u/Emergency-Virus6507

I’m 16 a junior in hs, and a majority of my friends have been in therapy expressing their hate for it. I’ve always knew about therapy but never really considered it until two weeks ago after realizing how bad my maladaptive daydream was getting. I’ve had to deal with this bs disorder since I was a little girl and for the longest time Ive made the plan of quitting. However no matter what I do I just can’t seem to stop. The thought of being vulnerable to someone let alone a stranger just disgusts and irks me but I’d rather talk to a therapist than my family and friends. No one and I mean on one around me knows about the disorder, so I’m thinking a therapist might help. I’ve asked a few of my friends who’ve been in therapy and their answers were all the same “why would you pay someone to sit and listen to your feelings, when all they do is nod and tell you everything will be okay.”
“They act like they care when they really don’t.”

I’m a 16yro female in high school, and my face seems to hold a lot of fat. I’m not sure if it’s baby face/water retention but my face does look a lot bigger when I’m on my period.
I am aware that spot reduction isn’t really possible however I would like to know how to slim down. I’m 5’0 and weigh 101-103ibs (i gain and drop within minutes) I’ve been walking everyday and tried running however there seems to be an issue every time I run (shortness of breath, stomach hurting, legs cramping) so I just stick to walking even though I do want to get better at running. I also play golf occasionally, and I drink coconut water. My main issue is what I consume. I grow up in an Asian household so I just eat whatever my mom cooks, however she is down to let me eat whatever. What would you recommend for meal plans, workouts (I dont want any big muscles showing) diets and whatever else there might be.
Also a lot of my friends are taking peptides like Reta and ngl their results make me wanna hop on it too, however it’s not something I feel comfortable doing.

I know I’m gonna sound like every other basic American when I say this, but I genuinely have such big visions for myself in the future. But I’m so lazy, not even lazy just straight up procrastination.

I struggle with maladaptive daydreaming and have been since I was a kid. The smallest things trigger it whether it’s music, seeing a friend’s post, or seeing someone else live the life I was to live.

On top of that, I’m disorganized and have no momentum to do anything. “Just start doing it” its easier said than done.

I can’t live in the slump forever.

I do journal 3-4 times a week tho, occasionally read, and consume good content.

Other than that I doom scroll 24/7.

Please help me.