u/Electrical-Oil6078

I'm a 20 year old guy and the last few weeks my mind has been much more positive and i have been trying a lot more things and every night before bed i get this same feeling like for the last few years nothing has been going my way i try to be grateful for being alive yet my mind always goes to the facts which are that I'm 20 with a part time job and that is all i have i don't have a single friend I don't have a hobby that I'm good at or anything I'm good at in general despite trying a lot of things for months or years I cannot seem to connect with anything or people in general. it feels super impossible to stop having depression and anxiety when life never changes i just go to work then stay in my room i eat good i drink a lot of water i shower often i do all the right things yet i just feel like im set up for failure like what can i even do to make my life better or get a good job its so so hopeless in reality i feel doomed. i cant remember the last time i had a good day because at the end of everyday i just reflect and im so full of guilt and shame for amounting to nothing. and i have considered getting help but even if i get rid of my depression and anxiety it is not like my life will change or i will make loads of friends and get loads of money. any advice would be helpful as i feel like a lost cause no matter what i do nothing changes
sorry if this is just a big cry out for help.

All I see is the people I went to school with online having the best life’s always on holiday always got friends money cars and I know people tell you don’t compare yourself to others or social media as it can be fake but it’s clearly not I don’t have a single friend at 20 years old and I work a minimum wage job and that’s all I do if I’m not at work I’m sleeping or just staying in bed as I don’t have any other options. I wish I had someone or something I enjoyed yet everyday is hopeless I wake up and just think what do I even do not the sense of my whole life but as in right now after I’ve woken up and showered what do I even do next it’s so tiring
I can’t seem to connect with anyone or improve/ get good at anything I try and say even I did get help for depression and anxiety I’m not going to magically make friends or be good at things or have a great job so in the great scale of things what is the point in anything. Im also not very smart I struggle to speak properly or say the correct words and I’m not very bright I’m more dumb and dull maybe I’m not ugly to some people but to me I’m disgusting. I just don’t see a way up from here.

I just need some sort of advice or even help perspective I don’t know I’m really stupid so I’m just Saying nonsense.

I’m a 20 year old male from the UK looking for advice or help on what to do for a career or just general life advice because my life is just a endless loop every single day I know I have anxiety and depression and it makes my world view worse or whatever but I’m so stuck and lost it’s insane.

I have a retail job making minimum wage and have been working there for 2 years I have no money at all as I’m terrible with it it’s the only way I cope is spending money or sleeping im not going to college or university as I don’t believe im smart enough even if I was nothing interests me enough to go I don’t have any hobbies at all my spare time is just me in my room or sleeping

all I do is work and when I’m not working I’m in my room trying to figure out what to do which just makes me frustrated.

I also don't have any friends at all I don’t know anyone outside my parents and I have no idea how to get out of this situation how will I ever have a career if im not interested in anything/ nothing makes me happy or brings me joy

and my anxiety gets so bad it’s hard for me to look at people or even do simple things like say hi as I feel so much of a bother or just a nuisance thats most likely the main reason I have no friends but to be honest I never really connect with anyone ever every conversation I have feels so forced and just lifeless I hate it

I know this is just a big vent but i have no where else to turn to for advice.

I’m a 20 year old male from the UK looking for advice or help on what to do for a career or just general life advice because my life is just a endless loop every single day I know I have anxiety and depression and it makes my world view worse or whatever but I’m so stuck and lost it’s insane.

I have a dead end retail job making minimum wage and have been working there for 2 years I have no money at all as I’m terrible with it it’s the only way I cope is spending money or sleeping im not going to college or university as I don’t believe im smart enough even if I was nothing interests me enough to go I don’t have any hobbies at all my spare time is just me in my room or sleeping

all I do is work and when I’m not working I’m in my room trying to figure out what to do which just makes me frustrated.

I also don't have any friends at all I don’t know anyone outside my parents and I have no idea how to get out of this situation how will I ever have a career if im not interested in anything/ nothing makes me happy or brings me joy

and my anxiety gets so bad it’s hard for me to look at people or even do simple things like say hi as I feel so much of a bother or just a nuisance thats most likely the main reason I have no friends but to be honest I never really connect with anyone ever every conversation I have feels so forced and just lifeless I hate it

I know this is just a big vent but i have no where else to turn to for advice.