u/EmbarrassedMouse6452

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Species:cat
* Age: 2
* Sex/Neuter status: neutered
* Breed: mixed/unknown
* Body weight: 12 pounds
* History: no health concerns
* Clinical signs: not sure what to put here
* Duration: a weelk
* Your general location: tn
* Links to any test results, X-rays, vet reports etc. that you have:

My cat has randomly refused to leave my uncle's room, refuses to eat from their food bowl, and is going to the bathroom sink. drink from their water bowl, going for the sink.not using the litterbox. The vet sad he was in perfect health saw no issues. I was watching my friends for a couple of months while they were out of the country, and this started around then. Does anyone know what it could do to help if its anxiety? I just want to help him

TW ED and weight struggles

I had an ED in high school, and I was the smallest I’ve ever been. I keep looking at pictures from then and wanting to lose weight, and over the last five years I’ve tried everything. I only eat 2,000 calories a day, go to the gym 4–6 times a week, and walk miles and miles, yet I still seem to gain weight. It’s so goddamn depressing.

I want to rip my own flesh off because I can’t look in the mirror and be happy with myself. It sucks because when I’m manic, I love my curves and will do anything to show them off, but any other time I can’t stand to look at them.

Ever since I started counting calories again, it takes everything in me not to starve myself and eat less than 500 calories a day. While I know that’s bad, the emotional part of my brain tells me it’s my only choice.

Sometimes I wish I could live in the mania, where everything feels perfect and easy.

The worst part is that I help so many people through this point, and they find success, yet I can’t even get myself out of my own emotional crisis. I hate being the fixer who can’t fix themselves.

TW: ED

So for reference, I’m a trans girl. I’ve been on HRT for a year. I weigh 320 lbs, I’m 5'8", and I’m 24.

I’ve wanted to lose weight my whole life and have tried every diet, going to the gym, everything. Recently, I tried counting calories and doing weight checks again after refusing to do so since recovering from my ED. Now it takes my cat reminding me to eat because I don’t even want to know how many calories I eat in a day (around 2,000).

If it helps, I’m pescatarian due to allergies and only have about $150 a month to spend on food.

While all of this is happening, I’m gaining weight. I went up two pant sizes while going to the gym four times a week. Through all of this, you can still feel my bones despite me having a gut.

Does anyone have advice for losing weight that doesn’t make my ED feel like it’s coming back? Maybe something more concrete than “go to the gym and just do whatever feels right”?

Somehow, I increased my spiro 6 months ago, and my T is higher. My estrogen levels went down from 96 to 45, which is not in the right range. It has been a year, and I swear no changes have happened besides breast sensitivity and softer skin. After a year, no other major effects. Right now I am sitting before my appointment to start progesterone and just want to scream because things feel impossible.

Seeing all these other trans people within a year looking completely different, while I have had no changes and am struggling to reach the levels I need. I just want to scream. Why is HRT failing me? How can I be the mom to five baby trans people, getting them connected with doctors and seeing changes, but I struggle? I want my glow up.