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I’m 28M I graduated high school in 2015. I grew up in San Diego, California. And the town I grew up in near the coast Encinitas beautiful place loved living there had had a great time. My family was not rich. We were just middle-class. we moved Encinitas in 1999 and it was a time where back in the late 1990s homes were much cheaper in SoCal. But I’d say the neighborhood we moved to was just a regular middle-class neighborhood. However, the school I went to high school at La Costa Canyon. In a very affluent neighborhood, the people who live there I wouldn’t say were like super rich like there weren’t mansions everywhere. But they were definitely affluent upper middle class. Most people live here had white collar jobs, high-level business professionals, lawyers, Scientists, The type of people who probably hung out at the country club. I’d say they were upper middle-class to wealthy but not like millionaires. Not like millionaires.

So I was diagnosed being on the spectrum when I was six back in July 2003. So I since I was in first grade. I had an IEP, but during elementary school, I felt pretty included. I was in general Ed classes with the regular kids. I made a lot of good friends. The special ed services I did get was this place called the learning resource center, which was a place I would go. get help from aids and tutors, and it worked a lot. And the teachers, I had both in special ed and in general Ed we’re both very supportive of me. They believed in me a lot. Things were going really good until I finished elementary school and entered middle school.

Then once I started middle school, I was still getting the same thing thing I was still in general lead classes among the mainstream kids. I would go to the learning center or in middle school. They called an academic support. To get tutoring and help with the work from other classes. And I guess the problem I had was mostly like I started struggling with math when I was in fourth grade and we started doing fractions. Although I always struggled with math, I started struggling as early as like second grade. But I was able to keep going forward but then third grade when I got to division is when it got hard.

But once I entered high school, in august 2011 that’s when things totally started hitting the fan. And things got completely off the rails my first year of high school. I was putting in this program, called the transitional alternative program a total joke. It was like for kids with very severe disabilities. And they were making me start over like I was getting work that was like additions and subtraction. multiplication. And goals my manager, saying that I would learn to do my cursive or sign my signature. They were giving me words puzzles in 9th grade. There were two general ed classes I did have. One was a science class the other was an English class. beginning of my freshman year and I really liked it I felt I learned a lot in the class. And I thought I was doing pretty well from like the first few tests. I did pretty good on. But then two months in to my freshman year. I found it I was flunking the class and then my case manager started telling me that the class was too hard for me and that she was going to take me out. And put me in remedial courses that were taught. And I didn’t wanna do that. I thought it was offensive. And I told her I really like the class I’m in. this woman was just not a nice person. She always wanted to think she was right. She was never willing to listen to anyone’s descent. If you disagreed with her, she get really hostile. And my question is why why asking that you want to take these classes make her lose her shit.

So after that, my father went to one of the IEP meetings with her and he said well if my son wants to be in these mainstream classes, let them be in there. She never listened because she said that the whole team couldn’t agree, but I don’t know. I’m pretty sure that if the parents say no, then that should be it. And then afterwards. Like my mom and I literally asked for assistance and I was working my tail off to stay in these two classes. They didn’t do anything. They didn’t give me an aid, a note taker, any assistance. To help to pass, and then eventually they took me out of those 2 classes that I enjoyed, I was devastated.

My entire freshman year, I was miserable because I felt like I was being used as a useful idiot. And I was getting work that was early elementary level. I went home practically once a week crying. I had trouble sleeping at night, because I was so angry that they didn’t want to listen to me. And it wasn’t like I was some lazy kid, who felt entitled. No, I wanted to be challenged. I wanted to do the harder work that was grade level. They were the ones putting in all the roadblocks. Anytime, I tell him I want to take this class they’d say no. It was totally demoralizing.

So after that, they put me in these remedial classes where they were giving me like work that was like at grade level, but it was done in a slower pace. And eventually, I got out of that program the transitional alternative program. In the middle of my sophomore year.

And I got a change in case manager and I was put back into the program that was similar what I had in elementary school program for students with normal learning disabilities. Things get better. I eventually got to take General Ed classes. My junior and senior year. But it was not easy. I had to fight like crazy like work, my ass off to prove them wrong that I was capable of being in there. My junior, I had a general lead history class and I took biology General Ed. But I was in remedial English and a remedial algebra class. And then my senior year when I said that I wanted to be in chemistry and I wanted to take Spanish they both all like voted it down. it just seems unfair. Like, can’t they look at the fact that they care like that they’re passionate about wanting to be in there and they’re interested and if they’re willing to work hard and put in the effort. Doesn’t that matter the most? it’s like they kept using my math struggles as a weapon against me. My whole idea is, I think a better system is exposure and learning things which is the goal of education who cares about the stupid tests. Like it’s like trying to make it like living in North Korea.

It wasn’t as restrictive when I got out. I got a lot more freedom to be in mainstream classes. Then I did when I was in the previous program. It was a great improvement but still. There were still obstacles and limitations on what courses allowed to me is offensive. You can’t do that to kids. That’s the whole reason you take classes in the first place is to learn things. You shouldn’t have a team from above deciding over you. Like in China or The Soviet Union.

But anyway, here’s where I come from on a final note. Sometimes I wonder if would my situation had been different if I went to a school that was maybe in a bad neighborhood. Like maybe instead of the Encinitas district what if I went to school say not in a bad neighborhood but just a middle-class area like Vista or Escondido. or even not just San Diego like if I went to high school in Los Angeles. Would the restrictions maybe had been less. It was a neighborhood that was maybe just more middle-class or modest.

Because to me, it’s like why are the schools so scared of giving the kids a chance so they worried that if they they that if a kid fails, it’ll screw up the whole schools reputation scores and then they’ll lose money. Like what are they doing? Are they literally having to bend over backwards for the neighborhood families? Is it all about competition pretty much. I mean the school I went to was in a very wealthy neighborhood. I don’t know if the money was a big problem. I mean the high school I went to the campus looked like a small college. And the football field looked like an NFL stadium. I’m pretty sure they had enough money to hire extra assistance so that kids like me could be in more mainstream classes.

But overall, I’d say I had a pretty decent high school experience. I was on the wrestling team all four years. I went to the state championships senior year. Also senior year I met this really nice girl who is in my grade I was 17M she was 17F. We started dating and then then we went to prom together. And I met a lot of great friends. I feel like overall yeah a lot of the people I met. A lot of the kids were good role models.

I’m 28M I’m not some hardcore right wing capitalist. I actually voted for Bernie sanders in 2016 In the primaries. I’m actually very left leaning I support universal healthcare, and debt free college, and I believe all workers should be allowed to Join a Union if they want to. I support raising taxes on the rich up to like 63% Back in the 1940s and in the 50s and 60s it was about 90%. That was the golden age of prosperity for the middle class. But it’s not just democratic socialism which pretty much countries in Europe have. Which I wouldn’t even really call socialism I’d say it’s Socal democracy, or certain services like education, housing and healthcare, are provided. But you still have private businesses and private property rights. But people get benefits for their work like paid family leave and six week paid vacations. That’s the system I think is beneficial a mixed economy, capitalism, and Socialism combined.

But it seems like there’s a lot of hard lefties that are wokists. That seem to be rewriting history about what life was like under communism. Let me give you this example, A couple weeks ago. I was coming home from work and this girl who is driving me. She was in her late 20s same age as me. And whatever we were talking about. I started talking about the Soviet Union, and how people have very limited freedom, of movement people couldn’t travel to wherever they wanted to go unless they got a permit and even then they could only travel to countries in the eastern bloc. And how people waited in the cold snow for hours just to buy food and many times things like meat and milk will be in short supply and people just had to take whatever they could get. And then she interrupted, and then she said well look, it was a needs based system she said that was the goal. She said things like travel, high-quality consumer goods she says those are luxuries. She said the Soviets weren’t trying to focus on that. She said they were trying to focus and make sure everybody had the basics that they needed. This is what she said “ Yeah, people might not have had everything but they had a roof over their head. They had free healthcare. They had guaranteed employment that they couldn’t get fired from.” And then I made it clear you couldn’t pick your job. They would give kids tests when they were only seven years old. And whatever their skill sets were, at the time. You get like 5 to 6 jobs that they would approve you for. It didn’t matter whether you liked it or not that was it. Didn’t matter whether someone wanted to be a scientist or an engineer. Based on a test that you took as a young child, they’d send you to go work in a diamond mind, or work on a farm or be a bus driver. And her response was when I told her that was “ I don’t know I kind of feel it would be better to have jobs given to you that were actually things you could do. Then literally have to work my ass of for 5 to 12 years trying to make my way into a corporate position when there 70 others that are trying to get that job. She said, “ I think it’s more realistic to have someone get a job that fits their skill set but they can be guaranteed benefits. Then, if somebody is terrible at things like math, and then they’re trying to make their way into being a computer scientist.” Well, here’s the thing that’s how our system works. You have the right to succeed, and to fail on your own terms. it’s not the government’s job or societies job to decide what’s best for you and what your needs are that’s on us.

And also in the Soviet Russia under communism people would be living in an apartment with three other families. And they be forced to take care of the elderly grandparents who lived with them, even if they didn’t even know them. Plus people who think communism was a better system, I’ll tell you this Joseph Stalin caused the worst man-made famine in human history. And he murdered so many people through his purges. And all the people that were tortured and killed in the gulags. And in China under Mao Zedong another person who I’ve heard some leftists say, was a great philosopher. Well, he launched the great leap forward. Which he thought, was an effort to make the Chinese people better off by leading China into a modern world economy. But he said it would create equality for the Chinese people. It did create equality everybody became equally poor because of it. Everybody starved to death. And then with his cultural revolution many more people were killed. Cuba under Fidel Castro people literally swam to Miami risking their own lives. Somewhere even eaten by sharks because they were trying to flee Castro’s tyranny. And an East Germany, people were literally murdered by the Stazi which was east Germany‘s version of the KGB. They would shoot people for trying to climb over the wall. Look at countries like North Korea, where if you speak out against the government not just that person can be thrown into prison camp. Their entire family’s parents grandparents, even their friends can all be rounded up. Thrown in prison camps and forced to do hard labor, and then we starve to death. In North Korea, the vast majority of their population does not even have enough food to survive.

So I really wanna know what the hell is going on the systems that we were taught for decades were the wrong systems, That’s not just my opinion it’s backed up by data and statistics. Even to this day, nobody is trying to move to Russia China or North Korea. People are trying to come here to America. To live in freedom to raise their kids so that they could have a better life than they did. And it’s always been that way.

I’m 28M I’m not some hardcore right wing capitalist. I actually voted for Bernie sanders in 2016 In the primaries. I’m actually very left leaning I support universal healthcare, and debt free college, and I believe all workers should be allowed to Join a Union if they want to. I support raising taxes on the rich up to like 63% Back in the 1940s and in the 50s and 60s it was about 90%. That was the golden age of prosperity for the middle class. But it’s not just democratic socialism which pretty much countries in Europe have. Which I wouldn’t even really call socialism I’d say it’s Socal democracy, or certain services like education, housing and healthcare, are provided. But you still have private businesses and private property rights. But people get benefits for their work like paid family leave and six week paid vacations. That’s the system I think is beneficial a mixed economy, capitalism, and Socialism combined.

But it seems like there’s a lot of hard lefties that are wokists. That seem to be rewriting history about what life was like under communism. Let me give you this example, A couple weeks ago. I was coming home from work and this girl who is driving me. She was in her late 20s same age as me. And whatever we were talking about. I started talking about the Soviet Union, and how people have very limited freedom, of movement people couldn’t travel to wherever they wanted to go unless they got a permit and even then they could only travel to countries in the eastern bloc. And how people waited in the cold snow for hours just to buy food and many times things like meat and milk will be in short supply and people just had to take whatever they could get. And then she interrupted, and then she said well look, it was a needs based system she said that was the goal. She said things like travel, high-quality consumer goods she says those are luxuries. She said the Soviets weren’t trying to focus on that. She said they were trying to focus and make sure everybody had the basics that they needed. This is what she said “ Yeah, people might not have had everything but they had a roof over their head. They had free healthcare. They had guaranteed employment that they couldn’t get fired from.” And then I made it clear you couldn’t pick your job. They would give kids tests when they were only seven years old. And whatever their skill sets were, at the time. You get like 5 to 6 jobs that they would approve you for. It didn’t matter whether you liked it or not that was it. Didn’t matter whether someone wanted to be a scientist or an engineer. Based on a test that you took as a young child, they’d send you to go work in a diamond mind, or work on a farm or be a bus driver. And her response was when I told her that was “ I don’t know I kind of feel it would be better to have jobs given to you that were actually things you could do. Then literally have to work my ass of for 5 to 12 years trying to make my way into a corporate position when there 70 others that are trying to get that job. She said, “ I think it’s more realistic to have someone get a job that fits their skill set but they can be guaranteed benefits. Then, if somebody is terrible at things like math, and then they’re trying to make their way into being a computer scientist.” Well, here’s the thing that’s how our system works. You have the right to succeed, and to fail on your own terms. it’s not the government’s job or societies job to decide what’s best for you and what your needs are that’s on us.

And also in the Soviet Russia under communism people would be living in an apartment with three other families. And they be forced to take care of the elderly grandparents who lived with them, even if they didn’t even know them. Plus people who think communism was a better system, I’ll tell you this Joseph Stalin caused the worst man-made famine in human history. And he murdered so many people through his purges. And all the people that were tortured and killed in the gulags. And in China under Mao Zedong another person who I’ve heard some leftists say, was a great philosopher. Well, he launched the great leap forward. Which he thought, was an effort to make the Chinese people better off by leading China into a modern world economy. But he said it would create equality for the Chinese people. It did create equality everybody became equally poor because of it. Everybody starved to death. And then with his cultural revolution many more people were killed. Cuba under Fidel Castro people literally swam to Miami risking their own lives. Somewhere even eaten by sharks because they were trying to flee Castro’s tyranny. And an East Germany, people were literally murdered by the Stazi which was east Germany‘s version of the KGB. They would shoot people for trying to climb over the wall. Look at countries like North Korea, where if you speak out against the government not just that person can be thrown into prison camp. Their entire family’s parents grandparents, even their friends can all be rounded up. Thrown in prison camps and forced to do hard labor, and then we starve to death. In North Korea, the vast majority of their population does not even have enough food to survive.

So I really wanna know what the hell is going on the systems that we were taught for decades were the wrong systems, That’s not just my opinion it’s backed up by data and statistics. Even to this day, nobody is trying to move to Russia China or North Korea. People are trying to come here to America. To live in freedom to raise their kids so that they could have a better life than they did. And it’s always been that way.

I’m 28M and I haven’t had any Russian foods except for Beef Stroganoff and Stolychinyia Vodka. Or my Russian friend would say wooudka. I’ve had Caviar but not in the Traditional fancy sense. They way it’s prepared in a Russian or French restaurant. But on sushi and they were salmon eggs not stergen i don’t know if you can call that Russian. But I wanna try Borscht, Solynaka, and pelmeni. By the way I live in San Diego where can I find a Russian restaurant like real Russian, there a Georgian place downtown called palmagranate. But do you know any popular Russian dishes. My Russian freind for me made me a Soviet dish called Plaf with lamb but I think that’s from Uzbekistan.

I’m 28M I just met this girl about 3 weeks ago. She is so sweet and nice. And she’s a cute Brunette. Shes 24F gonna be 25 in a couple weeks. She’s empathetic and just has such sweet humanity. Shes beautiful inside and out, I could be having the worst day ever and she’ll be there to help. She is working on getting her teaching credentials she’s currently working as a teachers assistant. Shes smart she’s sofiticated she has traveled a lot. And she’s got ambitions and I believe she will achieve big things. And I believe she will because she’s accomplished. I wanna continue on with her of course I’m not trying to rush into a marriage but I can truly see things going further with our relationship, And I hope it stays this way.

I’m 28M but I’ve seen a lot of great shows. My best concert I’ve seen was The Rolling Stones, saw them in 2024 in LA at Sofi stadium Mick Jagger was amazing he was jumping and running and dancing. Keith Richards was great on guitar but be was kinda walking slow not and standing there. Mick is 82 Keith is 83 and the young guy the rookie ronnie wood is 77. I saw them a couple years prior in 2019 at the rose bowl in Pasedina Ca. And they were amazing mick was the same very energetic Keith was moving a little bit faster. At that time 6 years ago they were in there mid 70s so it makes sense. Next best show I saw was Elton John saw him Los Angeles at the staples center, he was fabulous he sounded great and he played all his old classics. Opened up with Bennie and the Jets closed with Goodbye yellow brick road. And the third greatest show I’ve seen is The Eagles, at The Forum in LA. It was in 2021, Glen Frey passed away but his son deacon took over. And he sounded just like his dad. And Don Henley and Joe Walsh were great.

Other great bands I’ve seen live I saw Coldplay in San Diego At Qualcomm stadium in 2017. Before they tore it down and I saw the Who a year earlier in 2016 at Pachenga arena in San Diego. Also seen Kaleo, John mayor, Philip Philips, Adele, Tom Petty and the Heartbreakers. As well as Sting, Neil Young and I saw Peppers a Reggie band at the Del Mar fair grounds. The first Concert I saw was when I was 3 it was Chicago I saw them at Madison Square Garden in New York in 1999. I don’t remember it, but my mom told me I was covering my ears the whole time, because it was to loud.

But anyway what are some of the best concerts you have seen, I wanna know.

I’m 28M this is not really and educational post. But when I was in my teens I remember arguing with my parents a lot. Because they would always claim to be supportive of me but then every single thing I wanted to do they would say ya I don’t think you can do it. I told them I wanted to be an airline pilot. And my mom said that since I had ADHD and how bad my attention was I wouldn’t be able to get a first class medical from the FAA. I mentioned how I wanted to be a lawyer and they told me that because of how bad my reading comprehension was at the time I would not be able to understand the logic component part of the LSAT, the test you need to get into law school. Then I said I wanted to join the Air Force of course she told me that since I was on the autism spectrum I would get in. And math was always my biggest obstacle and even in areas I was knowledgeable in they would still say things like ya but the math component that’s involved in here. And they still tell me this crap today as an adult.

But it wasn’t just them god fucking damn it. In high school I had a case managers that always questioned my ability to do certain tasks. Weather it came to certain classes I was in or if I was talking to them about carriers. Plus I had an IEP and during my first year of high school I was placed in remedial courses, and I wanted to be more general Ed classes and my case manager, literally limited what courses I could take. Because I was considered especially in math and quantitative reasoning in the far below average range. Which technically I would agree at the time I didn’t even have a basic understanding of the most basic of basics. And when I was in algebra I literally cheated on tests because I couldn’t understand the most simple of contexts. However, I don’t blame my teachers for this as much. Because I had mostly good teachers outside of my case managers. That always told me if you have a dream and you have a passion in life you gotta work at it ,you gotta chase it and you gotta put a plan together on how you’re gonna tackle it. that’s what the regular kids were told. That’s what the main stream students were told. Which should just be the way you treat all kids it’s called just having common decency.

I literally just can’t stand the whole idea that they have like they think my parents seem to think that people who are highly successful. I’m not talking about someone who becomes like a millionaire by the time they’re 30. I’m talking about people who are like highly sophisticated people like engineers data analysts, Doctors, and Lawyers. people who are top sales people scientists and business leaders. My mom and dad don’t seem to think that those people got there through hard work and determination. She they seem to think that those talents that they had were just there to begin with, and they managed to use them to their advantage. Like they just got lucky it’s like I don’t know how anyone can get by day by day thinking like that. How about this, things would’ve been 1 million times better if they just instead they look to those people as an inspiration. Rather than making me feel like I’m just gonna work a minimum wage job the rest of my life or I’m just gonna struggle and live paycheck to paycheck and I should just try to make peace with that.

And for years, I still to this day, deal with problems with my confidence, feelings of self-worth and I had just pure anger at myself and the world. I never got into drugs, but I did struggle with alcoholism from when I was 22 till I was 26. I’ve managed to stop and get in control of it. I’m exercising and trying to eat healthy and trying to focus more positively On life. I got my associates degree in Communications, I just applied for Jobs in marketing and one in sales. My goal is to go into the Public Relations field in business. But I still work as a dishwasher in a restaurant. And I live with my parents, and right now I’m at a point where I flat out never wanna hear there opinions or views about anything. I don’t care how well intentioned it is they need to have no say over me. That’s how fragile my self esteem is, and people are gonna say seek therapy, well I think the type of therapy that’s needed, is one thing. But it’s a temporary fix what type of therapy I want is one where the three of us are all in a room and they take responsibility for what they did to me. And for the thoughts that they put into my head.

Like I’ve said, I just wish that despite my disability, I wish that I was treated the same as say some kid who was a star football legend. And was a straight A student then got into UCLA. And then became got a job working at a Wall Street firm in his early 20s. I feel if I was treated that way my life and my metal health would be way better. I know this isn’t realistic, but in a perfect world. I wish my math problems were never highlighted, and maybe my disability was just seeing as a side note. Or that me being on the spectrum was never used as a reason, for why I should do things differently. Or if it was just ignored, and not highlighted I would be much happier if I was left to navigate my own life.

Like I want to move out of my parents house, I wanna travel the world. I wanna go into the business world and make it up the corporate ladder. I wanna one day get married and have my own kids. And my own house and feel pride in myself. do you know President John F Kennedy said once “ The guns behind the iron curtain are all facing east, but the people are all facing west.” And the statement is true people were dying to get out of that hell hole that was the Soviet Union. Because in my opinion, the worst part about communism is instead of you choosing the life you want you have others not have superiors, deciding for you. People like to feel in control of their own lives, and their own dreams. That’s why people come to America, Nobody wants to move to Russia or China or North Korea, because there’s no freedom.

I’m 28M this is not really and educational post. But when I was in my teens I remember arguing with my parents a lot. Because they would always claim to be supportive of me but then every single thing I wanted to do they would say ya I don’t think you can do it. I told them I wanted to be an airline pilot. And my mom said that since I had ADHD and how bad my attention was I wouldn’t be able to get a first class medical from the FAA. I mentioned how I wanted to be a lawyer and they told me that because of how bad my reading comprehension was at the time I would not be able to understand the logic component part of the LSAT, the test you need to get into law school. Then I said I wanted to join the Air Force of course she told me that since I was on the autism spectrum I would get in. And math was always my biggest obstacle and even in areas I was knowledgeable in they would still say things like ya but the math component that’s involved in here. And they still tell me this crap today as an adult.

But it wasn’t just them god fucking damn it. In high school I had a case managers that always questioned my ability to do certain tasks. Weather it came to certain classes I was in or if I was talking to them about carriers. Plus I had an IEP and during my first year of high school I was placed in remedial courses, and I wanted to be more general Ed classes and my case manager, literally limited what courses I could take. Because I was considered especially in math and quantitative reasoning in the far below average range. Which technically I would agree at the time I didn’t even have a basic understanding of the most basic of basics. And when I was in algebra I literally cheated on tests because I couldn’t understand the most simple of contexts. However, I don’t blame my teachers for this as much. Because I had mostly good teachers outside of my case managers. That always told me if you have a dream and you have a passion in life you gotta work at it ,you gotta chase it and you gotta put a plan together on how you’re gonna tackle it. that’s what the regular kids were told. That’s what the main stream students were told. Which should just be the way you treat all kids it’s called just having common decency.

I literally just can’t stand the whole idea that they have like they think my parents seem to think that people who are highly successful. I’m not talking about someone who becomes like a millionaire by the time they’re 30. I’m talking about people who are like highly sophisticated people like engineers data analysts, Doctors, and Lawyers. people who are top sales people scientists and business leaders. My mom and dad don’t seem to think that those people got there through hard work and determination. She they seem to think that those talents that they had were just there to begin with, and they managed to use them to their advantage. Like they just got lucky it’s like I don’t know how anyone can get by day by day thinking like that. How about this, things would’ve been 1 million times better if they just instead they look to those people as an inspiration. Rather than making me feel like I’m just gonna work a minimum wage job the rest of my life or I’m just gonna struggle and live paycheck to paycheck and I should just try to make peace with that.

And for years, I still to this day, deal with problems with my confidence, feelings of self-worth and I had just pure anger at myself and the world. I never got into drugs, but I did struggle with alcoholism from when I was 22 till I was 26. I’ve managed to stop and get in control of it. I’m exercising and trying to eat healthy and trying to focus more positively On life. I got my associates degree in Communications, I just applied for Jobs in marketing and one in sales. My goal is to go into the Public Relations field in business. But I still work as a dishwasher in a restaurant. And I live with my parents, and right now I’m at a point where I flat out never wanna hear there opinions or views about anything. I don’t care how well intentioned it is they need to have no say over me. That’s how fragile my self esteem is, and people are gonna say seek therapy, well I think the type of therapy that’s needed, is one thing. But it’s a temporary fix what type of therapy I want is one where the three of us are all in a room and they take responsibility for what they did to me. And for the thoughts that they put into my head.

Like I’ve said, I just wish that despite my disability, I wish that I was treated the same as say some kid who was a star football legend. And was a straight A student then got into UCLA. And then became got a job working at a Wall Street firm in his early 20s. I feel if I was treated that way my life and my metal health would be way better. I know this isn’t realistic, but in a perfect world. I wish my math problems were never highlighted, and maybe my disability was just seeing as a side note. Or that me being on the spectrum was never used as a reason, for why I should do things differently. Or if it was just ignored, and not highlighted I would be much happier if I was left to navigate my own life.

Like I want to move out of my parents house, I wanna travel the world. I wanna go into the business world and make it up the corporate ladder. I wanna one day get married and have my own kids. And my own house and feel pride in myself.

do you know President John F Kennedy said once “ The guns behind the iron curtain are all facing east, but the people are all facing west.” And the statement is true people were dying to get out of that hell hole that was the Soviet Union. Because in my opinion, the worst part about communism is instead of you choosing the life you want you have others not have superiors, deciding for you. People like to feel in control of their own lives, and their own dreams. That’s why people come to America, Nobody wants to move to Russia or China or North Korea, because there’s no freedom.

I’m 28M this is not really and educational post. But when I was in my teens I remember arguing with my parents a lot. Because they would always claim to be supportive of me but then every single thing I wanted to do they would say ya I don’t think you can do it. I told them I wanted to be an airline pilot. And my mom said that since I had ADHD and how bad my attention was I wouldn’t be able to get a first class medical from the FAA. I mentioned how I wanted to be a lawyer and they told me that because of how bad my reading comprehension was at the time I would not be able to understand the logic component part of the LSAT, the test you need to get into law school. Then I said I wanted to join the Air Force of course she told me that since I was on the autism spectrum I would get in. And math was always my biggest obstacle and even in areas I was knowledgeable in they would still say things like ya but the math component that’s involved in here. And they still tell me this crap today as an adult.

But it wasn’t just them god fucking damn it. In high school I had a case managers that always questioned my ability to do certain tasks. Weather it came to certain classes I was in or if I was talking to them about carriers. Plus I had an IEP and during my first year of high school I was placed in remedial courses, and I wanted to be more general Ed classes and my case manager, literally limited what courses I could take. Because I was considered especially in math and quantitative reasoning in the far below average range. Which technically I would agree at the time I didn’t even have a basic understanding of the most basic of basics. And when I was in algebra I literally cheated on tests because I couldn’t understand the most simple of contexts. However, I don’t blame my teachers for this as much. Because I had mostly good teachers outside of my case managers. That always told me if you have a dream and you have a passion in life you gotta work at it ,you gotta chase it and you gotta put a plan together on how you’re gonna tackle it. that’s what the regular kids were told. That’s what the main stream students were told. Which should just be the way you treat all kids it’s called just having common decency.

I literally just can’t stand the whole idea that they have like they think my parents seem to think that people who are highly successful. I’m not talking about someone who becomes like a millionaire by the time they’re 30. I’m talking about people who are like highly sophisticated people like engineers data analysts, Doctors, and Lawyers. people who are top sales people scientists and business leaders. My mom and dad don’t seem to think that those people got there through hard work and determination. She they seem to think that those talents that they had were just there to begin with, and they managed to use them to their advantage. Like they just got lucky it’s like I don’t know how anyone can get by day by day thinking like that. How about this, things would’ve been 1 million times better if they just instead they look to those people as an inspiration. Rather than making me feel like I’m just gonna work a minimum wage job the rest of my life or I’m just gonna struggle and live paycheck to paycheck and I should just try to make peace with that.

And for years, I still to this day, deal with problems with my confidence, feelings of self-worth and I had just pure anger at myself and the world. I never got into drugs, but I did struggle with alcoholism from when I was 22 till I was 26. I’ve managed to stop and get in control of it. I’m exercising and trying to eat healthy and trying to focus more positively On life. I got my associates degree in Communications, I just applied for Jobs in marketing and one in sales. My goal is to go into the Public Relations field in business. But I still work as a dishwasher in a restaurant. And I live with my parents, and right now I’m at a point where I flat out never wanna hear there opinions or views about anything. I don’t care how well intentioned it is they need to have no say over me. That’s how fragile my self esteem is, and people are gonna say seek therapy, well I think the type of therapy that’s needed, is one thing. But it’s a temporary fix what type of therapy I want is one where the three of us are all in a room and they take responsibility for what they did to me. And for the thoughts that they put into my head.

Like I’ve said, I just wish that despite my disability, I wish that I was treated the same as say some kid who was a star football legend. And was a straight A student then got into UCLA. And then became got a job working at a Wall Street firm in his early 20s. I feel if I was treated that way my life and my metal health would be way better. I know this isn’t realistic, but in a perfect world. I wish my math problems were never highlighted, and maybe my disability was just seeing as a side note. Or that me being on the spectrum was never used as a reason, for why I should do things differently. Or if it was just ignored, and not highlighted I would be much happier if I was left to navigate my own life.

Like I want to move out of my parents house, I wanna travel the world. I wanna go into the business world and make it up the corporate ladder. I wanna one day get married and have my own kids. And my own house and feel pride in myself.

do you know President John F Kennedy said once “ The guns behind the iron curtain are all facing east, but the people are all facing west.” And the statement is true people were dying to get out of that hell hole that was the Soviet Union. Because in my opinion, the worst part about communism is instead of you choosing the life you want you have others not have superiors, deciding for you. People like to feel in control of their own lives, and their own dreams. That’s why people come to America, Nobody wants to move to Russia or China or North Korea, because there’s no freedom.

I’m 28M this is not really and educational post. But when I was in my teens I remember arguing with my parents a lot. Because they would always claim to be supportive of me but then every single thing I wanted to do they would say ya I don’t think you can do it. I told them I wanted to be an airline pilot. And my mom said that since I had ADHD and how bad my attention was I wouldn’t be able to get a first class medical from the FAA. I mentioned how I wanted to be a lawyer and they told me that because of how bad my reading comprehension was at the time I would not be able to understand the logic component part of the LSAT, the test you need to get into law school. Then I said I wanted to join the Air Force of course she told me that since I was on the autism spectrum I would get in. And math was always my biggest obstacle and even in areas I was knowledgeable in they would still say things like ya but the math component that’s involved in here. And they still tell me this crap today as an adult.

But it wasn’t just them god fucking damn it. In high school I had a case managers that always questioned my ability to do certain tasks. Weather it came to certain classes I was in or if I was talking to them about carriers. Plus I had an IEP and during my first year of high school I was placed in remedial courses, and I wanted to be more general Ed classes and my case manager, literally limited what courses I could take. Because I was considered especially in math and quantitative reasoning in the far below average range. Which technically I would agree at the time I didn’t even have a basic understanding of the most basic of basics. And when I was in algebra I literally cheated on tests because I couldn’t understand the most simple of contexts. However, I don’t blame my teachers for this as much. Because I had mostly good teachers outside of my case managers. That always told me if you have a dream and you have a passion in life you gotta work at it ,you gotta chase it and you gotta put a plan together on how you’re gonna tackle it. that’s what the regular kids were told. That’s what the main stream students were told. Which should just be the way you treat all kids it’s called just having common decency.

I literally just can’t stand the whole idea that they have like they think my parents seem to think that people who are highly successful. I’m not talking about someone who becomes like a millionaire by the time they’re 30. I’m talking about people who are like highly sophisticated people like engineers data analysts, Doctors, and Lawyers. people who are top sales people scientists and business leaders. My mom and dad don’t seem to think that those people got there through hard work and determination. She they seem to think that those talents that they had were just there to begin with, and they managed to use them to their advantage. Like they just got lucky it’s like I don’t know how anyone can get by day by day thinking like that. How about this, things would’ve been 1 million times better if they just instead they look to those people as an inspiration. Rather than making me feel like I’m just gonna work a minimum wage job the rest of my life or I’m just gonna struggle and live paycheck to paycheck and I should just try to make peace with that.

And for years, I still to this day, deal with problems with my confidence, feelings of self-worth and I had just pure anger at myself and the world. I never got into drugs, but I did struggle with alcoholism from when I was 22 till I was 26. I’ve managed to stop and get in control of it. I’m exercising and trying to eat healthy and trying to focus more positively On life. I got my associates degree in Communications, I just applied for Jobs in marketing and one in sales. My goal is to go into the Public Relations field in business. But I still work as a dishwasher in a restaurant. And I live with my parents, and right now I’m at a point where I flat out never wanna hear there opinions or views about anything. I don’t care how well intentioned it is they need to have no say over me. That’s how fragile my self esteem is, and people are gonna say seek therapy, well I think the type of therapy that’s needed, is one thing. But it’s a temporary fix what type of therapy I want is one where the three of us are all in a room and they take responsibility for what they did to me. And for the thoughts that they put into my head.

Like I’ve said, I just wish that despite my disability, I wish that I was treated the same as say some kid who was a star football legend. And was a straight A student then got into UCLA. And then became got a job working at a Wall Street firm in his early 20s. I feel if I was treated that way my life and my metal health would be way better. I know this isn’t realistic, but in a perfect world. I wish my math problems were never highlighted, and maybe my disability was just seeing as a side note. Or that me being on the spectrum was never used as a reason, for why I should do things differently. Or if it was just ignored, and not highlighted I would be much happier if I was left to navigate my own life.

Like I want to move out of my parents house, I wanna travel the world. I wanna go into the business world and make it up the corporate ladder. I wanna one day get married and have my own kids. And my own house and feel pride in myself.

do you know President John F Kennedy said once “ The guns behind the iron curtain are all facing east, but the people are all facing west.” And the statement is true people were dying to get out of that hell hole that was the Soviet Union. Because in my opinion, the worst part about communism is instead of you choosing the life you want you have others not have superiors, deciding for you. People like to feel in control of their own lives, and their own dreams. That’s why people come to America, Nobody wants to move to Russia or China or North Korea, because there’s no freedom.