u/Electronic_Wave_798

I’ve had a problem with gambling for a while. Usually I’d lose around $1,000–$2,000, hate myself for it, swear I was done, and then eventually go back. This time was different. This was the biggest loss I’ve ever taken.
The worst part is I actually had money. I watched my account go from around $9,000 to $4,000 in one day because I kept chasing and convincing myself I could win it back. Every loss made me want to deposit more just to get back to where I started.

Now that it’s over, I keep thinking about everything that $6,000 could’ve paid for. Bills, my mortgage, savings literally anything would’ve been better than watching it disappear on a screen.

I finally banned myself and put blocks on my devices. I know chasing this money will only make things worse, so I have to accept that it’s gone.

I’m just incredibly disappointed in myself. Yesterday I had that money. Today I have nothing to show for it except regret. I never want to feel this way again.

I need to write this somewhere because today was the worst gambling loss I’ve ever had.
I lost $6,000 in less than 24 hours.
I’ve had plenty of bad gambling days before. Losing $1,000–$2,000 at a time unfortunately became something I could somehow rationalize. I’d feel horrible afterward, tell myself I learned my lesson, stop for a little while, and eventually convince myself that next time would be different.

Today showed me where that thinking eventually leads.
The scariest part wasn’t even watching the money disappear. It was watching how quickly my definition of “okay” changed.
I’d lose $1,000 and think, I just need to get that $1,000 back.
Then I’d lose another $1,000.
Suddenly I wasn’t trying to get the first $1,000 back anymore. I would have been relieved just to get back to where I was 30 minutes earlier.
And it kept happening.
Every new low became the number I desperately wished I had stopped at.

That is probably the biggest thing gambling has taught me: you can spend thousands of dollars chasing a number you already had.
And eventually I had to face the obvious question:
If losing $2,000 never made me stop, why did I think losing another $2,000 would?
There was never going to be an amount where my brain suddenly said, “Okay, that’s enough.” As long as I could keep playing, I could keep chasing.
The money hurts. A lot. I have a mortgage, bills, cars, a business and people who depend on me. That $6,000 could have gone toward literally anything productive. Instead, I exchanged it for hours of stress, anxiety and regret.

But what scares me more is realizing how much worse this could eventually become if I keep treating every loss as a one-time mistake.
So I’m done treating this like a bad gambling session.
I have a gambling problem.
I’ve blocked myself and put gambling blockers on my devices. I don’t want access anymore because I finally understand that my problem isn’t figuring out when to stop.

My problem is that once I start, I don’t reliably stop.
If you’re reading this after losing $500, $1,000, $2,000 or whatever amount hurts you right now, please don’t make the mistake I made.
You don’t have to get it back.
You can accept that the money is gone.
Because the alternative is exactly what happened to me: turning a loss you couldn’t accept into a loss you would give anything to undo.

I wish I could go back 24 hours and accept the first loss.
I can’t.

But I can make sure I never turn this $6,000 into $10,000 trying to get the $6,000 back.

Recently I won 16k off this site from a $10 dollar spin I immediately stopped playing to go withdraw.

My problem is they claim to be instant redemption but I’m pretty sure they are refusing to pay me. It’s been a little over 5 days and so far I’ve only been able to withdraw 1k.

Everything else either says failed redemption or just says pending redemption. Not to mention they have a 3k daily redemption limit. Any advice?