I feel lost
Hello , I am a 22 yo Female, I finished my studies working and have a familly that loves me, but I always feel disconnected, unmotivated, sad and lazy, ungrateful, and unsatisfied with my current life, it feels like I need to find my real goal and this one isn't the thing I am made for in this lifetime, I know everyone want to change their lives , but me I am impatient, when I refuse something I can't cope with it no matter what ! I hate my work and I hate it more when I see people suffer I always ask myself what is the point of all this suffering , it makes no sense for me ! Specially when I get a stressful day , sometimes I think I am built only to sleep , but I dont want to make an impulsive step ! Laziness will get me nowhere I know .
Sometimes I feel like I have many abilities. Othertimes I feel like I know nothing : ) idk honestly what is wrong with me ... sometimes I think about becoming a monk and traveling leaving all human needs😅😂 I just dream of a life where I can get peace silence music and sleep am I crazy?!