in my FLPs btw. Shayad kismat men nai tha? Maybe NUST wasn't for me. Skipped all the breaks at college to do the NET practice, litr forgot about the world, missed hangouts w my friends, sleepless nights, struggling days. Did all the "hardwork" they say, but I don't belive in it anymore. Sometimes, hardwork isn't just enough. It's just a luck game. Many people incl me failed w hardwork. NUST was more than just a dream for me. It was my father's hopes, my mother's eyes w tears for me in every namaz. Had dreams to become a successful daughter, to be a reason of proud for them. But as they say: "Isme Allah ki taraf se koi behtari hi hogi", this sentence strengthened my iman. Whenever I think about my failure, a thought comes to my mind. Duaon se taqdeer badal jati hai, jo cheez apko tahajjud ki namazo men ro ro kar naseeb nai hui, socho usme kitna faida hoga aapke lie. NUST was my first ever ambition in life. I know some ppl will be like to kya hua aik uni hi to thi but they don't get it 5th class se I dreamt of being in NUST. I thought what level of smart ppl gets in there? I just fell 2.5% behind. It hurts alot, and I won't be able to forget it ever in my life. It broke me and took that motivation from me. I hope to move on. Jo cheez apke naseeb me hogi, aapko khud dhoond legi. Trust on Allah and try your best.
ily guys tysm for your kind wishes and duas <3