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Im 25, AFAB, diagnosed with MDD, C-PTSD, OCD, potentially ASD, and chronic pain.

Last year I got on disability. For the first time, I cried tears of joy and relief. I worked so hard to get the support I needed.
But now? I spend all day waiting for it to end. I try to stay occupied, but its all just something to pass the time. I am 220 days sober from weed, after chronically smoking for 6 years. So im sure thats playing a part in all of this, but its best for me to stay sober.

I just feel so…purposeless. Nothing feels worth it, or rewarding. No amount of volunteer work, junk food, treats, socializing, etc, feels worth the effort. I used to love drawing as a teen, but find it exhausting now. Most of my life i wanted to be an artist, but after years of abuse and chronic pain, all i want now is to be happy and ok. I dont have a career path or passion. Im not able to keep interest in something long enough to turn it into something more.

Im not sure what to do. I feel so very lost and sad. I dont want this to turn into an inpatient stay. I want to feel better, but it feels like ive tried fucking everything. And i mean everything. How do i feel good again? How do i find a purpose that feels worth working towards?

I have a strange question. I am a 25 y/o AFAB person who is on disability due to mental health issues. I also have chronic pain, causing me to need to see a plethora of specialists.

I struggle to get rides to appointments, to properly schedule appointments, to remember when I was last seen, or why I had scheduled upcoming appointments. I try to use modivcare for transportation through my insurance, but have had MULTIPLE instances where they canceled my ride without giving me notice, and I missed my appointments, and luckily was able yo talk my way out of a late fee i couldnt afford. I struggle to keep track of doctors as well, as I see so many people, and have had to deal with providers quitting/moving frequently.

Is there such thing as a “care manager?” Someone who could help me stay organized, make necessary appointments, and better care for myself? I get so overwhelmed and my memory is bad due to my conditions, making keeping, attending, and scheduling appointments extremely difficult. I am on humana medicare (i REALLY dislike them, they fight me on covering most of my medications) and secondary (mclaren?) medicaid. My only living parent isnt caring enough to be involved, but he is also quite old, and i wouldnt expect that of him.

My options are quite limited, and while i try my best to make notes, lists, reminders, etc, my mental health issues get in the way of me getting myself to stick to attending and making calls. Having a almost case-manager type person to help with this would be helpful, but i am unsure if such a thing exists.

Any advice?
Thanks in advance!

Im so tired of my chronic pain taking away my favorite hobbies. Im so tired of taking pain medication and trying to balance diet and exercise. Im so tired of being too poor to afford braces and ergonomic assistance tools. Im so tired of waking up in pain, accumulating muscle pulls and injuries through simple daily actions. Im so, so fucking tired.

Im on disability due to severe mental health issues, so all I do all day, is try to stay busy outside of trying to build better habits. I have soooo much time, yet depression and boredom can be a deadly combo, so when my finger/hand/elbow pain flares up? I cant do anything I actually enjoy. And it turns an ok day, its a “im so fucking tired of my chronic pain” day. Ive tried everything you can think of, so i dont really need advice on miracle cures or therapies. A lot of the issues with that is accessibility and finances, otherwise, id get more braces, ergonomic covers/tools, and attend regular physical therapy.

Im just really emotionally struggling today (i am safe, pls dont report this). What do you do on days like this? Where you just want to enjoy yourself but feel so defeated by the pain?

Long story short, a good friend of mine and their partner are moving from GR to lansing, within a 20 min radius of MSU. What areas are the least safe, and most safe? While ive lived here most my life, i have NO ideas what areas are safe than others, especially in the sense of shootings and assaults. Thank you im advance for the tips!!

Hi there- i’m 25 AFAB, and have rheumatoid arthritis, and mild hypermobility/potential EDS. I often find myself waking up to sore muscles, even pulled muscles, or achey bones. Getting up and moving is the hardest, but often moving helps the pain a bit, as I feel stiff from sleep.

I’m honestly horrible about my sleep position 😭 forever been a side and stomach sleeper, though im trying to sleep on my back, yet i’ll wake up having turned to my side in my sleep.

Any advice? Recently its been my neck and upper back/shoulder muscles that hurt, and I have two different pillows i can use, but neither are particularly fancy. Ive tried putting pillows between and under my legs, but find it IMPOSSIBLE to fall asleep that way. Thank you in advance!!

Ive been on this med for a few years now. Tried getting off it two or three times before, only to give up and continue taking it, and the brain zaps are so bad, and it takes SO LONG for it to go away.

Mind you, ive tapered down to the lowest dose, and its still unbearable. Has anyone successfully come off it completely? When did your symptoms show improvement? And is there ANYTHING that helped with the brain zaps?