u/EmbarrassedAffect672

Really hard to get better when I immediately die every time I spawn. By the same person. I’m a new player and this game can be so fun but sometimes it feels super unbalanced, I’ll come up behind 4-5 players throw a grenade then start blasting and still die. Doesn’t seem to make sense to me. Is it the guns? I don’t have a single upgraded weapon it’s gotta be that right?

I had gotten my first apartment in my town, it was very shitty but I loved it, I spent almost every night alone but I felt so free and could just sit and think about all the possibilities of the world and my future with a warm insightful mindset, I enjoyed my alone time those days, now almost 10 years later I am turning 28 and almost every night I still sit alone but I am constantly filled with pressure and anxiety of the future and myself, at every moment I feel I am trapped in a cage of discomfort, constantly reminding myself how much of a loser I am and how I have and likely won’t accomplish anything in life. I so badly miss feeling so free and content with my life back then. Often asking myself “how can I feel that way again?” I’m not sure if there is a way to go back, but man I really am tired of feeling so much all the time.