u/EmptyVoid013

I came up poor and worked my way up through all my jobs , always the underdog i was never good enough to be anything more than overnight stock, warehouse freight or middle management .

One day i was denied a promo and my performance mgr told me it was because he couldn't let me go yet. Explained my all minority staff were animals & didnt work hard, he told me i did the work he needed so he could stay home, reassuring me because i was lighter skinned then the other employees i had potential and someone would give a light skinned minority like me something more eventually but that time wasn't then.

I stayed because it was work and a paycheck... Eventually a german guy was pulled from retirement by his friend made him a mgr also so he could get a paycheck, he knew me a total of 26 days before deciding i shouldn't be working with anyone white. He went around to customers calling me a terrorist and told other mgmt they should be embarrassed to work with foreign ppl.

( For the record im born and raised in this hell scape country and im native American, spanish and middle eastern mix ).

Eventually the hatred and complaining from this guy reached his friend's bosses who decided to lay me off claiming they no longer had room for a 67 hr a wk floating mgr who managed 3 locations .

I sued and lost basically because they transferred the guy but refused to rehire me.

It's been 5 1/2 years and i could never get back to a steady job, i never found out what they put on my record & i just kept getting older and older and less wanted by other companies.

I lost my apt and all my family's possessions, since then its been just a chaotic spiral.

I relied on my self taught ability to repair computers to earn money and dabbled in masonry & demo work, unfortunately nothing is guaranteed and that counts for gigs online as well.

Lost the car we lived in few a few years and ended up sleeping outside in parking lots or on roof tops. We just got another car a few months ago though it seems to be failing in so many ways it probably will not survive the rest of the year.

Its been a Terrible life but i recently was able to start learning to work on cars fixing random parts as they come available, its a process but its hard when nobody wants to help you , teach you or hire you to learn on the job at a shop.

Honestly i don't know what more i have left in this life, its just too much & the majority of people in this society are worse than at any time i can recall in my life.

I just felt like talking, i have not had a friend in my life in many many years, even on here it seems impossible to connect with anyone who can understand this life.

I dont want anything, just looking to see if anyone felt like talking, i text chaotically, i can only use my phone for apps when i have wifi from a store so i try to hang around shopping plazas or a dunkin or Starbucks whenever i can.

If you do decide to dm me just understand i dont ghost anyone its just hard to maintain a connection when your on the move but i do get back to you when i can.

Im in nyc i dont mind talking to anyone from regardless of where your from but if your in nyc it is probably easier to relate or at least understand some of the unique circumstances you encounter here being homeless.

I'm in nyc born & raised, been around the coast to other states and cities but ppl just are not decent these days. It's become nearly impossible to even have small talk with someone since many are openly hostile without even knowing you.

Im a techie, i love computers, linux is my go to, steam for gaming, Android for cellphones.

I love to read, im a nerd at heart i can study for hours just because i enjoy learning.

I dont do scary or horror or gore, its honestly played out , everyone who likes that stuff only ever want to watch the same type of things and it dominates all conversations. I'm not a big movie watcher , i like comics, cartoons pixar,disney whatever catches my attention, anime, family comedy shows/movies, action movies, stand up comedy, i do enjoy a good documentary from time to time, i prefer to watch ny1 news as a way to wind down from a long day😵‍💫(the news , really!) Yep the news.

I am married, my wife has tried countless times to make me a harry Potter fan, i admit its good but somethings still dont click, i guess im more of a book type when it comes to big detailed stories. She is a board game fanatic, unfortunately i cannot stay still long enough to get through a board game, usually 10 minutes in i feel like exploding from the waiting so no board games for me... Well except chess ( its just different 🙃.)

I used to enjoy powerlifting daily but i got hurt during a job and its been hard getting back to it alone without a spotter. Still a big guy though.

I'm big on natural medicine and care when its nothing major, i have a terrible tea regime daily ( i hate tea, but it has proven very useful ) , i love my java,☕ so its a must have for me even if i have to scrounge for change i am getting that little cup of black coffee into my system.☕

I can't do loud noise, like tv📺 or music🎶, it has to be low or i have to go, it's different when your enclosed in a room vs being out around the city the noise is just not the same. Ppl tend to be bothered by my inability to sit through a movie in their apt with the dial turned up 25 notches.

I do not smoke anymore, asthma and other breathing issues been cigarette free for many years now, i dont care if u smoke just cant be in the car , apt any enclosed environment, u can blaze too its no problem, wife smokes & gummies no issues there.

I do enjoy a good bourbon & vodka from time to time when its affordable.

I am currently learning to work on cars as a new skill i want to pick up but its been hard lack of a lot of tools and safe places to work without being harassed.

Im in a complicated situation in life right now so i cannot afford to do a lot of hanging out activities, though hopefully in a few months that will change.

I do use the twinme app to chat and voice chat and sometimes video.

No whatsapp , no telegram or signal app, sorry.

I am not in any political party camp, i am all over the place policy wise, i definitely support a lot of social/comm policies but i also like some libertarian leaning ideas. I cant even call myself a centrist because i cant come to terms with certain ideas or policies from other political camps.

I should also mention i am a big animal person, i cannot ignore strays i cannot not help. Im always stopping to grab food for animals or make a little house to keep them dry, this goes for cats, birds, deer, squirrels, raccoons, whatever is out there that crosses my path.

Oh yeah, i don't eat meat but im not a vegan just a vegetarian so if you had to kill & gut it i dont eat it. Also i dont do foods that are not organic or non gmo, yeah a lot of ppl insist on knocking it but everyone has a choice of how they care for their bodies, thats one of my choices.

Honestly at the moment i wish i could find ppl or even just one person who could resonate with me, understand life is hard and complicated sometimes so i cant go out and splurge on fun stuff at this moment in my life. Most ppl drift off once u turn down bars or movies or Shopping around the city more than 2x, but im basically poor so it's just my reality at the moment.

Like i said, im just sifting around for good people, gender, ethnicity, religion, sexual preference, non of that matters, just good and understanding people.

If I don't get a hit well at least i tried.

I'm in nyc born & raised, been around the coast to other states and cities but ppl just are not decent these days. It's become nearly impossible to even have small talk with someone since many are openly hostile without even knowing you.

Im a techie, i love computers, linux is my go to, steam for gaming, Android for cellphones.

I love to read, im a nerd at heart i can study for hours just because i enjoy learning.

I dont do scary or horror or gore, its honestly played out , everyone who likes that stuff only ever want to watch the same type of things and it dominates all conversations. I'm not a big movie watcher , i like comics, cartoons pixar,disney whatever catches my attention, anime, family comedy shows/movies, action movies, stand up comedy, i do enjoy a good documentary from time to time, i prefer to watch ny1 news as a way to wind down from a long day😵‍💫(the news , really!) Yep the news.

I am married, my wife has tried countless times to make me a harry Potter fan, i admit its good but somethings still dont click, i guess im more of a book type when it comes to big detailed stories. She is a board game fanatic, unfortunately i cannot stay still long enough to get through a board game, usually 10 minutes in i feel like exploding from the waiting so no board games for me... Well except chess ( its just different 🙃.)

I used to enjoy powerlifting daily but i got hurt during a job and its been hard getting back to it alone without a spotter. Still a big guy though.

I'm big on natural medicine and care when its nothing major, i have a terrible tea regime daily ( i hate tea, but it has proven very useful ) , i love my java,☕ so its a must have for me even if i have to scrounge for change i am getting that little cup of black coffee into my system.☕

I can't do loud noise, like tv📺 or music🎶, it has to be low or i have to go, it's different when your enclosed in a room vs being out around the city the noise is just not the same. Ppl tend to be bothered by my inability to sit through a movie in their apt with the dial turned up 25 notches.

I do not smoke anymore, asthma and other breathing issues been cigarette free for many years now, i dont care if u smoke just cant be in the car , apt any enclosed environment, u can blaze too its no problem, wife smokes & gummies no issues there.

I do enjoy a good bourbon & vodka from time to time when its affordable.

I am currently learning to work on cars as a new skill i want to pick up but its been hard lack of a lot of tools and safe places to work without being harassed.

Im in a complicated situation in life right now so i cannot afford to do a lot of hanging out activities, though hopefully in a few months that will change.

I do use the twinme app to chat and voice chat and sometimes video.

No whatsapp , no telegram or signal app, sorry.

I am not in any political party camp, i am all over the place policy wise, i definitely support a lot of social/comm policies but i also like some libertarian leaning ideas. I cant even call myself a centrist because i cant come to terms with certain ideas or policies from other political camps.

I should also mention i am a big animal person, i cannot ignore strays i cannot not help. Im always stopping to grab food for animals or make a little house to keep them dry, this goes for cats, birds, deer, squirrels, raccoons, whatever is out there that crosses my path.

Oh yeah, i don't eat meat but im not a vegan just a vegetarian so if you had to kill & gut it i dont eat it. Also i dont do foods that are not organic or non gmo, yeah a lot of ppl insist on knocking it but everyone has a choice of how they care for their bodies, thats one of my choices.

Honestly at the moment i wish i could find ppl or even just one person who could resonate with me, understand life is hard and complicated sometimes so i cant go out and splurge on fun stuff at this moment in my life. Most ppl drift off once u turn down bars or movies or Shopping around the city more than 2x, but im basically poor so it's just my reality at the moment.

Like i said, im just sifting around for good people, gender, ethnicity, religion, sexual preference, non of that matters, just good and understanding people.

If I don't get a hit well at least i tried.