Situationship can lead to depression and suicidal thoughts
I am not sure who needs to hear this but I hope this helps, heals and give me advise how can I move with this.
I came to Melbourne in 2022 as a student. I met people in my university and I became friends with them. That how I met V through one of the units. We went to club with few other friends of us. He kissed me there and I rejected him. I didn’t wanted to be involved with someone whom I am working on assignment with, very similar to the way you don’t involved with your coworkers. Next day I behaved like nothing happened. But 3 days later, I invited him thinking I am single and maybe we can be something. I must say he is younger than me by 5 years. Many people may not consider this a big deal but this may be a big deal later.
He wanted to shift to a better place and he was short of one housemate. He asked me initially I said no, but later he said that we would be friends and we can be together as friends. In foreign country when you find people whom you can rely on, you want to be belonged. Hence I said yes
Moving forward here at 2026– I was pregnant at 2023, 2024— both time he mentioned me to abort it. I wanted to keep distance and still he would keep touching me and pushing him on me. I was a fool thinking he loves me even though we never had a label. He financially invested in me. When I lost my job last year I was financially in bad position he helped me. I would pay him within a week because I was doing random jobs and still here I am pregnant— about to abort for the last time. Told him to leave the house or else I will file a case against him — told his family about it and they threatened me
But in all this I have missed crucial years, 3 babies— lots of emotions and maybe a person who cared for me a bit. Feeling so depressed and emotional turmoil