u/Elegant-Engineer8491

So I came across a post from one of my aunts showing a pic that she's prepping for her death by buying a burial plan with the caption along the lines of they're at that age. I kinda felt a pang of guilt that I haven't really been of help.

For context my aunt didnt marry and does not have any children, theres two of them actually that didnt marry and told me that when they grow old theyd like to be taken care of by me. Why? Because Im the only grandchild on that side of the family and there's really no other younger person around to be that person who takes care of them or that stuff.

The reason why I feel guilty is that even tho they didnt really raise me or spoiled me too much they still treated me nice and gave me stuff which I should be thankful for, but now is the time I should start giving back and I'm still not financially stable. All I can do is send them a lil money for celebrations and just sending them messages once in awhile to check up on them because I live far away from them.

It was different when they said my family )my mom, dad, aunts) said they wanted me to take care of them when I was young cause I know I still have the time. But now when Im really supposed to and still cant makes me a lil sad because I really want to and not just because they told me so.

Kinda wished I had a sibling not just to share the burden with but someone who understands.

For context I'm a loud person, pilya and all. So I feel like when it comes to the term mabait most people acquaint it with the mahinhin or gentle, so whenever any of my good deeds surface. Like kanina may pinayongan ako habang umuulan which is totally normal ko na gawain naman talaga if may nakita ako and kaya ko naman payongan and if magpapa-payong din yung person kaso usually mag-isa lang ako nyan so kanina na kasama ko yung mga friends ko they were a bit shocked na "mabait" daw pala ako. 🥹

I've been around sa reddit for quite some time now and had no major issues naman, as a usual silent reader na di masyado pala up and comment and now when I do comment I get an automod comment that the karma required to comment etc has been increased. :(

So I met this guy at a certain event and we hit it off. FF, we became FUBUs. Out of all the people I can be FUBUs with I chose him because he reminds me of my recent ex.

He has this certain facial feature that's similar with my ex, same height, almost same build, they share the same weird kink and one of their particular hobbies is the same as well.

May pagkakaiba naman sila syempre but I feel like the certain similarities they have makes me want to give in to his wishes more.

Kahit naiinis ako how much of a dry texter he is (due lack of personal interest outside s*x ofc), when I'm avail and he wants me then g ako. The things I say no to or don't do sa mga previous s*xual partners ko pag siya nag request pumapayag ako.

I know I'm projecting because I know how much I miss my ex and this set up is prolly just gonna end up with me in another heartbreak chasing the ghost of my ex but as of the moment I can't help it kasi.