u/Dull_Star_1767

I think then I would have a better life, that way I wouldn't be able to speak or hear what people say I'd simply do what I need to survive and live alone.

That's the reason it never works for you, no matter how many of those youtube videos you watch or those reddit posts telling you to just "develop these mental health coping skills" while normies already have those they just struggle with minor shit that can be resolved in a day or two or just by venting to their coworker.

Is everything just luck?

School, work, anywhere did people always laugh at you?

I hate who I'm and how I function

Idk why I can't be good at something I enjoy even after a while? am I just stupid?

For me touching cornstarch or certain wet soaps make me physically in pain like my whole body is getting electrocuted.

I have asian features but I live in a middle eastern country, in school I used to get made fun of by other kids and teachers even cussed me, kids used to come up to me and say racist things because they believed I was asian lol.

It's obvious they hate my guts but with time it becomes annoying to the point I avoid eating if they're in the kitchen or in the hallway.

My PC used to be super quiet when I first bought but after a year it's starting to make a lot of noise and I'm wondering if there is a simple fix or if I need to buy new fans. I clean my PC regularly.

I have an obligated military service call, If I don't enroll they will show up to my house and forcefully drag me out (it already almost happened once but I wasn't home) I'm worried they will show up at any moment.

I fucking despise my shitty fucking country I can't even have disabilitybux In this shithole why even bother anymore.

I'm so consistent at failing everything it's impressive and unbelievable to me, you'd think I'd succeed at something by luck or accident but no all I do Is fail miserably.

If so what are you planning to do to survive?

I need tips.

I wish I could turn it off.

Doesn't matter if it goes well or not with anyone even online, I can't take it anymore my head is going to explode I wanna live in another planet alone please.

I'm not exaggerating its getting so much worse really fast I wanna just die. I tried everything to fix this but I can't.

I've lived on the internet since I was a kid and only consumed western media to the point where I forgot my native language and that makes me not relate to anyone where I live I'm basically living in another country physically. its so over.

I don't know if it's my natural voice or if it's a result of me not speaking to people for long periods of time.

People always ask me to repeat myself after every word I say and if I try to raise my voice it sounds weird and it's exhausting

I'm 22 M

It's the only thing I have to escape from this fucking hell and it's started to makes weird noises I can't afford to repair it and I will kms