I went to church Sunday to support a friend. I was totally shocked to see the newest stake speaker guy was literally a dude I’d reported to CPS and church leaders for repeated child and spousal abuse. Some of the details are heartbreaking. I know covering up abuse is so common it’s practically in the articles of faith but geez is there anything else I can do?
So fucking sick of people talking at full volume and playing on their phones. I’m not broke but tickets to everything are expensive and honestly with total lack of theatre etiquette why even bother going?? I used to love a packed theater back in the day. I still have vivid memories of the crowd gasping at “Luke I am your father!”, cheering for the Ghost Busters living though total protonic reversal, and even whoops during Top Gun flights. That‘s because we were, you know, watching the actual fucking movie. Now it seems audiences can’t seem to pay attention. I just had the worst experience tonight and I’m done.
No one thinks I’m autistic so I come across as a bitch or an asshole. The reality is I spend an inordinate amount of time coming up with ways to be nice to my coworkers and extended family members. I’m a hopeless people pleaser who doesn’t know how to actually, you know, please people. I’m less masked with my kids and husband and they accept me autism and all, which has literally saved my life. When I do “out” myself to people outside my inner circle they don’t believe me and think I’m using it as an excuse. Usually by that time I’m a complete social outcast and can’t undig myself from the hole I’ve unwittingly dug. I wish I had more “tells” that I’m autistic or hadn't learned to it mask so well. I am just replaying my “greatest hits” of things I didn’t realize I sGould not have said at work and only realized when there was big backlash. I don’t recommend doing that exercise - it sucks.