u/Effective_Royal_8679

I (20F) live in a culture/region where the norm is you keep living with your family until you get married (which I never want to do) and I feel so miserable and stuck living with them in this house. Every time I try to improve my life (working out, hobbies, adopting a positive mindset, better diet, etc) something happens in the house and it results in me losing all the passion I have for self improvement, like I literally don’t care anymore. I just feel so stuck and I don’t even have any friends to go hang out with all day (I just recently cut off my best friend because of an issue we’ve had). I know that if I lived alone I’d thrive because nobody would be around to hinder my journey towards a better life. I really love reading and creative writing, and all my professors say I’m a talented writer, yet recently I haven’t been able to find it within me to write because I just don’t care. I’m losing all the passion I had for the one thing that I’m actually good at. I feel like I’m going to waste away in this household and never make something of myself.

I signed up for this international competition at my university that is so important and I’ve been looking forward to for so long, and yesterday they told us that they will hold the first batch of interviews today at 10:00 am where all applicants were expected to attend. I set my alarm for 9:00 am (it only takes me like 30 minutes to get ready and 20 minutes to arrive) and I was so excited, I even practiced the whole day before. In the morning my alarm didn’t go off and when I woke up and checked the clock it said 11:41 am. My heart sank and I literally burst into tears. I’m still crying right now. I can’t eat, brush my teeth, get out of bed, or do anything. I’m so ashamed of myself and I can’t believe I missed the opportunity that I’ve been waiting so long for and was so excited about. I don’t even know what to do. My whole life is falling apart and I’m gonna do nothing about it.

I (20F) signed up for this international competition at my university that is so important and I’ve been looking forward to for so long, and yesterday they told us that they will hold the first batch of interviews today at 10:00 am where all applicants were expected to attend. I set my alarm for 9:00 am (it only takes me like 30 minutes to get ready and 20 minutes to arrive) and I was so excited, I even practiced the whole day before. In the morning my alarm didn’t go off and when I woke up and checked the clock it said 11:41 am. My heart sank and I literally burst into tears. I’m still crying right now. I can’t eat, brush my teeth, get out of bed, or do anything. I’m so ashamed of myself and I can’t believe I missed the opportunity that I’ve been waiting so long for and was so excited about. I don’t even know what to do. My whole life is falling apart and I’m gonna do nothing about it.