u/Emotional-Citron-561

Today, while we were at a concert, he told me "You can't even take care of your own bag, how are you going to take care of a baby?" Like out of nowhere. He knew how much i would like to have a baby. It really hurt me that moment and it still does. It felt like i am not enough. Then he understood what he said was mean and told me if i was okay which i replied no im not. Then he left me at the concert and i went home alone. He says i am overreacting but how it can be possible when i am still hurt from this sentence?

Today, while we were at a concert, he told me "You can't even take care of your own bag, how are you going to take care of a baby?" Like out of nowhere. He knew how much i would like to have a baby. It really hurt me that moment and it still does. It felt like i am not enough. Then he understood what he said was mean and told me if i was okay which i replied no im not. Then he left me at the concert and i went home alone. He says i am overreacting but how it can be possible when i am still hurt from this sentence?

Today, while we were at a concert, he told me "You can't even take care of your own bag, how are you going to take care of a baby?" Like out of nowhere. He knew how much i would like to have a baby. It really hurt me that moment and it still does. It felt like i am not enough. Then he understood what he said was mean and told me if i was okay which i replied no im not. Then he left me at the concert and i went home alone. He says i am overreacting but how it can be possible when i am still hurt from this sentence?

It's very difficult for me to say this, but I am 26, I've been with my boyfriend for a year and a half. We started living together in our fifth month, and the physical violence began from the very first month. Initially, when I did something or said something that annoyed him at a concert or in a bar, he would squeeze my waist tightly. Then, as time went on, he started biting me on my cheek, arm, and leg. I took pictures of a few of these incidents.

Once, he squeezed my little finger so hard it turned purple and I think it was crushed. I didn't go to the doctor, and he didn't suggest we go either. I couldn't use my little finger for a week, and it hurt a lot. All he did was apologize profusely, say he loved me very much, and that it wouldn't happen again. I'm a little too jealous of him because I can't trust him in anything. That's why I blame myself, thinking I'm the one who angers him.

The last incident was horrific and I think it traumatized me. I thought he was going to stab me with the knife he had in the house, but he kept cutting himself. This wasn't the first time he'd done this to himself. After cutting himself, he was in a lot of pain and started blaming me. And he started beating me, constantly hitting me on the head. He wouldn't let me escape from the house, and when I did, he caught me in the street and beat me there too. He said he wasn't afraid of the police, let them come and arrest him. He forced me back into the house and continued beating me, saying hurtful things, and I was really hurt that night. I remember crying, "mommy" I cant forget that night and me crying "mommy".

The next day, he said he'd been drunk the night before, apologized, and said he loved me more than anything and didn't want to break up. I don't know why, but I accepted. Now I don't even want to know what's right and what's wrong. I have no friends; my best friend left me because I chose to stay with him. I have messages where he admits to what he did and apologizes, and I'm keeping them. I also have photos of some of the bruises. I'm keeping those too. I'm ashamed to say this, but I still love him because he's sometimes very kind and considerate to me.

It's only in those terrible moments that it feels like a demon has possessed him. I know I should leave him, but I can't. Something inside me is stopping me. The memories and photos of when everything was beautiful are stopping me. I guess I can't accept that our relationship has turned into this.

Sometimes i have the courage to leave and want to leave but he used my credit card and there's a huge debt which i cannot afford to pay (i am working right now btw) and i cant go back to my family and say "hey i was staying with some guy for almost 2 year and the only thing left is this debt". Because i am ashamed. He even used the euros i collected for myself so when i leave him i would at least have some money. I am very stupid i told him about this plan and he was like yeah it would be good for you. Today He told me he used it last summer while we were on vacation but i remember there was still more money when i checked last month. I dont believe him but i will blame myself if it is true. He said he used it because i was not working that time and all i wanted was to go out dates with him which he couldnt afford, which is a lie i think. I think he used all of it for gambling or something

It's very difficult for me to say this, but I am 26, I've been with my boyfriend for a year and a half. We started living together in our fifth month, and the physical violence began from the very first month. Initially, when I did something or said something that annoyed him at a concert or in a bar, he would squeeze my waist tightly. Then, as time went on, he started biting me on my cheek, arm, and leg. I took pictures of a few of these incidents.

Once, he squeezed my little finger so hard it turned purple and I think it was crushed. I didn't go to the doctor, and he didn't suggest we go either. I couldn't use my little finger for a week, and it hurt a lot. All he did was apologize profusely, say he loved me very much, and that it wouldn't happen again. I'm a little too jealous of him because I can't trust him in anything. That's why I blame myself, thinking I'm the one who angers him.

The last incident was horrific and I think it traumatized me. I thought he was going to stab me with the knife he had in the house, but he kept cutting himself. This wasn't the first time he'd done this to himself. After cutting himself, he was in a lot of pain and started blaming me. And he started beating me, constantly hitting me on the head. He wouldn't let me escape from the house, and when I did, he caught me in the street and beat me there too. He said he wasn't afraid of the police, let them come and arrest him. He forced me back into the house and continued beating me, saying hurtful things, and I was really hurt that night. I remember crying, "mommy" I cant forget that night and me crying "mommy".

The next day, he said he'd been drunk the night before, apologized, and said he loved me more than anything and didn't want to break up. I don't know why, but I accepted. Now I don't even want to know what's right and what's wrong. I have no friends; my best friend left me because I chose to stay with him. I have messages where he admits to what he did and apologizes, and I'm keeping them. I also have photos of some of the bruises. I'm keeping those too. I'm ashamed to say this, but I still love him because he's sometimes very kind and considerate to me.

It's only in those terrible moments that it feels like a demon has possessed him. I know I should leave him, but I can't. Something inside me is stopping me. The memories and photos of when everything was beautiful are stopping me. I guess I can't accept that our relationship has turned into this.

Sometimes i have the courage to leave and want to leave but he used my credit card and there's a huge debt which i cannot afford to pay (i am working right now btw) and i cant go back to my family and say "hey i was staying with some guy for almost 2 year and the only thing left is this debt". Because i am ashamed. He even used the euros i collected for myself so when i leave him i would at least have some money. I am very stupid i told him about this plan and he was like yeah it would be good for you. Today He told me he used it last summer while we were on vacation but i remember there was still more money when i checked last month. I dont believe him but i will blame myself if it is true. He said he used it because i was not working that time and all i wanted was to go out dates with him which he couldnt afford, which is a lie i think. I think he used all of it for gambling or something

It's very difficult for me to say this, but I am 26, I've been with my boyfriend for a year and a half. We started living together in our fifth month, and the physical violence began from the very first month. Initially, when I did something or said something that annoyed him at a concert or in a bar, he would squeeze my waist tightly. Then, as time went on, he started biting me on my cheek, arm, and leg. I took pictures of a few of these incidents.

Once, he squeezed my little finger so hard it turned purple and I think it was crushed. I didn't go to the doctor, and he didn't suggest we go either. I couldn't use my little finger for a week, and it hurt a lot. All he did was apologize profusely, say he loved me very much, and that it wouldn't happen again. I'm a little too jealous of him because I can't trust him in anything. That's why I blame myself, thinking I'm the one who angers him.

The last incident was horrific and I think it traumatized me. I thought he was going to stab me with the knife he had in the house, but he kept cutting himself. This wasn't the first time he'd done this to himself. After cutting himself, he was in a lot of pain and started blaming me. And he started beating me, constantly hitting me on the head. He wouldn't let me escape from the house, and when I did, he caught me in the street and beat me there too. He said he wasn't afraid of the police, let them come and arrest him. He forced me back into the house and continued beating me, saying hurtful things, and I was really hurt that night. I remember crying, "mommy" I cant forget that night and me crying "mommy".

The next day, he said he'd been drunk the night before, apologized, and said he loved me more than anything and didn't want to break up. I don't know why, but I accepted. Now I don't even want to know what's right and what's wrong. I have no friends; my best friend left me because I chose to stay with him. I have messages where he admits to what he did and apologizes, and I'm keeping them. I also have photos of some of the bruises. I'm keeping those too. I'm ashamed to say this, but I still love him because he's sometimes very kind and considerate to me.

It's only in those terrible moments that it feels like a demon has possessed him. I know I should leave him, but I can't. Something inside me is stopping me. The memories and photos of when everything was beautiful are stopping me. I guess I can't accept that our relationship has turned into this.

Sometimes i have the courage to leave and want to leave but he used my credit card and there's a huge debt which i cannot afford to pay (i am working right now btw) and i cant go back to my family and say "hey i was staying with some guy for almost 2 year and the only thing left is this debt". Because i am ashamed. He even used the euros i collected for myself so when i leave him i would at least have some money. I am very stupid i told him about this plan and he was like yeah it would be good for you. Today He told me he used it last summer while we were on vacation but i remember there was still more money when i checked last month. I dont believe him but i will blame myself if it is true. He said he used it because i was not working that time and all i wanted was to go out dates with him which he couldnt afford, which is a lie i think. I think he used all of it for gambling or something.