u/Dull_Nefariousness_1

I miss you. Give Bodhi a big hug and a kiss for me. Have a good 4th of July and try to sleep well, okay?
\-R

I took the last week to reflect on the relationship. You said you didn’t want to drag me down. I never felt like you did anything to hurt me and I was being the foolish one by asking for more communication and pushing you about moving in while you were already dealing with your mental health and grief from losing another family member. I went ahead and learned a lot about bpd and how it affects you and what I could’ve done to not be such an idiot when bringing very emotional stuff up and for that, I am so deeply sorry. You said I was amazing. I’m not. I’m only human and I have my flaws and I realized how my words have more meaning to you than what I realized at the time. I hope someday you can forgive me for acting like such an ass. I only wish I did more to make you feel safe and comfortable rather than making you feel like I would leave or couldn’t trust you. I’ll always be there if you need anything. Take care C.

I, (22M), have a complicated history when it comes to love. My whole life I’ve been constantly moving from state to state, making me feel disconnected with most people my age. I still have childhood friends but I can’t hang out with them since they are 1,000’s of miles away. I’m stuck in a state where I didn’t want to move to but had to after our mom passed away suddenly in October 2024. It’s now only me and my younger brother, with no family around to talk to. I decided that I had enough of just going to work and then isolating so I tried OLD and I managed to match with somebody who made me think I finally found the one.

She was perfect. I’ve never been more infatuated with someone in my entire life and when we started talking, that ignited a spark inside my body and made me realize that I would do anything to see this woman smile. We met pretty soon after matching and it was the best connection I’ve ever had with someone. We would talk for hours, share our thoughts and opinions with each other, hold each other in our arms and listen to her favorite music. She would always bring her sweet baby boy along and he was the best dog in the whole world (even when he smacked me in the nose or the face time to time 😂).

We dated each other from the middle of February to March and when her birthday rolled around in April, I confessed that I loved her. She felt the same way. We spent the rest of the night in each other’s arms, kissing and laughing before she had to leave for work. God, I can’t even imagine that anymore without my heart shattering…

She took me to meet pretty much everyone in her circle and they all seemed like great people to be around except a couple who caused a lot of bad trauma for her growing up. I wish I said more during those meets and did more. I’m not sure if she thought I was not interested in talking but I’ve always been more of a silent, observant type.

In the middle of May, things got worse between us as she started to see me less and less and texting/calling dropped almost entirely. I never once had the thought of breaking up with her and fully believed she was just too busy or overwhelmed. I would call her and ask if everything was alright, she would say yes and tell me she’s busy. I believed her. I even had a sit down with her in her car ( I told her we needed to talk and I fucked up making her think I was going to breakup with her when I just wanted to talk about communication.) and after I explained everything, we seemed to be on good terms again. She showed me this funny TikTok about the bible interpretations and we drive around for a while talking and listening to music. when she dropped me off, we hugged and kissed each other goodbye. I didn’t know that would be the last time I would ever see her. There are still more things I did which I regret (looking at her on snap maps when she wouldn’t respond) and she thought I was stalking her. I told her I’m sorry and would control my emotions better.

At the end of May, I woke up to a text from her saying things weren’t working out. She had given therapy another try and wanted to start a new chapter for herself. She also said that this decision had nothing to do about me and I was perfect. I’m not perfect, I’m human and we all have our flaws. I was devastated. I still am..

Not a day goes by without me thinking what I could’ve done better or said. Every time I open my window I hope to see her car outside or her walking up the stairs to apologize for breaking up. I wanted to say goodbye to her and her dog but I never got the chance and now I’m left with the pictures and memories of what used to be. I still love you and I wanted to fight for this relationship until the day I died. I wish you would call me and we could explain every little thing and be happy again. Thank you for everything Chloe.

I, (22M), have a complicated history when it comes to love. My whole life I’ve been constantly moving from state to state, making me feel disconnected with most people my age. I still have childhood friends but I can’t hang out with them since they are 1,000’s of miles away. I’m stuck in a state where I didn’t want to move to but had to after our mom passed away suddenly in October 2024. It’s now only me and my younger brother, with no family around to talk to. I decided that I had enough of just going to work and then isolating so I tried OLD and I managed to match with somebody who made me think I finally found the one.

She was perfect. I’ve never been more infatuated with someone in my entire life and when we started talking, that ignited a spark inside my body and made me realize that I would do anything to see this woman smile. We met pretty soon after matching and it was the best connection I’ve ever had with someone. We would talk for hours, share our thoughts and opinions with each other, hold each other in our arms and listen to her favorite music. She would always bring her sweet baby boy along and he was the best dog in the whole world (even when he smacked me in the nose or the face time to time 😂).

We dated each other from the middle of February to March and when her birthday rolled around in April, I confessed that I loved her. She felt the same way. We spent the rest of the night in each other’s arms, kissing and laughing before she had to leave for work. God, I can’t even imagine that anymore without my heart shattering…

She took me to meet pretty much everyone in her circle and they all seemed like great people to be around except a couple who caused a lot of bad trauma for her growing up. I wish I said more during those meets and did more. I’m not sure if she thought I was not interested in talking but I’ve always been more of a silent, observant type.

In the middle of May, things got worse between us as she started to see me less and less and texting/calling dropped almost entirely. I never once had the thought of breaking up with her and fully believed she was just too busy or overwhelmed. I would call her and ask if everything was alright, she would say yes and tell me she’s busy. I believed her. I even had a sit down with her in her car ( I told her we needed to talk and I fucked up making her think I was going to breakup with her when I just wanted to talk about communication.) and after I explained everything, we seemed to be on good terms again. She showed me this funny TikTok about the bible interpretations and we drive around for a while talking and listening to music. when she dropped me off, we hugged and kissed each other goodbye. I didn’t know that would be the last time I would ever see her. There are still more things I did which I regret (looking at her on snap maps when she wouldn’t respond) and she thought I was stalking her. I told her I’m sorry and would control my emotions better.

At the end of May, I woke up to a text from her saying things weren’t working out. She had given therapy another try and wanted to start a new chapter for herself. She also said that this decision had nothing to do about me and I was perfect. I’m not perfect, I’m human and we all have our flaws. I was devastated. I still am..

Not a day goes by without me thinking what I could’ve done better or said. Every time I open my window I hope to see her car outside or her walking up the stairs to apologize for breaking up. I wanted to say goodbye to her and her dog but I never got the chance and now I’m left with the pictures and memories of what used to be. I still love you and I wanted to fight for this relationship until the day I died. I wish you would call me and we could explain every little thing and be happy again. Thank you for everything Chloe.