u/ElloMates2002

I literally just lost my job today. I’m suicidally depressed. I did in fact go chasing the bottom of the bottle. My partner ended up having to take care of me like I was a helpless child.

Here’s the problem, we have a child. A 15 month old that I am essentially putting direct danger by getting this drunk around.

I don’t know what to do. I’m used to just drowning my sorrows, in alcohol and drugs. I’ve always either done this or been put on a psych hold due to the danger to myself.

I feel bad doing the psych hold as well. I don’t want to leave my partner alone with our child for days on end. It feels like I’m abandoning them.

They tried to help and it ended up with me making them feel like shit for giving any advice. Not my intention, but it’s hard to control my thoughts and what I say right now. Feels close to no filter.

Any advice is appreciated, I just woke up from being passed out drunk and I already want to reach for the bottle again. I really just want to be okay.

How hard can you fight against your own human nature, before you aren’t human anymore?

I just lost my job and teetering over the edge, what do I do?